2. Please be happy (Chapter 173 Extracurricular Reading)

Looking at you, that little pale face, I really want to reach out and help you brush away the haggardness, but, I know that I don't have that qualification anymore.

My existence may be a mistake at all, the wrong birth, the wrong body, the wrong life, the wrong upbringing...... I'm dirty, I hate even the sky, and all the bitterness has to be savored.

Originally, I thought that there would be no love in my world, there would be no unforgettable love, sincere love, pure love, my love could only be on the movie screen, and all my beloved love was buried deep in that screen, all in fantasy.

Maybe God has pity on me, maybe he thinks that I have suffered too little, the train ticket that I picked up, the kind of relationship that should have been a stranger, but it collided again and again, the feeling that became stronger and stronger refused to let me go, soaked into every cell of me, swallowed and devoured all my spiritual flesh, and finally relied on my heart and refused to leave, and plundered the love of me, an ugly man that no one wanted.

Do you know? The time with you is the most beautiful and purest memory of my life, watching you do things carefully, watching you scratch your head and scratching your ears, looking at your unconfidence with a tight little face, looking at your tenacity that you don't give up no matter how tortured, looking at your silly smirk, seeing that you don't say anything, in fact, those sparkling eyes can't hide anything...... It was a strange feeling of beauty that had never been furry before.

I once thought, if I had a daughter like you, how good it would be, I would hold you up to the sky, spoil you, love you, be willful to you, make you happy, lie to you and cry, tease you and joke with you, and be ridden by your neck to fight, isn't it, in my last life, you are really my daughter?

If I were ten years older than you, I would have recognized you as my daughter. I often wonder why we are like this, not far away, not close, not like that.

But in the end, I didn't hold on, I got myself trapped, and I pulled you deeper and deeper, it's time for me to stop, it's time to stop.

I am destined not to marry the person I love the most, and my betrayal will slowly punish me for the rest of my life and bring torment to the grave. I asked, you said, you can only love one person in your life, snow, so do I, we are all thorn birds, we can love once in a lifetime, so you have to leave your unforgettable love to someone who can give you happiness, not waste it on a chaotic person like me.

I'm a bad person, a bad man who is dedicated, and can't behave properly, I don't deserve nostalgia, and I can't give you happiness. Sometimes, I curse myself in the mirror, how could God have created such a thing as me? Why give me such a body? So I often think, how good it would be if you didn't save me, let me disappear with that plane, and let your world be dry and quiet from now on, pure and quiet.

Xue, in my heart, you are the purest spiritual woman, and you can have a premonition of doom, which means that God loves you very much, and I am an outcast of mankind, and I am not worthy of your holiness.

I hope to use my marriage to end your infatuation.

Scold me, hate me, but please be happy.

From today on, remember that you are the best, your mind, your talent, your strategy, your potential, your beauty, your charisma, in this era of global commercialization, enough to make you the best businessman. I believe you are resilient enough to overcome all setbacks. How can our future helmsman Han Lexiang be vulnerable, right?

I'm really envious, envious of those ordinary men. I think that if Lin Yushi can let go of the hatred in his heart, Lin Qifeng can get out of the shadow of pain left by the old love, no matter who they are, they can give you happiness that I can't give. Our Hou Yujian, if you don't like him, I don't expect it, let him get out of the way and go to the corner of the wall.

But you don't have to be that teacher Cheng Song, not only can't he help you, but he will also make a lot of trouble for you from time to time. What are men used for? is to help women solve troubles, and let him deal with his own troubles.

Baby, let me call you one last time baby, if you think I haven't lost my conscience, if God is willing, let me have an afterlife, let me meet you again, let me be a normal man, I will be dedicated to you for a lifetime, spoil you and love you, and hold you to the sky.