"I must not have told you how I knew all that my brother had been through even though I had never met and spoken a few words. But you should have thought of it to you, she must have told me.

That's right, she told me all of this herself.

The disease I got was congenital heart disease, which was fine, but I was weak and short of breath, or because of this, I was very quiet when I was young, but my long-term depression became the last straw that crushed this disease;

Especially in the years when I was away from home, I never had a normal life, and I often stayed up late to play games in order to escape that life, although I was sometimes sick, I also kept suppressing it until I couldn't get up when I fell ill and found it irreparable.

At that time, not only heart failure, but also other organs were seriously affected, and even if it was temporarily recuperated, there were no years to live.

So it's not so much a change, but a completely different mentality, and maybe that's the only way to continue to live without pain.

When you hear what follows, I think you'll be able to understand what I mean.

But I didn't think about it that much at the time, I was so bent on living that I wanted to prove something that I didn't have to prove.

My parents and my brother didn't think about it either, but they agreed at my begging, and they seemed very happy.

So I was immediately transferred to the best hospital and the best ward, at that time the medicine was not as advanced as it is now, but in order to save me to achieve the maximum success rate, my brother spent money to send me to country M.

My mother was not in good health and my brother needed to work, so the only people who accompanied me were my father and my sister-in-law, whom I had only met once.

Leaving my hometown and going to a completely unfamiliar place, although it was for the purpose of healing, was a great test for me, who was only seventeen or eighteen years old at the time and did not know anything.

Although my dad is a little educated, he is limited to the township, and it is even more useless to go abroad, and he is not accustomed to the water and soil, so he has to return to China, so everything must be handled by her alone.

And at that time, we didn't know anything about this matter, we only knew that foreign medical skills were better, but we didn't know that if we needed to change our hearts, we had to have a heart first.

And country M is a country that strongly advocates humanitarianism, and there are many patients, so it is conceivable that we want to use legitimate sources, and our relationship is not familiar;

Although I spent a lot of money to live near the hospital and hang myself through medication every day, more than two years have passed and I haven't waited.

But ......"

Mo Ran suddenly paused here, the face that raised his head and left tears, the smile on it at this moment seemed to think of the best memories. His lips squirmed, and he wanted to say but seemed to dare not speak.

Wang Miaoke didn't urge him, just waited quietly, and even slowed down his breathing.

After a long time, he seemed to have finally let go of his burden and spoke softly:

"It doesn't matter, in such a world, what else is there to be afraid of, and I haven't done anything wrong at all, he's no longer there."

"You don't know, during that time, although the daily treatment made me feel less painful, my heart did not feel happy for a moment.

You won't understand that she is so beautiful, so kind, so gentle, she made me forget all the pain, only good in my heart.

She accompanies me every day, takes care of me meticulously, and uses her most gentle and beautiful voice to talk to me and enlighten me.

I am so happy every day, as long as I can see her, hear her name, and think of her in my heart, my heart will be extremely happy.

I forget all the pain and trouble, she taught me to read, I read, she taught me to sing, I sang;

You really won't know that her singing voice is so beautiful, in Vietnamese, Chinese, English;

She is so young, but so knowledgeable and versatile, not only proficient in several Chinese, but also knows everything about the history, literature, music, and art of various countries, and everyone who knows her praises her.

In front of her, I was like a child who longed for her mother's milk, and I was so happy to learn from her.

For more than two years, we have not stopped for a moment, and we have been ...... together all the time;

She seems to be enjoying it, and we are so happy......"

"But God has always been so stingy, it can't make a person happy forever. I don't know where my brother heard the rumor that the two of us were ......

So he hired a babysitter for me and called her back, and the two even had a big fight because of it.

But I wasn't discouraged by that, because when she left, she told me, 'People's happiness is to be earned by themselves, and no matter what time you want, you should not give up easily.' ’

She even kissed me on the forehead and made me feel the most wonderful happiness in the world.

So, even though she left and I lost all the news about her, with her blessings to me, I remained happy and I kept learning to enrich myself.

He even dragged the youngest son of the landlord of the same age to teach me, and shortly before the surgery half a year later, I was admitted to a prestigious local university with the first place in the self-examination.

You don't understand how happy I was and how much I was looking forward to her when the notice of surgery came, but the news that they were married and pregnant and couldn't move......

Although I was very depressed at the time, I had matured under her teaching, and I didn't even show it, and deliberately called back to bless her personally, maybe just to hear her voice.

You don't understand how complicated my feelings were at the time, just like I am now.

The surgery was very successful, and it was recovered after two weeks, and then it was only necessary to take medication on time every day to have a follow-up examination, although it may not last for a few years and there will be other complications, but it doesn't matter.

Three years later, my brother was completely successful in starting a business, and the medicine he needed every day was expensive but nothing.

Maybe I knew that I wouldn't be able to live long, or maybe I just missed her, so I gave up the opportunity to stay and go to college under the pretext that I needed to recuperate, and returned to China to live in her home.

She is still so kind and gentle, but I am not as happy as I imagined to see her again, maybe it is because I see her big belly and the happiness on her face that is always displayed.

So I didn't live in her house for more than half a year, and until the baby was born, I couldn't stay any longer, so I left there under the pretext that I wanted to be self-reliant, and I got a good job.

But what kind of good job is that, a month's salary is not even worth half a month's medicine money, it's just a job that I don't want to see their happiness every day and make myself miserable.

However, the ghost was not too far away, and every once in a while I would find an excuse to visit the baby to see her, which became my only motivation to live for a long time.

I know it's not good, but I know I don't have long to live, so what's the matter. Or a bit of self-abandonment.

But instead of being depressed, I enjoyed life, so my mentality changed, and my salary became higher and higher, and I gradually became not only self-reliant, but even had a surplus.

So when I don't want to work, I quit my job and play for a while, let myself be completely relaxed, and tell myself that it doesn't matter what happens.

As long as you live and live your own life, what does it matter what others think and think! I don't live for others, even for others, only for her. ”