Chapter 39: Dejun has no regrets in his life
When the colorful glow gradually sets off the vibrant and bright morning sun against the backdrop of the boundless beauty, when the people who sleep all night are driven by the beautiful scenery to get up early and return to busyness. Everything that happens here seems to be full of life and vitality, which makes people can't help but feel a lot.
However, there are exceptions, and not everything is as wonderful as this one.
There are still good and bad differences between individuals, and there is even more difference between good and evil in groups. No matter how good things are, they have flaws, and no matter how beautiful the picture is, there are weaknesses.
Just when everyone else in Luoyang City was gradually getting their lives on track, Wang Ruxue, who was wandering alone and hungry and hungry, was hiding in one of the most inconspicuous dark corners of the city, weeping incessantly.
Although there are some more familiar people and even former old people passing by her from time to time, few people will notice that this woman in ragged clothes and emitting a stench from time to time is Wang Ruxue.
If you just see others fall so far and don't help, it's just that, some immoral and unscrupulous people see Wang Ruxue so embarrassed, and they still say cool things in front of Wang Ruxue, saying as ugly as they are.
Sometimes Wang Ruxue really couldn't listen to it anymore, so she could only cover her ears and curl up until those people said enough.
Wang Ruxue, who suffered such unfair treatment, spent sleepless nights one after another in such an environment, and there was not much time left for her.
So Wang Ruxue decided to pluck up the courage to go to the silk village, she wanted to see Lin Zhongyi a few more times at the last moment of her life, and then she looked for an ideal place to live her life.
At first, Wang Ruxue wanted to take a peek and leave, but because she missed Lin Zhongyi deeply, she stood outside the door of the silk village and looked at Lin Zhongyi in front of the counter and never left for a long time.
Lin Zhongyi, who was in the house, saw that this person looked like Wang Ruxue, and he quickly chased him out of the house without saying a word.
But Wang Ruxue didn't want Lin Zhongyi to see his current dejected appearance, so he ran away.
Seeing this, Lin Zhongyi made him more convinced of his previous guess, so he chased after him, and finally caught up with Wang Ruxue, who was already crying silently, in an alley not far from the silk village.
"Like snow! Like snow! Is it you? How did you end up like this? Haven't you already lived in the Thorn Mansion? Also, what's wrong with your right leg and why do you limp when you walk? Lin Zhongyi asked very eagerly.
Although the facts have been confirmed, Wang Ruxue still refuses to admit her identity.
"This son, you ...... Recognize the wrong person, right? I'm not Wang Ruxue, I don't know you at all, please don't follow me anymore! ”
After speaking, Wang Ruxue turned around and left, wanting to leave quickly. Seeing this, Lin Zhongyi immediately chased after him.
I saw Lin Zhongyi holding Wang Ruxue's arms with both hands, and said seriously: "Ruxue, it's me, I'm Zhongyi!" Tell me what's going on! ”
"This son, I said that I am not Wang Ruxue, why do you still pester me? If you do that again, I'll call someone! ”
After hearing these words, Lin Zhongyi, who was worried, was even more convinced that something big must have happened to Wang Ruxue standing in front of him, so he was so alienated from himself.
In order to stabilize Wang Ruxue's mood as soon as possible, Lin Zhongyi took a series of measures to save it.
Under Lin Zhongyi's persuasion and comfort, Wang Ruxue finally admitted her identity, and also informed Lin Zhongyi of all her misfortunes in the past few days.
Lin Zhongyi's heart ached when he learned about this, and when he saw Wang Ruxue's dusty and tattered clothes and her already yellowed face, Lin Zhongyi's heart was like a knife.
I saw Lin Zhongyi slowly lift the messy hair that was covering Wang Ruxue in front of her with her hand, and then stroked her tearful face with her fingers, and said, "Ruxue, do you know? In the days since you left the Silk Village, I have been thinking about the minutes and seconds I have been with you, morning and twilight! I thought that the two of us would never see each other again in this life, but I didn't expect God to pity me and actually send you back to me, do you know how happy I am now? Like snow, don't go, okay? I can't live without you! ”
It was only at this time that Wang Ruxue really knew that the person who loved herself the most in the world was actually Lin Zhongyi.
This surprised and surprised her, so she couldn't help but hug Lin Zhongyi tightly on the busy streets.
At this moment, the whole world fell silent. They can completely ignore the world's eyes and enjoy their own happiness.
This belated hug Lin Zhongyi waited for too long, he originally thought that Wang Ruxue would never leave him again. Unexpectedly, Wang Ruxue did not plan to go back to the silk village with him, but wanted to choose to leave alone.
"Okay, Zhongyi, you and I will leave it at that. Please don't come to me in the future, just leave me to fend for myself! After speaking, Wang Ruxue was about to turn around and leave.
Seeing this, Lin Zhongyi immediately stepped forward to stop: "You can't go!" You must go back to the Silk Village with me, or I'll bite my tongue and kill myself on the spot!" ”
Wang Ruxue saw that Lin Zhongyi's attitude was so resolute and decisive, so she didn't refuse his kindness again, so the two walked together in the direction of Silk Village.
In the days after Wang Ruxue returned to the silk village, she felt Lin Zhongyi's unprecedented care.
In the process, Wang Ruxue was surprised to find that the house she lived in was still spotless, because Lin Zhongyi often came to clean it after she left.
Not only that, but even Wang Ruxue's almost purulent right leg is gradually recovering under Lin Zhongyi's careful care. It's just that because of the injury to the bones, I still limp when I walk, and I am afraid that I will be disabled for life.
Although Wang Ruxue had experienced a lot of hardships and tribulations before this, she was finally bitter.
The care and care, thoughtfulness and care she has received in these days is enough to make her remember it for the rest of her life, and all of these will be her precious treasures for a lifetime.
At this moment, she feels that she is the happiest woman in the world. Even if she is cut off and returned to the West immediately, she will be able to smile at Jiuquan.
In fact, since Wang Ruxue came to Silk Village, she has never given up the idea of suicide. Because she felt that she was a dirty person and was not worthy of being Lin Zhongyi's lover at all.
And the reason why she didn't choose to die for a long time was because she was afraid that if she died suddenly, Lin Zhongyi would not be able to bear such a heavy blow, so she decided to postpone the death period as much as possible and accompany Lin Zhongyi a lot. After all, she owes Lin Zhongyi too much, and she can't pay it back overnight.
Although Wang Ruxue hoped that this day would never come, she still couldn't withstand all kinds of pressure from the outside world in the end, and her mental outlook was not as good as day by day.
One morning more than ten days after Wang Ruxue returned to the silk village, Lin Zhongyi saw that Wang Ruxue had not left the house for a long time to eat, so he took the initiative to come to Wang Ruxue's room with some food to persuade her to eat.
But Wang Ruxue, who was sitting on the edge of the bed at the moment, had no time to take care of these, she was worried about her future fate.
Lin Zhongyi saw that Wang Ruxue was sad and cried a few times, and felt very uncomfortable, but Lin Zhongyi asked her the reason, and Wang Ruxue refused to say more, and also asked Lin Zhongyi some inexplicable questions.
After a detailed conversation, Lin Zhongyi seemed to have guessed the general meaning of what Wang Ruxue wanted to express between the lines.
After realizing this, Lin Zhongyi immediately decided that he couldn't be silent anymore, he wanted to tell Wang Ruxue all the thoughts that had accumulated in his heart, so Lin Zhongyi finally boldly and directly expressed his heart to Wang Ruxue.
"Ruxue, if you don't dislike me as a useless person with a bleak future, you can entrust me with the rest of your life! I'm not going to let you get wronged in the slightest, can I? ”
Wang Ruxue, who couldn't stop sobbing, was excited when she heard Lin Zhongyi suddenly say such things to herself.
Then he immediately stopped crying and said with tears in his eyes: "Zhongyi, what did you say?" You...... Is all this true? ”
"Of course it's true, I know that with my current conditions and background, I am not worthy of marrying you. But even so, I'm going to try for it. If I don't succeed, I know the result, and I won't expect anything more. ”
"Zhongyi, thank you for your help and care for me in the past few days, I am deeply grateful for this, but I will never agree to what you said." Wang Ruxue decisively rejected Lin Zhongyi's love.
"Why are you like snow, why don't you agree to me!" Lin Zhongyi asked eagerly.
"Zhongyi, it's not that you don't know my situation, now I am a broken flower, and I am no longer the ignorant, pure and flawless girl I once was. Now, even I have no shame to face my filthy body, how can I shamelessly involve you in it, and then be criticized with me, so as to bear this kind of infamy! Wang Ruxue shed tears of sadness while saying these heartfelt words.
As soon as Lin Zhongyi heard this, he immediately stepped forward and hugged Wang Ruxue tightly in his arms without saying a word, and said earnestly: "Ruxue, do you know? The filth of the body is actually not terrible, but the filth of the soul is terrible. Because the former is predictable, while the latter is unguardable. Life is not easy in the world, and it is even more difficult to get a confidant. What's more, if you miss it, there is no one. I don't care what other people think of you, I just know that you are not bad in nature, I only know that I don't love you, that's enough! ”
"But I still can't face my unbearable past, and I still can't let go. Zhongyi, you forget about me, in the future, you will definitely meet a girl who is a thousand times ten thousand times better than me. I'm a fireworks woman, and I don't deserve to make you pay for me sincerely. ”
Although Lin Zhongyi's kind words and persuasion did not stop for a long time, Wang Ruxue was still hesitant, so Lin Zhongyi was very distressed.
"Oops! Ruxue, why are you so stubborn? No man is born wise or learned? Nine times out of ten, life is unsatisfactory in the world, and the law of change of some things is not based on people's minds. But where there is a glimmer of hope, who wants to be reduced to that kind of land of fireworks? If you don't say yes to me, I'm going to be angry! After Lin Zhongyi's patient persuasion, Wang Ruxue's heart was finally a little shaken.
"But...... But...... My leg can't be restored now, and I'm probably going to limp for the rest of my life, and I don't match you at all! ”
"Don't make excuses anymore, I won't mind. Don't worry, no matter what, I will always be by your side and take care of you for the rest of your life! ”