In fact, Lin Hualei also knew in her heart that Sha Nan only had gratitude and guilt for herself, and she did not have the same deep affection and love for Yun Feng as he did, but she had been too obsessed with him over the years.

Loving him has become a habit in her heart.

She couldn't imagine how she could continue to live if the habit of loving him suddenly broke one day.

Therefore, she can't bear the final result of not being able to be with him, just like when she was initially full of ambition to apply for a master's degree at the University of Michigan, she thought that through her own efforts and the help of her family, she would definitely be able to get in, and she would have to be admitted, and she never thought that she would not be able to pass the exam.

Looking back now, if she hadn't been admitted at that time, she doesn't know how she would have suffered such a blow at that time.

Similarly, if she can't be with Shannan now, her persistence over the years, her life from the past to the present, will suddenly lose its shine and be meaningless. This is the reason why she confirmed from Shanantong's mouth that he was not with her, and she would not accept her death.

But she was full of hope in her heart for the love of him.

Shannan has always had a friendly attitude towards her, although it is just a classmate-like concern, but it is also a concern and not boredom! Especially after being hospitalized, the meticulous care and care for her made her even more inextricably inextricable, and the warm indulgence she gave him in her heart overshadowed the sober understanding of the relationship between the two in her heart.

Or, it is in this way that she constantly finds evidence of her approval from reality to strengthen the fantasy hope that she can be with Shanantong.

Yes, she is also full of confidence in the next Shannan and her own life, and feels that as long as the two of them are together, she uses the woman's unique warmth offensive, coupled with her smart mind and solid family background, to influence him in life and help him in his career and work, then even if he is beaten with iron, he will definitely be covered by her.

Besides, she almost paid for him with her life, and now her leg will be difficult for a while, she doesn't know what other life-saving straw she can catch in this life besides him, as long as he doesn't dislike her, then she has to hold on to him. As for her doing this, what will happen between Shannan and Yun Feng is not something she needs to manage.

Thinking of the impermanence of the world, the year before Yun Feng was still pitying her for Shanan, but now, it was Yun Feng who she came to pity and love. This is really thirty years of Hexi and thirty years of Hedong, but she feels that she has nothing to feel guilty about Yun Feng in the thirty years of Hedong that she has bought at the cost of a pair of legs.

Of course, Father Lin and Mother Lin knew that Shannan had a girlfriend before, but for the sake of her daughter's love for Shanan, she really couldn't afford to hurt it, so she also took a position with her daughter and helped her to pull Shanan's people and hearts over.

In order to let her daughter know more about how to hold Shannan's heart, Mother Lin also used her and Father Lin's marriage and love to give her daughter strength and wisdom:

Back then, she and Dad Lin were also introduced to each other, first married and then in love, didn't they also live a happy life? Moreover, according to Lin's mother, Lin's father also had a first love before he met Lin's mother, but he couldn't be together because of family reasons.

Therefore, Lin Hualei has more absolute confidence to pull Shannan's heart to herself.

She believes that time is the best medicine to forget the past and the present. All that is needed is her patience and gentleness.

Yun Feng has been staying in the "old place", watching the people in the café come and go and change until nine o'clock in the evening, I am afraid that in the past few years that this "old place" has been open, people like her who sit quietly from morning to night without moving their seats, and they can't count more than five with their fingers.

Over the next few days, Yun Feng traveled to several places around Ann Arbor, and only returned to the hotel she had booked in Ann Arbor on Christmas Eve. Christmas, her birthday, and New Year's Day, she had to spend it in the closest place to him. She and him, even if they couldn't face each other, had to breathe in his breath. Shannan is a professional person, she and him for more than six years, but also accustomed to pursuing professionalism in everything, her love for him in her heart, is also seeking a beginning and an end of professionalism, serious.

The Christmas atmosphere in Ann Arbor is strong, with Merry Christmas English everywhere and verdant Christmas trees with lights and twinkling stars. Wherever she went, Christmas songs could come out of nowhere and then float into her ears.

She was also deeply affected by the atmosphere of this festival, and her heart was slightly happy, after all, this was a special festival for her so far. But these, in the footsteps of her solitary walking, are only passing scenery after all, like a glimpse of light, bringing a moment of joy, and cannot take root and stay in her heart for a long time. Her heart is still deeply concerned about her relatives at home thousands of miles away.

She went into a small shop and lingered for a while, bought a few gadgets, and prepared to go home for her younger brother Junsheng, and wanted to pick out some sweets, which were intended for grandma and grandmother, and as for other people's gifts, she had already picked them one by one in her wandering around a few days ago, and did not buy any more.

Speaking of which, such a heart is also because Shannan usually smells her ears. Every time he went to see her, in addition to the gifts given to her, there would be gifts for the old people in the family.

Now that she has come to his place alone, she is naturally like him, delicate and warm. Fortunately, her family doesn't understand, as long as she doesn't say that she bought it in the United States, no one will think that at most she thought that she went to Guangzhou to buy it for everyone.

She bought it for her grandmother and grandmother, and because every time she had a birthday, the old man stuffed eggs in her pocket, that is, the time she took Shannan home, it happened to be his birthday, and grandma also gave him two eggs like when she celebrated her birthday, and even took her to eat one, and now, as she buys candy for his grandmother to take back - didn't he say that the old man loves to eat sweet and soft.

Her fingers touched the candy she was choosing, and her heart was as sweet as a grain of candy in her throat, oozing out of the corners of her mouth, bringing out a natural sweet smile, as if she was doing everything she was doing with him at the moment.

On the last day of 2006 and the first day of 2007, she was alone in this beautiful big campus, during the holidays, but there were still students coming and going, and she wanted to be like a recent graduate here.

Where is he at the moment, she thought, and what is he doing? Are his parents with him? Or is he sitting at the computer and busy with his busy work? Lin Hualei was deliberately filtered out in her mind, but in fact, even if she occasionally flashed again, maybe he and Lin Hualei were together, and she still felt uncomfortable in her heart, but she had already let go a lot.

She never believed that he would be a person who was as powerful as Chen Shimei, she also understood his heart and conduct, and believed that he was not a person with a heart on two boats.

She trusts her instincts more, her intuition, and she has never felt that he and Lin Hualei have affection beyond their classmates, especially when they and Alan came to Guangzhou last year, if he really had feelings for Lin Hualei early on, then why did Lin Hualei come to her like that and use those words to stimulate her?

Later, when she couldn't help but be angry, what he said to her, she clearly felt that his feelings were sincere, and there was no false meaning.

Later, at the end of the previous year, he went to Huacheng No. 1 Middle School and went to the Huacheng Education Bureau with her to discuss cooperation.

However, less than two months later, he was so eager to marry Lin Hualei without even giving her any explanation, which was too unbelievable. This kind of abruptness did give her severe pain at that time, but as long as she calmed down, she could analyze that there must be a reason for it, but he wanted to bear it alone, and he was worried that she would be more uncomfortable when she knew.

She was also extremely angry at the act of hiding it from her for his sole responsibility, but it was also undeniable that it was also the love he loved her so much!

She remembered the time she saw him in May, the moment he looked at her, and she was completely sure that he loved her, and this love was only deeper, not shallow. Just like she did to him, it never changed.

The emotional tacit understanding between lovers who love each other deeply cannot deceive each other.

It's just that she actually wants to know, what is the reason for his uncontrollability, why can't he tell her? What is it that can't be faced and solved by two people, and not like this? With her current IQ, she couldn't be sure of the truth, and she couldn't guess the reason why he was hiding her, but with the trust she had always had in his affection, she could still be sure that he must have hidden it from her because he didn't want her to be hurt more.

In this case, she will keep him in her heart, like a doting child in her heart, let him toss in his own life, she can only love him in her own way.

She had already walked to the door of the convenience store, looked up, the sky sometime gently floated goose feather snowflakes, she stretched out her palm stupidly, and held a snowflake in the heavy snow, crystal clear, very graceful, just like her transparent heart at the moment.

It's evening again, and the street lamps are like gentle smiling faces, one by one glowing softer yellowish light in the snowflakes.

She bent her mouth and smiled brightly in the world, stepped on the thick snow again, walked with the snow, and walked in the direction of the hotel in the soft yellow light.

She also allowed her cotton boots to leave clear footprints in the white and flat snow, and they were quickly filled by snowflakes, and there was no trace of walking, and suddenly she remembered a poem of Tagore very poetically: The sky does not leave a trace of me, but I have flown over.

She looked up at the sky, and the snow was coming from the sky, but there was no trace of snow in the sky. Isn't her affection for him a mark in the snow at this time? I've been here, but there's no trace of it.

The rest of her life will also be like this ten thousand birds flying snow, not seeking traces, but must fly through.

Life is like snowflakes, originating from heaven and earth, and will eventually return to heaven and earth.

She thought that she came from heaven and earth, there must be a reason for coming, and before she returned to heaven and earth, there must be a world on earth that she needs to experience, understand, and perceive.

There are all kinds of things in the past, and everything in front of her is the door that is open to her in the world of the world that belongs to her, telling her that she can't stay and should continue.

In this way, it is also good. Isn't it? She unexpectedly remembered the smile of the old man Wang she saw in Hua's hometown village that day, and she couldn't help but purse her lips again and laugh - this was definitely a comfortable and satisfying smile.

Yes, in the snowstorm, walk with love. She was content.

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