"But for the other thoughts, I advise you to take it back sooner, otherwise..."

She didn't say what she said later, but Lou Qingrou understood it, otherwise, they probably wouldn't even be friends.

Her palms tightened, but she didn't speak, just looked at her like that, and her laughter was a little weak.

Shen Yueji couldn't bear to look at her, she knew that Lou Qingrou was very good to her, a very good kind, for her, she could give everything, and she couldn't do it, because of her love, she was so ruthless that she had nothing to do with her, so she was sorry for her dedication.

But especially after knowing her feelings for herself...

That indescribable, inexplicable feeling, obviously both of them are women, why does she have such feelings...

She should like men....

She owed her so much that she couldn't break with her ruthlessly.

But just as ....

She couldn't accept her love that couldn't be refused, which made her feel a lot more alienated from her.

But in the same way, Shen Yueji also knew that it was impossible for her to see her in danger, and when she was in danger, she would help her.

This is all she owes her, and it is also for so many years, their friendship, and nothing else.

Lou Qingrou's face turned pale, and she suddenly smiled: "Qin'er, in fact, you should know, you don't owe me anything." ”

"What you owe me has already been paid off by others. I secretly planned, plotted, and forced your mother to death, so that Murong Yun knew the truth of the year prematurely, even the Shen family, because I was jealous of how much you cared about them, because of selfishness, so I wanted to destroy them, and I wanted you to completely dissociate with them. I want them to know who you are, so they will know that they don't love their own daughter at all, but someone else. ”

"In this way, you will see their true colors, and you will know that in this world, the person who really treats you well and truly cherishes you is me, not them."

"In addition, I also hid it from you, and did a lot of things, a lot of things that you couldn't accept, whether it was Gu Yueyin's death, or Gu Mujue's knowledge, or Gu Muqing..."

"Gu Muyin is my enemy, Murong Yun is also my enemy, you know that I hate them and avenged me, I can understand, but Gu Muqing is different, from beginning to end, he was just a fool, and when he was young, he also helped me a lot, have you forgotten? You have also praised him for the blessings of fools, and you have sincerely thanked him for the help he gave me. ”

"But Qin'er, I'm afraid you care about him, I'm afraid you care about him, do you understand?"

"I'm afraid that after you see him, you will be soft-hearted, and you will remember the help he gave you, I am afraid that there will be another person in your heart, once you live in your heart, whether it is a man or woman, even if it is a stranger, you look at him more, I feel extremely uncomfortable, I can't breathe, do you understand?"

"Qingrou, how did you become like this?"

"Maybe that's what it feels like to love someone. Qin'er, do you think I'm an outlier? Even I feel that I am an outlier, I should have liked men, I have had affairs with so many men, but why.... Why do I like you? Why, I like it so much that I can't extricate myself, for you, I'm willing to let go of everything, as long as you're happy, even if it's a word, even if it's for me to die, I'm willing. ”