Although I have ten years of advanced experience, I am still a little panicked when I really want to leave the place where I have lived for two lifetimes.

After careful consideration, I decided to look for a job in a big coastal city. Which city to go to? I made a mistake again, go to the city of Guangzhou and Shenzhen, it's too far, it's not that I'm afraid of far, the young heart always wants to go as far as possible, the main thing is that my parents will definitely not agree to me going. Go to the coastal cities in the north, I have longed for the water towns in the south of the Yangtze River since I was a child, and I think the development of the northern cities is too slow.

After some ideological struggle, I finally chose Haidu, a city that is a compromise between the north and the south. Haidu is located in the south of the Yangtze River, the coast of the East China Sea, although it is still worse than those frontier cities in Hainan, but in recent years, it has developed rapidly and the economy is prosperous, and it is a large city on the eastern coast, and there will be many employment opportunities in big cities. And I remember that in 10 years' time it would become a major financial center in China and the world.

I decided and went to discuss it with my parents. What I mean by talking is telling them that even if they don't agree, I'm going to go. This kind of self-reliant character is formed by not being favored by parents since childhood, and doing their own things, just like the children of the poor are in charge of the house early.

When I told my family about my decision, my two older sisters looked at me like aliens. Dad immediately said no, with a stiff face. Only Mom was noncommittal.

Then I took out the eloquence I had learned as a teacher to reason with them. Why is it useless for me to graduate from college in the countryside, anyway, I haven't been assigned now, so it's better to go out and break through if I work in the county...... Wait a minute.

It seemed that my mother was moved by what I said, but my father said with a straight face: "A girl's house, what is it going to do?" Stay at home, and when you are assigned a job, you will go to be a teacher honestly, and you will not want to go anywhere. ”

If it was a previous life, with my father's words, it would be enough to calm me down and dispel all my rebellious thoughts, but I am a person with ten years of advanced experience, I am not joking, since I have decided, I must realize it.

I've packed up all my things, and even if they don't agree with me leaving, I'll sneak away. What's more, I didn't like to be a teacher in the first place, and I applied for the teacher training exam because of the low tuition fee, and I was afraid that the tuition fee for applying for other schools would be too high, and my mother wouldn't let me go.

Then I went on to give the example of our village going out to work in a big city to earn back money, and when I talked about Keiko, the most foreign person in our village, my father was furious and said, "You still talk about her, do you know where her money came from?" ”

Yes, I know, I knew it from the experience of my previous life, and I didn't expect my current father to actually know that she was making chickens in a southern city. That's when the people in the village are still very poor, only Keiko buys things at the commissary, and she doesn't want small change, so I think the people in the village only see her scenery, so I used it as an example, but I didn't expect it to become a negative teaching material.

After all, my mother is a rural woman who has never seen the world, and she did blush a little when she heard the examples I said, and if it weren't for my father's roaring face, he would have promised me.

The first fight ended with my temporary defeat.

For the next few days, I didn't talk at home, I didn't eat well, in short, I just pretended to be very distressed, and I knew that my father would feel distressed.

Sure enough, three days later, Dad spoke first: "Xue'er, do you really want to go out?" ”

I raised my teary eyes, looked pitifully at him, who already had sporadic gray hair, and nodded earnestly.

He sighed and said, "Do you know, big cities are very chaotic now, and there are many illegal industries, and it is very dangerous for a girl to go out, what kind of work are you going to go out for?" ”

What do you do when you go out? I really didn't think about it specifically, but in order to get out, I said, "Dad, don't worry, I'll take care of myself, I won't go to those illegal industries, and if I can't find a job, I'll come back." ”

Hearing me say "come back", my father seemed relieved and agreed that I was leaving.

I was allowed to go, I couldn't wait to pack my luggage, and my family could only give me 200 yuan for the journey. Dad asked Mom to borrow it, but I said no, I was there to earn money, not to spend money. Dad said that it is not so easy to find a job outside, even if you can't find a job, it will cost money. I said I'd call home if I ran out of money. We didn't have a phone at home, so my mother went to the house of the person who had a phone not far from us, asked for the number, and asked me to call their house if I had something. In fact, during the period of part-time work after graduation, I had more than 300 yuan in my small treasury, plus 200 yuan given to me by my mother, a total of more than 500, I thought it was enough to support my life before I couldn't find a job, so I had no fear.

On the day I left, my father dropped me off at the county station, and I watched the car drive away, and I felt that he was already in tears. After my father disappeared from sight, I turned my head, wiped tears from the corners of my eyes, and began to think about the reality I was facing.

In the vast sea of people, I, the soul of a thirty-year-old leftover girl, with my body still three months and twenty-one years old to turn twenty, left my hometown to find a way to live my own life. What will my path look like? A broad road or a rugged mountain road? No matter what, I want to use my own hands to change my life and jump out of the circle of fate.

I went to the provincial railway station and bought a hard seat ticket to Haidu, and with my financial strength, I can only afford a hard seat. The train departs at 12:30 p.m. and arrives at Haidu Station at 9 a.m. the next morning, and now there are still three hours before the departure of the train. I first found a small noodle restaurant, ate a bowl of noodles, and then went to the waiting room to wait for the bus. There weren't too many people in the waiting area to Haidu, so I found a seat and sat down and put my luggage beside me. My luggage was a backpack with a few changes of clothes, generations of instant food, and a packet of eggs that my mother had boiled for me in the morning. As for the more than 300 yuan left over after I bought the ticket, I had already put it in the pocket of my underwear. I've sewed a couple of panties into my pockets just to be on the safe side.

Not long after he sat down, a little beggar came and asked for money. He asked for one seat after another, and whoever didn't give it, he wouldn't leave. I was nervous because I didn't have any extra money to give him, and I might have to ask for food that day. But he just wouldn't let me go, no way, I took an egg out of my bag and gave it to him, he bowed before grinding the next object, and I breathed a sigh of relief. I thought to myself, if one day I don't have the money to go home, can I save enough money like this to buy a train ticket back to my parents?

Three hours is a long time and a quick time, checking tickets, getting on the bus, looking for seats, my seat is next to the aisle, and the two seats inside are a mother with an eight or nine-year-old girl. Fortunately, there is a sense of security when you see this kind of travel companion, and although there are many people who cheat with children nowadays, I still believe that most people with children are good people. The two seats opposite us by the window were a girl who looked like a college student and a handsome young man, who didn't seem to know each other.

And there was no one in the seat across from me. I fantasized about what kind of person would come to the other side, preferably a handsome guy, but also very rich, after nearly a day of our trip, we became friends, and when we arrived in Haidu, he enthusiastically helped me rent a house and find a job, and then we slowly ...... Stop, so don't have a long memory, and start dreaming all over the world again, in the last life, haven't been tortured enough by the dream of a wealthy family? How can there be such a cheap thing in the world, Cinderella and the prince are made up to deceive us poor girls, that kind of dream can never be done. Besides, how can a rich person sit in a hard seat, even if he can't buy a plane ticket, no matter what, he has to buy a soft sleeper.

Stopping my thoughts, I pulled out my Walkman, plugged in the English tape, and began to study. I have always understood in my heart that if you want to achieve something, you can't stop learning at any time, my English was not very good in my previous life, but I am a Chinese teacher in school, and I want to break out in this life, fluent English is a compulsory course, maybe I will learn French and Japanese in the future......

I was listening to the tape and reading the book when I vaguely heard the little girl next to me throw herself into her mother's arms and cry, "Mom, I'm afraid." Mom was busy comforting her with gentle words.

I thought to myself, in broad daylight, there are so many people on the train, what are children afraid of? Didn't you just sing and laugh? So I lifted my eyes from the book. And this look up made me see the ugliest man I've ever seen in my life, no, in my two lives.