Shifu is brightly lit, the music is noisy, the voices of people are boiling, and people come and go very lively.

The youngest son of the Shi family celebrated his tenth birthday.

The stars held the moon, and the spoiled Shi Xiaoxuan allowed two small glasses of wine, and his head was a little dizzy.

He felt a little stuffy and wanted to blow a cool breeze, so he walked out of the lively hall alone and slowly walked to the back garden.

He sat in the pavilion, his head resting on the pillar and his eyes closed in a daze.

A man came out of the corner and slowly approached him.

In the moonlight, it turned out to be the cheap slave Shi Yue.

He was not allowed in the front yard.

At night, no one came to this back garden, so he dared to come in.

In this back garden, I have been waiting for the little boy for a long time.

Shi Yue: "Little boy!"

Shi Xiaoxuan opened his eyes and saw that it was him, and was stunned for a moment.

Shi Yue knelt down and saluted him.

Shi Xiaoxuan looked at him silently.

Shi Yue looked up at him, lowered his eyes, and still knelt at his feet.

Shi Yue: "Little boy, what's wrong with you?"

Shi Xiaoxuan looked at him and didn't speak.

Shi Yue was a little surprised, raised his head and glanced at him again.

Shi Yue hesitated for a while, but still mustered up his courage, trembled and shrunk, and took out the things in his hand.

Shi Xiaoxuan looked at the thing: "What?"

Shi Yue: "Little boy, today is your birthday, Xiao Dan, he, he, he asked me to give this to you!"

Shi Xiaoxuan was stunned for a moment, then took a look at it, and it turned out to be a villain pinched with mud.

Shi Xiaoxuan happily: "Did Xiao Dan do it for me?"

He played with the little clay figurine, then raised his eyes to look at the man kneeling in front of him.

There was silence again.

He saw that the kneeling man's face was swollen.

Shi Xiaoxuan: "What's wrong? You were beaten again?"

Shi Yue: "......"

Shi Xiaoxuan: "Be careful yourself, don't provoke others, if you are beaten, it's not that you hurt!"

At a young age, the words are so old.

Shi Yue was a little surprised and looked up at him.

Shi Yue looked at his eyes, and couldn't help but feel a faint pain in his heart.

His eyes were so cold.

There is even a faint melancholy.

This kid is only 10 years old!

Shi Yue felt very sorry for this child.

This kid who used to call himself "Daddy".

How much I love him!

Although he is the son of that man.

But since he was a baby, he had a strong fatherly love for him in his heart.

He also knows very well what kind of feelings this child has for him.

He truly loves himself, and he thinks of himself as his biological father.

Shi Yue felt a little sad in her heart.

His true father was someone else, the supreme lord of the palace.

What are you?

A very lowly slave who is pointed out by a thousand men and spit on by all.

Fate really arranges it......

Shi Yue looked up at the aristocratic son in front of him again.

I love him myself and want to love him, but how can it be?

The only thing that can be done is to avoid him and respect him.

Himself is just a slave.

Far from him,

This is a matter that suits himself and his identity.

The garden was so silent that you could almost hear the breath of insects in the grass.

Shi Xiaoxuan glanced coldly at the person kneeling at his feet, stood up and prepared to leave.

Shi Yue: "Oh, little boy!"

Shi Xiaoxuan looked back at him.

Shi Yue hesitated, but still groped, and took out a bamboo dragonfly from his shirt.

Shi Yue: "Little boy, this is my ......"

Shi Xiaoxuan: "What?"

A few stars flashed in Shi Xiaoxuan's cold eyes.

Shi Yue: "This, this, this ......"

Shi Yue stammered for a long time, and he couldn't speak clearly.

The aristocratic boy looked at him closely.

Shi Yue: "...... This is what I did for you, little boy!"

This lowly man, facing this aristocratic boy who is only ten years old, also uses the honorific "you".

Shi Xiaoxuan: "......"

Shi Xiaoxuan: "Did you do this for me, did you do it just for me?"

Shi Yue: "Yes, yes, little boy, today is your birthday." I don't have anything else to give to you......"

Shi Yue: "Ah, I said, how can the little boy like such a thing?"

Shi Yue: "But Xiao Dan, he insisted that you would like it!"

Shi Yue: "It's really ......"

He nagged to himself as he panicked to take the bamboo dragonfly back.

Shi Xiaoxuan eagerly took the bamboo dragonfly and looked at it excitedly.

Shi Xiaoxuan: "It's so good-looking, I like it so much!"

Shi Yue looked at him blankly.

Shi Xiaoxuan's eyes sparkled at Shi Yue, his face was no longer cold, but joyful, but moved.

Shi Xiaoxuan: "Thank you!"

Shi Xiaoxuan: "This is my favorite gift I received!"

Shi Yue looked at him, moved and warm in his heart.

Shi Xiaoxuan: "You ......"

He looked at the man in front of him and hesitated for a moment.

Shi Xiaoxuan: "You...... Can you hug me?"

The kneeling man was stunned, staring blankly at this aristocratic son, standing tall in front of him.

The aristocratic son looked at the man in front of him, his eyes were so eager and eager.

The two looked at each other, their eyes intersecting, as if they were caught by a magnet, and they couldn't move away.

I don't know how long it took, a cold wind blew, and the kneeling man shivered, and his consciousness returned to reality.

He bowed his head.

Shi Xiaoxuan's gaze dimmed,

He turned around coldly and slowly walked out of the back garden.

..................

Just after the spring rain, the air is fresh, and people's spirits can't help but be a little uplifted.

Shi Guangji held two iron balls in his hands, turned back and forth, and took a leisurely walk in the garden.

Unconsciously walking to the door of the backyard, he lifted his robe and walked in.

He is still in good shape, and his eyes are still awe-inspiring.

It's just that his jet-black beard has a little white silk mixed in.

There was a faint melancholy in his eyes.

He listened to the birds, looked at the green trees, smelled the flowers, and his mood gradually brightened.

One carelessly, an iron ball in his hand fell to the ground and rolled into the grass.

He was about to pick it up when a thin hand picked it up.

He saw a little boy of about five or six years old, dressed in rags and with a yellow and hungry face, wiping the iron ball with his fat, tattered clothes.

The little boy wiped the iron ball clean, and then ran to Shi Guangji with a smile and held it to him with both hands.

Shi Guangji looked at this child with fear.

The child was a little frightened to see him like this.

Shi Guangji stretched out his hand and took the iron ball.

He recognized the child as Shi Yue's son.

He looked at the child, who grinned at him, revealing a mouthful of neat white teeth.

Unknowingly, he reached out and touched the child's head.

Shi Xiaodan looked at him with sparkling eyes.

Under such a pure gaze, Shi Guangji's long-standing cloudy heart actually felt a little cool.

Shi Guangji: "......"

Shi Xiaodan: "Who are you? Why have I never seen you? What are you doing here?"

Shi Guangji was stunned for a moment.

Shi Guangji realized that he really rarely came to this backyard.

This somewhat deserted yard.

I came here occasionally, but I didn't see this child much.

This kid is really good-looking.

But it's too thin.

Shi Guangji's heart was faintly painful.

Shi Guangji: "What are you doing here?"

Shi Xiaodan: "I'm playing with catching stones, do you want to play?"

Shi Guangji: "......"

Shi Xiaodan: "Don't you know how to play? Come on, I'll teach you to play, it's fun." ”

As he spoke, Shi Xiaodan squatted down and demonstrated to the man next to him how to play with grabbing stones.

Shi Xiaodan looked up at him: "How is it?"

Under his innocent gaze, Shi Guangji actually answered the question.

He nodded at him.

Shi Xiaodan took his hand and put the stone on his hand,

Shi Xiaodan: "Come on, come and play!"

Shi Xiaodan: "Let's see who catches more stones!"

The old general, who was over half a hundred years old, squatted down stupidly and played a game with this five or six-year-old child.

The old and the young were playing very seriously.

From time to time there is a joyful laugh.

I don't know when a man came not far from them.

Rickety,

Stared blankly at them.

The wind in early spring was still very cold, carrying the rain, blowing on his body and into his heart.

He looked at this harmonious and happy scene of the old and the young, and his heart was really full of feelings.

There is even a hint of warmth, a hint of relief.

However, there was a deep sadness after that.

Thick and depressed inferiority,

Thick and gloomy hopelessness......

The heart of the lowest slut in this Shi Mansion was in pain for a while.

Shi Xiaodan looked up and saw him.

Shi Xiaodan: "Dad!"

Shi Guangji heard the sound and looked at it, and met Shi Yue's eyes,

Both froze.

Shi Xiaodan ran over and took his father's hand.

Shi Xiaodan: "Dad, I'm playing with this grandfather to catch stones, it's fun!"

Shi Yue lowered his head, his eyes avoiding the supreme figure of the Shi family.

He pulled the child to kneel down to Shi Guangji, kowtowed, stood up and ran away in a hurry.

Leaving Shi Guangji there alone.

He was holding a few pebbles in his hand.

............

Shi Guangji's heart felt so painful.

The haggard, scarred person just now could be his own son, Shi Yue?

He looked at his gaze, unfamiliar and wary.

There is still fear.

That little boy is his grandson!

Thinking of Shi Xiaodan, a ray of joy swayed in his heart, and there was even a shallow sweetness.

This kid is so cute and clever.

But......

His brow furrowed again.

The father of the child......

Shi Guangji raised his eyes and went to look for the father and son, but there was no trace of them.

He couldn't help but sigh.

The man who was unkempt, ragged, and in pain......

It's his own son.

This son, looking at his own eyes, is so sad, so lonely, so inferior......

It's so strange...... Faraway......

This son is so unbearable now, and he is also responsible.

His mother......

Shi Guangji's heart ached.

"...... Loel"

This woman who sleeps in the deepest part of her heart,

The woman I love most in my life.

For her, he abandoned all his wives and concubines, and even let go of his glory and wealth for her.

Drop it all!

As long as I can be with her.

But......

When she was seriously injured and dying, she ran away with another man!

And that man is the one who injured himself.

Shi Guangji's heart was bleeding when he thought of this.

Such a shame.

So painful.

So hateful!

However, just when she was already desperate, her sister Ni'er came back with a crying baby in her arms.

Put the child in your own hands. Just said,

He is your son!

Sister, she is no longer alive!

............

Shi Guangji's resolute eyes moistened.

............

How much I love you, this son!

His countenance, his personality, was exactly the same as that of his mother.

But in my heart, that shadow, that pimple!

Can't get rid of it, can't untie it.

Love him, but don't want to love!

I don't love him, but I love him!

Let yourself, how to face him?!

I can't get close to him, but I always pay attention to him.

However, this child is different from other children, he is always so cautious and dodgy with himself.

He has no father-son intimacy with himself,

There is only the estrangement and distance of strangers.

Shi Guangji gave the sword that followed his life, Ziyu, to this son.

Such love, such weight!

However, he betrayed the court and took refuge in the enemy!

Distressing,

It's a huge disappointment.

For so many years, he has also become a cheap prisoner of Shifu.

himself, deliberately avoiding him, avoiding some things.

Maybe it's an escape!

Unwilling to face it.

I never had any intersection with him again.

What can I do? I don't know what I should do.

Shi Guangji: "Alas......"

He sighed deeply, turned around, lowered his head, and walked out of the backyard step by step.