Chapter 223: Don't dwell on it
The fragments of memories are very long, so long that it seems that I have followed them for thousands of years, seen the vicissitudes of the sea, seen the stars falling, and glimpsed the afterglow of the rising sun, as bright as the sunset.
Nylon's memories ended that night, and she didn't survive and died in the turmoil.
Aman's long years were not like this at the beginning.
He simply waited for a while, and soon felt that it was long and boring, the prosperous and chaotic world, the drunken gold fans intertwined with profit and desire, and the seven emotions and six desires in the world gradually penetrated into his soul.
A gentle and delicate newcomer, a fat and thin beauty, indulgence and arrogance in greed, hatred and infatuation.
These days, at the beginning, were beautiful, making Aman obsessed and lingering, and even after that, he fell in love with several people or demons.
People's lifespan is limited, and it will disappear at the end, and the demon's lust is a play on the spot, and when I feel that it is boring, it will naturally disperse.
Time continues to move forward, many people, many things, will pass, the time to get together is only a handful, fleeting, Aman also understood the last lust in his long life.
Loneliness, the end of life is loneliness.
No desire, no sorrow, no joy, no contention, no pursuit, in order to live in this long life.
On the contrary, Aman's life has been glimpsed into the worldly love too early, and he is too endlessly chasing the world and playing with the world.
In the beginning, he was indeed satisfied, he was indeed joyful, and he did understand more emotions.
He thought that all this was good, but in the end, all this good changed.
It turns out that human life is so short for a reason.
The more you know, the more you care, the more lonely the hollow, the more things you need to fill.
Therefore, people do not live long, and all people will be swallowed up by death before solitude arrives.
In this world, everything will disappear, everything you have, everything you care about, those great changes, those painful memories, will accumulate over time, bit by bit, shattering all your patience and beauty.
The complexity of human nature is destined to make it impossible for them to be stable in a relationship all the time, and rupture and repair are repeated all the time. The frequency of ruptures begins to decrease with age, and repairs will also require more time and energy to deny oneself in order to be able to reconcile with others.
The more I grow up, the more I don't like to bow my head and admit my mistakes, and the more I grow up, the more unwilling I am to admit my mistakes, and those simple emotions begin to be mixed with more interests and disputes.
Man is a creature that easily loses himself, they are too cunning and too stupid, they take everything they once cherished, trample on it, exchange it, and triumphantly think that this is victory.
But victory will not stop, and if you want to pursue such pleasure, you need more betrayal and trampling, until you lose yourself.
The abrupt end of life prevented more terrible things from happening, and because of the termination of life, human beings have a bottom line and morality.
In a limited life, death has become the greatest horror of human beings, and those cherished things will be precious in a limited life.
And for infinite life, the end is the same.
Going around and around, in the end, the empty heart still wants the initial warmth.
Aman is still alone many years later, and he is gradually tired of being drunk and drunk, and he is also tired of those love scenes on the spot.
After going through so much, he is already full of holes.
People who are alive want to work hard to live, and Aman is the same, after so many years of being bad, he suddenly realized that he promised to wait for nylon.
Vague memories will continue to beautify a person, and every time I think of it, there will be a part of the expectation hidden in.
It doesn't matter how unbearable it was back then, in Aman's eyes, this is his final salvation, and it is also his own life, the only meaning of existence.
Wait for someone, wait for someone who still remembers the original self, the best version of themselves.
That person is no longer as simple as she once liked, she has become a person who proves that she has been beautiful, as if she has returned, and the time of these tens of millions of years has become a dream, as if it was a cloud of smoke.
As long as she is there, she seems to be able to turn back into the once sincere teenager.
Aman thought so, and he was crazy about it, using all his energy, waiting, and planning.
Becoming a human is just remembering that quarrel, the reason why Nylon didn't choose him, after tens of millions of years, suddenly became extremely important.
He has found so many ways and calculated so many lives, for his own selfishness.
It is difficult to give up life, but it is easier to choose to become a human being, follow the pace of human beings, and enter a limited life.
Aman has selfishness, and this selfishness has become a sentence in the end - for nylon.
Is it really for nylon?
No, it's actually for himself, he's still a selfish person.
Nylon is a person who lives very transparently, and in a limited life, seeing too much and knowing too clearly is undoubtedly a kind of torture.
In front of tens of millions, because of this wisdom, she tasted the ups and downs, and tasted the pain that others could not experience.
Many people envy her intelligence, but who knows, she is also jealous of their simplicity and straightforwardness?
If there is really an afterlife to be reborn, she really wants to forget everything, be a simple and ordinary person, don't have to worry too much, do whatever comes to mind, be not afraid of heaven and earth, and be a frank and cheerful person.
This is a very simple dream, which was originally achievable, but instead, she met Aman, and Aman also met her.
Meeting Aman was a great blessing in her life, which made her understand love and trade-offs.
Meeting Aman is also a great misfortune in her life, she sacrificed too much, but she still can't get rid of the entanglement.
Similarly, Aman's encounter with her was also the only bright and dazzling spark in his long life, and it was also the poison that killed him.
Whether it's a human or a demon, don't meet people who are too amazing when you're young and make it difficult for you to let go.
It will only take dozens of years to get it, and I can't, for a long time, I have been struggling and regretting.
Aman's crazy persistence, but the opposite is too clear nylon.
She was his antidote, he said.
But she refused, time has passed, things are people, why be persistent?
After so many years, so many living beings, so persistent and stubborn, isn't it just a death to seek it?
I'm back, I can't change anything, with the painful memory, looking full of devastation, how can I still live and die with you with peace of mind?
If you miss it, you miss it after all, in the long river of time, not all likes will have a good ending, and not all waiting will have a good result.
What Nylon wants is to die forever in the past and be reborn without a trace of memory, and Aman is a stumbling block on this road.
If he wants to die, she will fulfill him, no need to wait, no need to entangle, so be it!