Chapter 11: Confession
The atmosphere in the cell awkwardly settled again. The two of them sat very closely, but it seemed to be very far away, no one knew or understood what was going on in their personal hearts, only the cold and even a little moldy air in the cell was constantly fermenting and spreading.
Liu Nian couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, he felt that he was terrible, very failed, why did the desire to look good always be messed up in his hands? Usually when Absalom talks about chasing girls, he doesn't seem to think it's a difficult thing, but why does it become so strange when it's his turn?
Is it true that girls' hearts are made of different materials? This method is suitable for this person, but not necessarily for that person. Did he do what Absalom had said? I want to be romantic, I want to be gentle, and I want her to understand her thoughts, but why can't it work at all when she gets to Gongzi You?
It's a weird thing.
Alas, it is not as difficult to win the favor of a girl as it is to face a super-perverted copy, no, no, no, it is even much more difficult. However, Liu Nian was not depressed because of this, he has never been such a person. He just sat there pretending not to care, looking at Ye Ci's expression from time to time, and then continued to be silent.
Ye Ci secretly glanced at Liunian, and suddenly felt a little weak, what did she just say? Let's do it for ourselves for the next year. This is a little too arrogant from time to time? Isn't it a little too impersonal? It's really strange, she's not a guy who cares about other people's minds at all, why does she care so much about the thoughts of the passing years now? It must have been caused by something that I didn't feel comfortable in.
She suddenly remembered the agreement between the two of them that if she still refused to pass the year after a year, he would quit the game. The agreement is determined by the system, that is, if she still refuses at that time, even if she doesn't want to leave, the system will force him to leave.
Calculate the time, if he really wants to be forced to leave the game after a year, then is it about the same time as the disappearance of the previous life? Ye Ci has no way of knowing why he completely disappeared from the game in the last life, but, in this life, is such a fate still to be repeated?
When she thought of this, her heart was unspeakably uncomfortable, as if she was blocked by something, and she couldn't even breathe smoothly. Speaking of which, they don't know each other, it's just two people who often fight in the game, but I don't know why, when I think that he might leave, Ye Ci couldn't say anything sour.
What is the passing year to yourself? Goal it. Lou is still a height that he could not surpass and reach in his previous life. Is that all there is to it? Maybe, who knows?
The more Ye Ci's head thought about it, the more confused he became. She finally exhaled helplessly, it seems that she is really not suitable to think about this kind of unfathomable problem, she is more suitable to think about how to play a copy and how to overthrow a boss
Or how to make a little money from the hands of a guild, as for anything else, it's really not good.
"It's my first time." Just when Ye Ci was still thinking nonsense, Liu Nian suddenly spoke.
There is nothing strange about Liu Nian speaking first, anyway, in the prison cell, the two of them always seem to be excitedly talking about a topic, and in the end, Ye Ci ended this topic very disappointmently, which is like a strange circle that cannot be overcome, but this time the topic is really a little strange, but it just made Ye Ci almost suffocate in one breath.
There is simply too much ambiguity in this statement.
The first time? What first? Ye Ci didn't even think a little bit about Taoism, was he talking about that? Ah, I didn't expect it to be the beginning of the year... Ye Ci looked at the rather good-looking chún shape of Liu Nian a little gossip, and couldn't help but smile, completely forgetting that he seemed to be another protagonist of this gossip.
Liu Nian was a little hairy by Ye Ci, and he coughed lightly embarrassedly to pull back a little of his image, but there was an unprecedented flush on the white face. Although in the dark dungeon light in yīn, this hint of redness is not much noticeable. He added: "I've always been used to being alone, and I'm not good at getting along with two people, so it's the first time for many things. Ye Ci didn't say anything, but he continued to look at the passing year with a very gossipy gaze.
That kind of red gaze is called an awkwardness, and he knows that if he wants to say this, he will definitely be turned into another strange situation by this woman in the end.
It's just that now, there doesn't seem to be anything to scruple about, even if it's embarrassing, it's just embarrassing, if so, this time it's not clear to understand, I'm afraid that there will be no such opportunity in the future.
"You are the person I am interested in for the first time, you are the person I decided to chase for the first time, and you are also the person I kissed for the first time, many firsts." Liu Nian looked at Ye Ci quietly, although his voice was calm, but the hand he put on his knee relieved his nervousness. The slender hand had clenched into a fist, and even the joints had turned white. "I just gave an example of a copy, you say you understand, actually, you don't understand. I mean, it's the first time I've pursued you, and because it's the first time, I don't know how to do it, I don't know how to please you, and I even do something that upsets you, but please don't reject me outright because of that. Because of ......, Liu Nian paused: "You are the first girl I like in my life." ,…
Liu Nian said it very slowly, but he said it very clearly, at least so that Ye Ci could hear it clearly and understandably. She was stunned there, no longer had any feeling of exploring gossip, just sat there stunned, looking at Liu Nian and didn't know what to say.
In a trance, she remembered the Youyouyun in her previous life. From Yoyo Feiyun to pursue himself, to love, to the calculations and lies in the back, in fact, Ye Ci feels that it is beautiful, happy, and flawless. It was precisely because of such perfection and happiness that Feng made her fall so badly, from the clouds to the ground, everything was like a dream that suddenly woke up. She had never carefully examined the relationship from beginning to end, because it was like a scar in her heart, which could not be touched no matter what.
Gradually, the scar disappeared without a trace, but she felt that there was no need to look back at that feeling, because it was a humiliating memory of herself. Therefore, until now, Ye Ci doesn't understand what he gained and lost in that relationship, but he remembers that he seems to have been deceived heavily. Other than that, she doesn't remember anything.
However, now listening to the words of the passing year, I don't know why she actually remembered the relationship in her previous life that she was too lazy to touch. When she looked at this relationship with an objective perspective for the first time, a lot of different feelings suddenly arose in her heart.
It was perfect. There is no such thing as perfection in the world, so, from beginning to end, this relationship is just a scam of Youyou Feiyun, but she was stunned by the so-called happy méng, and was stumped by the so-called deep love without regrets, and she didn't notice it at all.
Now that I look back, where is a relationship, it is just a deliberate flattery by one person to another. Since it is deliberate, the party who is being flattered will naturally go smoothly and be extremely happy.
This isn't really a relationship.
Ye Ci suddenly seemed to understand something, and laughed lowly, she lowered her head, looking at her armor, there was an indescribable sourness and relaxation in her heart, she was really a guy who was not emotionally open, she didn't understand this matter until she died in the previous life, and she didn't understand it until now, I just hope it won't be too late to understand.
Liudong didn't know what Ye Ci was thinking in his heart, he just heard her low laughter, but the laughter was not mockery, as if with a long-lost sadness, laughing like this made him feel sad. He paused, and then said slowly: "I know, I may have made you unhappy in many places before, but I really have no experience, I just think, this, this may be able to get your attention" He exhaled a long breath: "I know, you must think I'm stupid and naïve, in fact, I think so too." However, I don't regret it, in a person's life, you can't always live everything rationally and understandably, who hasn't made stupid mistakes, but you have to experience that once, and life can be considered complete. I'm actually glad that the object of my stupidity is you, and maybe it won't end up in the end, but as long as that person is you, it's always good. ”
Ye Ci raised her head slowly, and she looked at Liu Nian with a strange gaze. Because she was now filled with a strange feeling in her heart, it was a warm, sentimental, even incomprehensible thing, as if it had been fermented by something, and it had been bubbling in her heart, as if something was about to erupt.
Her gaze calmed Liunian's heart, although he knew that the final outcome might not be what he expected, but now it was a good thing to have the opportunity to say such a thing. At the very least, he could make Childe Yu understand what he was thinking, although, in the end, these words might make their relationship worse, but what did it matter?
There are some things that you have to go through once in life before you can be considered complete.