Two hundred and seven, I can die with you, but I can't live with you

Two hundred and seven, I can die with you, but I can't live with you

At night, I couldn't sleep at first. Later, when I fell asleep, I couldn't wake up.

In my dreams, I dreamed of Edward. Munch's "The Scream", the sky stained by blood, the desert stained by blood, I am the one who screams in terror, the whole world is empty and lonely, there is no end, it turns out that eternity is so terrifying!

In a cold sweat, I opened my eyes, and thankfully, I was able to open them.

"Sister Xiaoxue, are you awake?" The girl in charge of the costume stood next to me.

"Hmm." I nodded, got up from my seat, and smelled the smell of barbecue.

Outside the car, everyone was roasting wolf meat, making a lot of noise, eating and laughing. Han Ye was barbecuing meat by the fire, and two people next to him lined up and said, "Brother Han, this piece is mine." "You just ate a piece, it's my turn."

I was surprised that there were still people rushing to eat what he made!

Dang Hanye said: "I roasted it so badly. Can you swallow it? ”

"You don't know, brother, although your grilled food is unpalatable and undercooked, it has a taste of steak, and the two of us are used to eating medium-rare steak abroad."

I couldn't help laughing, and when they looked back at me, one said, "No one can fight now, it's not their turn." ”

I combed my hair briefly, the little girl in the costume filled me with water, I washed my face, and went to the cold night.

"How's your injury?" I asked eagerly.

He pulled up his pants and showed me them, and said, "It's okay, it's all right." ”

I saw blood oozing from the gauze and said, "Change the gauze and put some medicine." ”

He nodded, and I fetched the medicine box and helped him with it. The wound has solidified, but it is bound to leave a scar.

He seemed to read my thoughts and said, "I have scars all over my body anyway, and I don't care about this one." ”

I felt very uncomfortable and silently put away the medicine box. Hanye wanted to change the topic and said, "This piece should be cooked, I have been roasting it for a long time, can you taste it?" ”

I took the stick from his hand and looked at the blackened meat roasted on it, and I was indeed hungry and blew it. When I took a bite, it tasted really good, and it was probably the most delicious thing he had ever made.

Cold Night looked at me with inquiring eyes. I nodded at him, didn't speak, lifted the meat over and let him bite, and he didn't hesitate to take a big bite where I had bitten.

"Well, I can eat it!" He was pleased, "It tastes so good!" ”

When a group of people heard that it tasted good, they all gathered around, one by one, and a small piece of meat was lighted.

"I didn't expect Brother Han to even cook instant noodles, and the barbecue meat is so delicious!"

"Of course, in order to learn how to barbecue well, Brother Han experimented with himself and almost roasted himself."

This group of people is so immoral, they actually joke about the fire in the cold night, and it is too damaging to expose people's scars like this. But Hanye didn't get angry at all and continued to help everyone barbecue.

I'm a little upset. said: "It seems that wolves have been listed as national protected animals, and you have all violated the law now." ”

Xu Lixiang chewed on wolf meat and said, "Xiaoxue, if you want to break the law, you will violate it first, if you and Brother Han didn't run to kill wolves in the middle of the night, how could we have wolf meat to eat?" ”

"I call it emergency avoidance, it's not illegal, you are ...... illegal"

Although everyone quarreled with me, they didn't joke about me and Hanye anymore, but whether everyone made our jokes or not, I have become a love fool in everyone's eyes.

When others were grabbing meat, the cold night whispered to me: "Xiaoxue, come over a little." ”

I wondered, what to do? You're a married man, and I don't want to be teased when I'm close to you. But leaning over to him, he put his mouth in my ear and said, "I have a box for girls." "Sit down and keep your distance from me.

What do you mean? You're embarrassed to tell me if you have things for girls in your box? You...... I suddenly realized something, and hurriedly looked down at myself, there was already a blood stain on my pants, but fortunately I was wearing a sand-colored camouflage uniform, which was not very obvious. I only care about fighting wolves and forgetting my old friends, if it weren't for the party's cold night reminder, how many adults should I lose? But that was embarrassing enough, he must have seen it.

I took advantage of the fact that no one was paying attention, so I hurriedly went to the car to find his box, moved it down, opened it, and sure enough, I found two packs of sanitary napkins at the bottom layer. And it's the same brand I use. Looking out the window, he was barbecuing with everyone.

I quickly took my things out and put them in my bag. Blushing and heartbeating, he found a pair of pants and went to the tent outside the car to change. On the one hand, how could he prepare sanitary napkins? Of course he didn't use it himself, but for the female staff of the crew? Then he, the director, is too considerate and perverted. But why is it the brand I use? The correct answer is probably only known to him.

It was a hard week of filming here, dust, wind and sun were normal, lack of water was the biggest enemy, and our water truck was a day late, almost killing us with thirst. The biggest comfort is that we completed the shooting task on schedule, and some scenes, Cold Night, were completely handed over to me to handle, and it seems that he really wants to train me to be a successor to the Han style.

Sleeping in a tent at night, we often heard inexplicable screams in the middle of the night, which scared us into fleeing. Once they heard a whining sound, everyone fled into the car in a hurry, and joked in the cold night: "Desert is a rough man abandoned by his beloved girl, this is Desert secretly crying in the middle of the night." ”

I said, "Because the girl he loved abandoned him, he devoured the lives of many people who passed through the desert, and he was taking revenge." ”

The hardest part is the men, who work during the day and work overtime at night. After sleeping, you have to take turns to stand guard. was injured in the cold night, and everyone didn't let him stand guard anymore, but he didn't agree, saying that it wouldn't get in the way, and in the end, he was the most on the night guard.

On the last night of filming here, I slept until midnight and woke up, unable to sleep any more, so I got up and got out of the tent.

Starry plains, vast twilight, in the distance, a person. A gun, standing between heaven and earth, a familiar and tall figure, with his back to me, looking at the desert in the distance.

I walked towards his back, the sand beneath my feet so soft that I could barely hear my footsteps. I stood silently behind him and felt his breath.

"Why don't you sleep?" He didn't look back.

I was startled, thinking he didn't know I was behind me, and I was trying to scare him.

"I can't sleep, stand guard for you for a while, you can go back to sleep for a while." I quibbled.

He turned around and smiled, "Xiaoxue, do you think that our Han Lexiang men are all dead?" "At some point, his machismo is still very strong.

"No, you're hurt, and I can't sleep anyway."

"My injuries are healed." He sat down, and I sat next to him. Together, we looked up at the starry sky, and there was a long, long silence.

"Xiaoxue, back then, why did you go to Haidu to work?"

Why go to Haidu? I have to start with my past life, but I can't tell him. "Because, after I graduated, I was not assigned a job, Haidu is a big city, and there are many employment opportunities, so I went." And so it is.

He smiled relievedly: "It seems that we are very fateful." ”

It's not fate, it's fate. I didn't speak, what can I say?

"Xiaoxue, in fact, many things, it really shouldn't be too paranoid, sincerity is the golden stone, and it doesn't apply all the time." He said leisurely.

I know he's telling me not to have a crush on him anymore, that he doesn't love me and never will, no matter how much I love him. He was unmoved.

"That night, when you walked into the depths of the desert, I wanted to follow, as long as your heart was happy. Xiaoxue, I can die with you, but I can't live with you, do you understand? He bit his lower lip and looked up at the sky to keep the lake from overflowing.

I don't understand, I don't understand, I don't understand, how can I understand? You tell me directly, how direct and clear I am that I am a woman who is not cute at all! What's more, I don't want to love you anymore, I don't want love anymore, I want to live alone, I want to chase the meteors in the sky, and I want to chase the dreams I had when I was a child. Who do you live with, and what does it have to do with me?

The desert night was so cold that people panicked, and under the sky, two people with the same heartache sat opposite each other. I didn't want to look at him anymore, and the moment I turned around, I saw crystal droplets of water slip out of his eyes. I did not shed tears behind his back, and I will no longer shed tears for those who will not love me.

When I saw him again the next day, I felt that he had changed, everything had changed, he had become a stranger I was familiar with, and even in his eyes, I felt that I was no longer a friend, but an ordinary employee and a subordinate in his work team, and that's it.

Before the hot air came up in the morning, we finished the last shot, and when we left the desert, I asked Xu Lixiang to take a close-up of me, and there was something left in my life here.

Everyone sat in the bus, excitedly sang goodbye to the desert, and then rushed to the Tianshan Mountains to shoot.

Back in Haidu, my second film was also in preparation, and at the end of the fall, the Stone Arrow Group successfully completed their fourteen concerts in major cities around the world, and I personally celebrated them when I returned to Haidu.

Catalan was eager to be a part of my new film, and I told her that she should focus on music now, and when she released a few records and had a place in the music scene, I would definitely push her into the film and television industry. Because I now have enough strength to make a star that I want to win, and I have an entertainment company in my hands that is in the top 10 in the world.

Riding my bike, which was already a bit old, with headphones plugged in my ears, listening to my favorite classical music, and walking along the road. The music suddenly switched to a mobile phone ringtone, and I pressed the answer on the headphones, and it was actually Wang Ziqian's mother.

"Hello Mrs. Wang."

"Xiaoxue, are you free now?"

"Of course there is." I'm busy, that's right for people, some people I'm never available, some people I'm always free.

"Come to my house for dinner tonight, and I'm going to ask you to give me a beauty."

"Okay, I'll be over in a moment.".