"You... You don't think about it all day, do you? Oh my God! ”

Hearing Mo Ran's question, Shen Junqing looked at him with his mouth wide open in shock, and even felt a little dumbfounded and dumbfounded.

"Yes, I've been thinking about this all these days, and I wouldn't be so bothered if it hadn't been bothering me all the time. You don't know, how many attempts I've made, and this happened, I thought I could be alone.

No~, not only did this happen, but even before, I had been thinking about it, but the boundaries between good and bad people were really not obvious before, everyone is a good person, no one needs anyone to save them, everyone lives in their own world.

So you can still close it off, don't think about it, and only take it out and think about it occasionally, but it often still torments you.

But now I can't at all, even if I try to seal it away, when all kinds of things come up, it still jumps out of the deepest part of my mind, torments me, and makes me unable to feel at ease.

But I still avoided it, I didn't want to think about it, because it was so complicated, so difficult to understand, and so painful. And I thought I could really run away from it, just do my part and do what I had to do.

But it's also delusional, when you see more and more people in calamity in front of you, and you have the power to save them......

If it's just once or twice, maybe you will do it without hesitation, and you can even do it freely, hiding your merit and fame.

But in the end, you find that this kind of thing will happen forever, and no matter how hard you try to do it, you can't finish it.

I did it today, and maybe I will do it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. It even fills your people, your heart, and all that you have~

But even so, I can still find a reason for myself, and I will say to myself:

They are not your relatives and friends, people will always die, everyone must pay for their own life, no one lives for anyone, no one can save anyone, everything must rely on themselves. ’

This is not a consolation word, I have always been sure of it before. But until such a world emerges, one thing after another, so unreasonable, so unfair.

Do you know? Yesterday I met such a great man who devoted his life to such a great mission as saving humanity and was still doing it until the moment before he died.

You don't understand, at that moment, in front of him, I suddenly felt how small and selfish I was.

How I wish I could be as great as he was. But after thinking about it, I found that I couldn't do it at all, I was selfish, I was lazy, and even a little arrogant and disdainful, which made me resist and unwilling to do it.

But my heart is still urging me strongly, not only the heart of 'the rise and fall of the world, the responsibility of the husband', the heart of 'the stronger the ability, the greater the responsibility'. The most important –

Yes, and that strong self-reproach.

Heh~, sister-in-law, you must not understand why I have such thoughts, because you must be thinking, 'yes, it's not your responsibility for this world to become like this'.

So if I say 'yes,' you're going to find it very strange.

But that's exactly what happened.

Do you want to know what I was thinking in the second before disaster struck? Yes, I'm looking forward to the end of the world.

Then, you see, the end of the world, people are dead, parents, relatives, friends, so many fresh lives...... They all died because of me.

Even if they are alive, they are so difficult, they are being tested by death every day, and their lives are helpless, there is no hope, no future. Not only them, but also your ......, and even myself.

You don't know, every time I see them in suffering, I will think of you, if they are replaced by you, and suffer like that, I will definitely blame myself and go crazy, I will think, why no one saves her, a little bit is better~, don't let her suffer.

So I just couldn't resist trying to save them, and even forgot that the real you were still in danger.

You saved me, and I put you in such a desperate situation......"

Mo Ran said excitedly, and the eyes that subconsciously turned his head to stare at Shen Junqing were in pain, and it looked as if he was going to die in the next moment.

Shen Junqing, how could it be, hearing such fierce words, especially those in the back, her heart that was forcibly suppressing her calm seemed to be unable to hold it anymore, at this moment, she even wanted to reach out and touch his face, and stepped forward to hug him.

He was so painful, "It turns out that he is so painful~" She couldn't help but sigh for this.

"You ......" She wanted to say something immediately, but what could she say in the face of such a major topic, a problem that the entire human race could not solve correctly for thousands of years!

But you can't help but say it, you can't help but say it, if you don't say something, the person in front of you will definitely die a painful death because of it.

Suddenly, she seemed to think of something, so her whole intense emotions instantly calmed down, and she reached out and gently stroked Mo Ran's face, and then smiled and whispered like a mother who loves her child:

"Look at you, you've always made yourself so embarrassed, it used to be like this, and it still is like this, and you haven't grown at all.

I remember telling you before, kindness is such a beautiful word, she is not used to make people miserable. If you don't mean it, you just want to use her as an excuse to free your heart from self-blame and put yourself in a desperate situation of unhappiness.

It would be so unnecessary that it would even be blasphemous to her. I don't think I would want to see her if she existed.

So, why do you bother with this? Promise me, okay? Be kind to yourself, think a little more about yourself, and be happy. Do what you can and don't do it if you're not happy. No one will blame you.

This may be what she wants to see the most, and even if you abandon her because of this, she will definitely not blame you for it.

You have to believe that if you love her, she will love you, and the more you love her, how much she will love you, although your way may be different, but what is the difference between love.

I think it must be like this, well, it must be like this. ”

She's doing a good job, maybe because she's been doing it all along. Her movements are calm and gentle, just like the tone of her voice.

"Is that so?"

Although it was only a few words, he could see Mo Ran's pain draining away from his face for a moment, and although he was still a little hesitant, he obviously seemed to understand something.