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(476) Zhuang Zhou and butterflies

For a moment, even time and space seemed to be silent. {173}

At this moment, whether it was for Zhao Yulian or Mencius, they all felt as long as the old age.

Although Mencius sometimes likes to joke, he is an extremely serious person in his bones. Since he dared to say such a thing, it meant that he was absolutely sure.

This is going to the border, the bitter cold is extreme, where is the daughter of an ordinary family willing to accompany him to the mountains and rivers? And his age has arrived, it is impossible that there is no one around him to serve, and compared with the disciples who choose a wife, the fathers of the Meng family should pay more attention to the heirs and blood inheritance. Therefore, he can confidently persuade his family to let him marry a woman who is not too suitable for the family, a woman he likes.

And staying away from the strife in the capital, relatively speaking, it can reduce a lot of burden on the woman who has become his wife. Even if you come back in the future, it will be completely different. And after such a long run-in, it is enough for the most ordinary wife to be able to take on the title of future British duchess.

This is what Mencius thought in the past, and the only chance he could ask to marry Zhao Yulian was to marry him.

Almost for a moment, Zhao Yulian thought she was going to agree. After all, it was the purest and most ardent hope he had ever had, and when he suddenly realized it and really came to him, the huge sense of accomplishment that was affirmed was enough to make people dizzy.

But it was also a moment.

Many things, like a pebble knocking on the waves, although there will still be ripples, but it has entered the center of the lake, and it can no longer float.

The birds that didn't know human feelings sang happily in the treetops, recalling Zhao Yulian's reason.

When he raised his face again, he didn't realize that there were tears in his eyes, but there was a beautiful gentle smile on the corner of his mouth, which made people want to hold it in the palm of his hand and pity it.

At that moment of intoxication, Mencius had a bad premonition.

"I'm sorry" Zhao Yulian thought that she had no way to look into his eyes and say this, but she did.

It's just that my vision was blurred by tears, and it was clear for a while, but it was quickly blurred...... It's like a damp mirror on a rainy day, and it can't be wiped clean. But it's enough, it's enough for her to see the person in front of her in her eyes and remember it in her heart for a lifetime.

Zhao Yulian told him word by word how she was feeling at the moment, "Thank you, really, very, very much thank you for saying such things to me." I...... I've had fantasies, fantasies about times like this, to prove that I'm not self-inflicted. Because I think you'...... You've always been a little different to me. No matter what others say, I always say this to myself in my heart. ”

She choked up and confessed her love, but said, "But, I really can't promise you"

"That's ......" for what?

Zhao Yulian shook her head vigorously, and some tears splashed on Meng Zizhan's clothes, staining damp flowers, just like her people.

"It's not because of Wang'er, it's not because of your aunt, it's not because of your brother and sister-in-law, it's not because of your family...... It's totally, completely because of myself."

Zhao Yulian tried to explain, "Because my sister-in-law told me that people can't always live for others, and they can't always make decisions for other people's decisions. That is not right, and you will not be truly happy. ”

"But you...... Wouldn't you like to do the same? Mencius needs an answer, otherwise I am afraid that I will not be able to calm such a tangled mood in this life.

Zhao Yulian smiled sadly, "However, those have already passed." I would have been very, very happy if you could have said something to me earlier, but now, not anymore. Really, it's not going to work anymore."

She couldn't help covering her mouth and crying anymore, she couldn't go on.

Mencius Zhan vaguely understood, his fists clenched tightly, and he cautiously but extremely cruelly revealed the truth to himself, "Now you have changed that mood, right?" ”

Zhao Yulian nodded with great difficulty, but honestly.

Mencius smiled wryly, "I understand, it's me who is abrupt." Miss Zhao, please forget what I just said."

"No" Zhao Yulian knew that she would never forget this man in her life, but she would only treasure him in her heart, and there would be no more reverie, just as a precious painting, hidden in memory.

"I ...... Willing to remember that you are also willing to ...... Would you like to remember what I said? ”

Meng Zizhan looked at her after tears, her eyes were exceptionally clear and transparent, nodded cautiously, and then resolutely withdrew.

Mencius finally understood who he had lost to. It can be said that it is the timing, it can be said that it is the time, and it can also be said that it is - yourself.

If I had been able to show this sooner, maybe it would have been a different situation today. It's a pity that if it's just if, people often talk about it, but no one can eat it.

Returning Jun Mingzhu's tears, he hated to meet when he was not married. When Fang Xin secretly promised, he didn't cherish it, how could he blame today's passing by?

In the end, I still failed myself.

Mencius Zhan, who returned to the banquet, still maintained his normalcy, but the wine was drunk a little more urgently, and he accidentally choked, and coughed with his sleeves covered.

Zhao Chengcai patted him on the back and smiled, "This is the desire to be fast, let's take it slowly."

Wanting to be fast but not reaching, Mencius Zhan's heart tingled, even if it was the first one to set off, who could guarantee that it was the one who had the last laugh?

"Come and I salute Brother Zhao's cup" I really want to be open-minded and generous, but as soon as I raised the glass, when I saw the curling and delicate shadow also walking in, I couldn't help but tremble slightly with my fingertips, and poured out a little overflowing wine, and the pain and soreness of that moment spread among the internal organs. Really, still a little injured.

When Zhao Yulian came in again, she had already washed her face, held a small tea tray and a cup of soup, put it in front of He Yutang, and reminded her in a thoughtful and soft voice, "Brother He, you drank the soup first, and then drank the wine, okay?" ”

Such gentleness, no man can resist, He Yutang didn't say a word, he drank the soup in one gulp, and consciously assured, "I know that my injuries are not all healed, and I guess I won't drink it if I touch it." By the way, what's wrong with your swollen eyes? ”

Zhao Yulian smiled lightly, "I just went to the kitchen and smoked the smoke." ”

He Yutang looked at her and grinned slightly apologetically, but there was clearly a sweetness in that smile that he wanted to hide and tell the world.

Meng Zizhan was stunned for a while, and it wasn't until Zhao Chengcai patted him on the shoulder that he came back to his senses. Suddenly, I understood it like an initiation.

What if you admit that your heart hurts? What if you admit to being hurt? Could it be that he is so cowardly that he doesn't even dare to face his true feelings?

When I think about it like this, I am relieved. The pride in his chest suddenly grew, "Come on, come on, we won't get drunk today"

A regret is a drunk, but the people who have lost know how to cherish better.

After Mencius woke up, he put away his youthful willfulness and handed over the marriage to his parents to decide, as long as the woman who was willing to follow him to the ends of the world, even if it was not perfect, he would definitely treat it with his heart.

Zhang Qingting packed up and was ready to go.

The auspicious day of the zodiac has been decided, and I also told Princess Yuzhen in advance that if there is any reward in the palace, send it quickly, or wait for them to leave, but there will be nothing to be found.

But before that, there was one more thing that she had been thinking about in her heart.

Today, I was happy, so I took Xiniu Yulian and others to Tianyi Temple to pray together. When Daoist Yuming heard that they were coming, he specially waited to accompany them.

He wanted to go with them this time, he had already packed his bags and sent them to the ship, these days in the temple, there were also large and small feasts, in the end, even if it was a person outside the party, there was always a faint sadness that could not be seen.

Ziyang Zhenren has already gone out, just a centenarian, and he is no longer very director, and he only meditates and cultivates in the clean room every day, and rarely sees guests.

Yu Ming saw that they had brought their children, and insisted on bringing Niu Dewang and Xiao Nizi in, and asked the Lord to give her a blessing himself, which was of course good, but Niu'er was young, and as soon as she came to a strange place, she couldn't leave her mother.

Zhang Qingting originally said forget it, but after Yuming went in to ask Ziyang Zhenren, he was willing to make an exception to see them once.

When the hair was white, and the Ziyang Zhenren with the fairy wind and bones suddenly opened her eyes, and when she looked at Zhang Qingting like electricity, she inexplicably felt that her heartbeat had missed a beat. Those eyes that have been through the vicissitudes of life and seen through the red dust seem to have penetrated her secrets at once, making her feel that there is nothing to hide for the first time.

But Ziyang Zhenren instantly retracted his gaze kindly, "Since there is a fate, then sit down"

Zhang Qingting fixed his mind and saluted, which was extremely humble and sat sideways in front of the old master.

Ziyang Zhenren first saw Niu Dewang, stroked the top of his head and gave him a blessing, and gave him a talisman that was opened with his own hands, "Everyone in the world laughs at me for being crazy, how do you know that madness is not a blessing?" Good boy, remember to have good thoughts, you will be blessed, and you will turn evil into good fortune. ”

Zhang Qingting handed over the happy girl, "Please also ask a real person to see my daughter"

Ziyang Zhenren kindly took over the little happy girl, "The little girl was born so well, and she will definitely have a smooth life in the future, without disasters and difficulties." ”

Zhang Qingting asked worriedly, "Then master, what about me?" ”

Ziyang Zhenren smiled, but asked rhetorically, "What did you say yourself?" ”

I...... Zhang Qingting was speechless for a while.

Ziyang is truly humane, "Peace and joy are all one heart." If you are happy and have a clear conscience, why should you care about the disturbances outside the red dust? Zhuang Zhou's dream of butterflies, is Zhou's dream a butterfly, or is a butterfly's dream a week? ”

Zhang Qingting understood.

Since I am destined to come here, it is my fate. As the master said, maybe she was supposed to be Zhang Dragonfly, but she just had a prosperous old dream in Nankangguo, and then woke up and returned here.

So much for.

The knot that had plagued him for many years was unexpectedly lifted by him in a few words, and he smiled dumbly, but before leaving, he asked, "Real person, I want to invite Yuming to visit other Taoist temples in a while, is it okay?" ”

Title: "The Spring of the Ancient Leftover Girl" ISBN: 1751983 Author: Short-eared cat

Introduction: What's wrong with leftover women? We can also find our own spring, and we would rather be stepmothers than concubines