Gritting his teeth, he asked bluntly: "Did you fall from the stairs or did you jump yourself?" ”

When I asked, my eyes locked on Li You's face, and I saw that he was shocked, and then he suddenly raised his head in panic, and his eyes flashed with rebuttal: "What nonsense are you talking about?" I accidentally fell. ”

"Then why are you sitting on the windowsill these days?"

"I'm sitting on the windowsill because of ......" Li You took a short breath and became emotional, "It's because society is too unfair to me, why do you say that as long as I withdraw the lawsuit, Zhang Jiahao will compensate our family a lot of money, but in the end, I only pay half of the medical expenses?" Why did I grow up in such a family? Why did my mom and dad get divorced? Why did my dad ignore me when I was hurt? Why did my mother get that disease to hurt me? ”

I couldn't help frowning when I heard this, I could understand his anger at the Zhang family's rebellion, but he was actually resentful of his family, and even his mother's illness thought it was harmful to him.

His thinking can even be described as extreme, I am afraid that it has been around for a long time.

And what caused him to do this was not only Zhang Jiahao's bullying, to be precise, this was just the fuse, and it was his family that really made him have radical thoughts.

Single parent families.

I feel the truth.

"Because of that, you don't have the courage to live?"

He sneered and said, "You are a barrister, how can you understand my pain?" When my mom and my dad were together, they didn't quarrel and were cold and violent, and then after the divorce, my mom cried all day long, and then found out that the kidneys were bad, why are my classmates happy, but I have to bear this? ”

"You feel like being alive has become a burden?" I asked him softly.

I didn't think that this time he flatly admitted: "Yes! I sat on the windowsill every day and thought that the pain of jumping would disappear, and I would no longer have to hear my mother's cry, no longer have to see the disdainful eyes of my classmates, and no longer have to think about the meaning of my own life. ”

I lowered my eyes and said lightly: "Then why don't you jump?" ”

The air froze, and the sound of the boy's gasping was heard, as if he was in astonishment.

I continued: "The second floor is too low, and jumping off is just a broken leg, and you will suffer more. If you really don't want to live, you should find a higher building, such as this ninth floor, you have no chance of surviving if you jump down; Or the second floor, you simply hit your head on the ground, the skull is shattered to death, and it is too late to rescue. ”

In the afterglow, the boy's body on the bed was shaking violently, and my sensitive ears heard something strange coming from outside the hospital room.

After a while, I heard Li You tremble and ask: "Even you think that people like me are a bad seed when they live, and they are a burden to society?" ”

I raised my eyes to meet his empty eyes, and my voice was flat and indifferent: "Does my opinion matter?" Isn't that your choice? Maybe you think that by jumping from the upper floor, the resentment and hatred in your heart will be revealed, and you will no longer have to live under the strange eyes of others, so that you will be completely liberated. And then what? ”

Li You looked at me in a daze, and asked blankly, "Then what?" ”

"What happens when you die? Public opinion strongly condemns your parents, and relatives and friends around you point to your parents' noses and scold, saying that they gave birth to you but are not responsible for you, they forced you to death, and then they are desolate in their old age, without children under their knees, and the pain of losing a child will accompany them for a lifetime until death. ”

The young man's face was already as pale as paper, but at this time it was even more penetrating, and his lips trembled and he wanted to say something, but he couldn't open his mouth.

I said on his behalf, "Do you want to say, why do I say that?" And who is qualified to discuss your life? Turning his gaze away, he didn't let the gloom in his eyes show his whiteness, and heard himself whisper: "Because I am a single parent like you, and have experienced a similar environment to yours, but there is one difference, that is, your father is at least alive, but my father is already ...... Nope. ”

There was a moment when the thought of suicide flashed through my mind, not to complain like Li You, but I also felt what the meaning of my life was. Later, I gradually figured it out, and I felt that my thoughts at that time were ridiculous.

"Li You," I said, "you can't deny that your parents once loved you, and it was later that they had their own belonging that affected the environment in which you lived." It's not your fault, it's not their fault, don't really regret it when it's irreparable, and then you'll find that you can't regret it. ”

"But my mother is sick, and I can't do anything about it." After Li You shouted out, he really cried like a child.

My originally sharp eyes were condensed with a wisp of gentleness and dampness.

Silly boy, the solution was figured out by people, and you are far from a dead end.

Knowing that this kid will be fine if he vents out, the purpose of my trip is also considered to be the same, although it hurts to open the old wound, but it is still worth it.

Zhou Yu pushed the door in at this time, and I turned my eyes to look at him and saw him looking over with a moving face.

With a heart move, he eavesdropped outside.

He soon came over, stood side by side with me when he came to my side, and said to Li You, who was still crying bitterly: "You don't have to worry, the hospital is already looking for a matching kidney for your mother, and there is always a way to deal with money." ”

Not long after Li You woke up from a coma, he cried bitterly and drained his physical strength, and soon fell asleep.

Zhou Yu pulled me out of the ward and let Xiao Lin, who was staying outside, go in to take care of me. I was pulled all the way to the safe passage by Zhou Yu and leaned against the wall, "You were really risky just now, have you ever thought about the backfire?" What if Li You really goes to extremes again? ”

"If he doesn't get rid of his demons, no matter how much he guards, it's useless. And, do you think he really wants to die? ”

Zhou Yu groaned, "Judging from the behavior, it really doesn't look like it." ”

Li You is not a child, junior high school students already have the ability to be black and white, if he really wants to commit suicide, he will not just jump from the second floor. It may be a momentary impulse at that time, or an unintentional sentence from someone, that led to the current situation.

And that person, I guess most likely his mother.

Although I have only met Li's mother twice, it can be seen that she is a chattering person, and I am afraid that she will often complain and nag with her son when we can't see it, but she has never noticed the changes in Li You's psychology.

"I didn't expect that." Zhou Yu suddenly opened his mouth to pull my thoughts back, and he locked my eyes, "You will use yourself as an example to explain him." I sneered and pretended to be indifferent and replied: "There are ready-made examples here, no need to use them in vain." ”

He reached out to stroke my face and put his forehead against me, "Jia Xiaoru, although I like the way you smile, but don't laugh if you don't want to laugh at this time, when I hear you mention your father outside the door, even if your tone is soft, I can feel your pain." ”

It seems that a thread is embedded in the heart, and it is slowly and finely grinding.

If I don't pay attention, I don't feel pain, but when my nerves are condensed there, I feel the pain spread.

But I didn't want to dissect myself on such an occasion, so I changed the topic: "You said that there is a way to pay for Mother Li's surgery, what are your plans?" "This kidney replacement is not like an injury such as a fracture, as long as you are born with this disease, you will know that it is a sky-high price, and you can't do surgery without hundreds of thousands.

And Zhou Yu's look made me realize: "You don't want to pay for it again, do you?" ”

"There's really no way, so I can only respond to the urgency first."

I pondered for a moment, looking for words: "Zhou Gongjin, there is no doubt that you are very upright, and you can even be called enthusiastic in this case." But don't you feel like you're out of your role? ”

"What am I doing that is beyond my duty?"

I stared into his eyes and simply asked very bluntly, "Do you make a lot of money?" ”

His eyes flickered, "I can ask the boss to borrow a little first." ”

That is, his current salary is not enough to support such an operation, but he has to rely on his family.

"Is it that every poor family similar to Li You, you have to be so generous, and do not hesitate to ask relatives and friends to borrow money?"

He frowned, and there was obviously more displeasure in his eyes: "This is just a special case. ”

"Have you ever wondered if Li You's family will be able to repay you in the future?" I didn't think much of it at the time, I just blurted out what was in my heart. Unexpectedly, Zhou Yu's face sank, and he looked at me with more dissatisfaction: "Why do you have to be so utilitarian?" ”

My heart froze, and I slowly narrowed my eyes.

Last time he said that I was greedy for profit, and this time he said that I was utilitarian, how unbearable am I in his eyes?

With Zhou Yu, crossing the line of anger often only requires one sentence, which has been going on for a long time.

One moment the two of them can get along, but the next second they are blushing and thick-necked, and I can't suppress my temper with him from the outside. Maybe it's because I care, and if I care, I don't mind what the other party says, and what does it matter to me to irrelevant people.

In the safe passage, I said coldly: "Zhou Gongjin, if you are still alone, then please squander your willfulness to your heart's content, and it is your freedom to do anything." But now that we're married, do you have to think about the other half of your marriage before you do something? Or do you think it's all the same with me or without me? ”

"You talk nonsense!" Zhou Yu stomped his feet angrily, "I didn't mean what you said, I didn't think much about paying the medical expenses before, as long as the complaint was successful and the compensation due to the Li family could pay me back." But later, because you persuaded you to settle privately, and the Li family did not receive reasonable compensation, I think this matter must be held accountable to me. ”

What does he mean - atonement for my sins?

Compared to him, I seem calmer, but the nameless fire in my heart is about to be suppressed.

I said, "If it's my responsibility, I'm not going to run away from it." But I only play a mediating role in this matter, and the negotiations between the two sides are all up to them. First, I did not participate in this exchange, and second, after the two parties reached a private settlement, our court completed the mediation, and the court tracked down the Zhang family to reimburse Li You's medical expenses, in a sense, the two parties have completed the settlement. As for the follow-up, we have no right to interfere anymore. ”

If there is a mistake, it is only because I did not follow it personally, but handed it over to Xiao Dong afterwards. But Xiao Dong must have arranged for someone to do a follow-up investigation, otherwise those materials and information would not be in his hands.

It can only be said that the Zhang family took advantage of the loophole.

Zhou Yuluo glared and asked, "Then why do you insist on coming over?" I thought you felt guilty too. ”

"I insisted on coming because of you."

If it weren't for Zhou Yu's concern about this matter, even if I learned from Xiao Dong that Li You didn't get Zhang Jiahao's high compensation, I wouldn't have bothered with this matter.

Because there is no position.

In fact, regardless of whether the Zhang family's approach is wrong, as far as Li You's choice is concerned, at best, it sounds like he swallows his anger for the sake of the family, but from a neutral point of view, he is just bowing to reality and exchanging himself for the value of interests.

It may not be fair to judge a teenager in this way, but it is the truth.

Li You may not be a minor, but Li's mother is an adult, and she has enough judgment to take a few risks in this value exchange.

Just because they are in a vulnerable position, they will be sympathized.

If these analyses are said on this occasion, I am afraid that the person in front of me will be going to point at my nose again and say utilitarian things like that. Unlike now when I hear me come over because of him, the angry eyes gradually eased.