The moment I watched my dad fall from the sky, my heart beat almost to a standstill.

The noise and exclamations around me could not reach my ears, and I only stared at them with wide eyes but could not see anything. When I came back from the numbness, I knew that I had to run backstage, but after running two steps, I planted a big heel, and my front teeth were bleeding.

When I approached the backstage, I was blocked back by the staff, and I could only see the lonely back of my father sitting there from a long distance, next to who was roaring and who was accusing, and the audience behind me was talking loudly about the accident without any scruples.

These many voices became the sharpest knife that passed through my side and pointed directly at my father.

At this time, if I ignored the criticism of the crowd and the obstruction of the staff, I rushed in and hugged my father's shoulder to comfort me...... Would there have been no later tragedies?

"Jia Xiaoru, don't cry." The deep voice in my ear pulled me back to reality, only to realize that I had been hugged by Zhou Yu at some point, and my head was resting on his chest. I tried to break free from his embrace, but he held it too tightly, and I was weak.

His fingers wiped my face, only to realize that two lines of tears were flowing uncontrollably.

"Let's stop thinking about the past, okay? If Dad is watching from below, he definitely doesn't want you to be sad. ”

Listening to Zhou Yu's whispering in my ear, I suddenly became sad: "He is not below, he can't see me at all." "Separated by the gap between life and death, my father and I will never have the opportunity to see each other again in our lifetimes.

He only lives in the past, lives in my memory, and now he kneels before his grave, so why don't I think about the past?

Zhou Yu hugged me tighter and wrapped his coat around me, "Cry, cry happily." ”

Four years have passed, and everyone is healing their pain, from excitement to calm. And except for that day, every day after that was calm, not crying, not sad, but Zhou Yu said something very right.

I've always lived in my father's shadow.

From great sorrow to peace, it is just a process of bitter crying. It is said that tears are the best way to vent, but not all pain can be replaced by tears. It's just a moment of catharsis, but it can't heal the thousands of holes that have long been rotten.

Finally, I sobbed and raised my head from Zhou Yu's arms, staring at the red letters on the tombstone for a long time, before I couldn't lower my voice anymore: "It's time to go back." ”

Zhou Yu thought I was saying it to him, so he hummed softly. But actually, I was talking to my dad.

It's time to go back, it may be a long time after this visit, or it may not come again.

Arrange the contents of the black wooden box again, and then carefully close it. When he was about to get up, he saw that the people around him suddenly bowed to the ground, making a soft sound, and three times in a row, only to see him straighten up and say to the photo of his father on the tombstone with a sincere face: "Dad, I am married to Xiaoru." You can rest assured that I will be responsible for Jia Xiaoru's happiness in the future. ”

The corners of my mouth were half-raised, and I might have laughed at this if I had heard him say it, but at that moment, when the lilies in the trash can not far away were like thorns in my heart, I only felt very ironic.

Without waiting for him, he picked up the wooden box and walked down the mountain.

When passing the trash can, he kicked his feet and kicked the flower bones that fell to the ground and flew away.

The grave keeper at the gate poked his head out of the guard room to look at us, then shrank back. I don't blame the other party for being indifferent, but I get used to seeing a lot of sorrow.

Walking to the side of the car, I reached out without looking back: "Give me the key." ”

Zhou Yu approached and denied my request: "I'll drive." ”

I put the wooden box on the lid and turned around, "The car is mine, give me the car keys!" ”

His dark eyes sank, and he pulled the key out of his trouser pocket.

I snatched the unlock, put the wooden box in the back seat, and sat in the driver's seat. Sideways glance at the figure who was throwing garbage on the side of the road, the key rotated to start the car, stepped on the accelerator, and the car roared away.

After driving for ten minutes, a text message came in on the phone-

Jia Xiaoru, what are you angry with me?

I snorted coldly, leaned the steering wheel to the side of the road, and braked to a halt.

Then I picked up my phone and replied word by word: Do you think I look like I'm losing my temper with you?

- Why did you leave me alone if you didn't lose your temper?

- Are you still afraid that no one will pick you up? Or, give that person a phone call, it shouldn't be too far.

- Jia Xiaoru, you are angry!

I stared at the last two words and let the fire in my stomach keep rising.

I just admit it—yes, I'm angry! From the first second I saw Wei Lai, I wanted to slap you.

- What does Wei Lai have to do with me?

- Zhou Gongjin, you TMD still came to pretend to me, didn't you inform her that she would appear in the cemetery?

This time, the phone did not move for a long time, but I could not calm the anxiety in my heart, so I started the car again and turned the car to drive back. After driving only a little way, I saw a long figure walking along the side of the road.

He must have seen my car too, and I couldn't really see his face from a distance.

I hit the brakes and stopped there waiting for him to approach.

When he really got closer and closer, he found that his face was full of joy and anger, and his dark eyes were drooping. Walking all the way to my car window, he knocked on the glass, and when I lowered the window, he lowered his eyes and locked on to me: "I didn't know she was going to be here today." I raised my chin, "Do you dare to say that you didn't know she was back in City A?" ”

He was silent, no doubt acquiescing.

I sneered and tilted my head to look at him, "You've met her a long time ago. The tone is affirmative, how could the first person Wei Lai find when he returned to City A not be him Zhou Gongjin?

"Let me get in the car." Zhou Yu made a request.

I said, "Why? ”

"I'll tell you what happened when I get in the car."

"Hah!" Ironically looking away, his gaze was fixed, "Forget it, Zhou Gongjin, I'm still afraid of a car accident." ”

With one foot on the accelerator, the car brushed Zhou Yu's side, jumped out and spun around the steering wheel dozens of meters away, turning around, and doing it in one go. When I heard the sound of tires grinding on the ground, I thought to myself, it seems that I have the potential to drift in a racing car.

When I passed by Zhou Yu again, I didn't squint.

This time, I didn't look back, and drove all the way to the city where I found a coffee shop.

When the clerk asked me what coffee I needed, I hesitated and ordered a caramel macchiato. After the coffee was served, I couldn't wait to take a sip, it was hot and sweet, sweet followed by bitter.

I used to hardly drink caramel macchiato, because I thought it was sweet and greasy, and the coffee had to be bitter.

But today I want to taste the sweetness.

Soon the cup of coffee was at the bottom, and the waiter politely came over to ask if he wanted to refill the cup, and I thought for a moment, "Have a cappuccino." ”

But what was served was a glass of boiled water.

When he raised his head, he saw Zhou Yu standing at the table, and the cup of boiled water was brought by him.

I'm not surprised that he can come back from Phoenix Mountain, there are more Didi taxis now, but I am surprised that he will appear here, how did he find this?

He sat down across from him and said, "Knowing that you want to drink coffee when you're in a bad mood, I asked the driver to find a few coffee shops along the road and found your car outside this one." Jia Xiaoru, let's talk. ”

"What to talk about? Wei Lai? ”

"No," he shook his head, "talk about the knot in your heart." ”

I lowered my eyes silently and grinned at the corners of my lips, "I don't have a knot in my heart." ”

"You have! Otherwise you wouldn't be so abnormal and lose your temper so much today. ”

I laughed, "After all, you're here to talk to her." Zhou Gongjin, I will be abnormal, I will be so angry, don't you really know at all? ”

Zhou Yu paused, "It was an accident back then. ”

"Accident?" I slowly raised my eyes, "My dad has performed countless times on stage, and he knows every step and every procedure well, even down to every second, you told me that it was an accident?" ”

Zhou Yu and I disagreed: "Your father's performance itself has a high risk factor, even if there are many performances and accurate calculations, it cannot be ruled out that there is still a very high risk." That's why I didn't approve of you learning magic in the first place. ”

"Ridiculous!" I shouted angrily, "Your so-called accident is clearly caused by the sudden absence of Wei Lai, who is my father's assistant, and the replacement of someone who is not familiar with the process. Zhou Gongjin, you touch your conscience and ask yourself, is this an accident? ”

Zhou Yu's eyes became gloomy when he looked at me, and he asked, "So is this the reason why you broke up with me in absolute terms?" ”

My heart pounded, as if I had been hit with a hammer, and for a moment I felt numb, and then a dull pain spread from within.

Reasons for breaking up...... Zhou Gongjin, why don't you want to think about the time when you were so desperate, I could give you up?

I didn't ask this sentence, I got up with my hands on the table, and strode out.

The footsteps behind him followed, but I heard the clerk shouting: "I'm sorry, you haven't paid yet." ”

At the same time I pushed the door open and walked out, but I don't know if the cold wind was in my head or what, I can't remember where the car stopped. Looking around, I couldn't find my car.

In the afterglow, the man seemed to come out, gritted his teeth, pulled his legs and ran to the side of the street.

Running to the intersection in one go, the cars coming and going and the red lights seemed to block my way. My gaze shifted from the gray sky and clouds overhead, to the bare trees around me, and finally to the never-ending traffic.

It turned out that I had long since lost my way.

Thinking that marriage was the way out, I jumped into Zhou Gongjin's long river again without hesitation, but the original scars full of holes have not healed.