In the afternoon, Park Zheng came over to help me go through the discharge procedures.

Before that, Lin Xiaodi and Mo Jiazhen also came over, and after a long time, I was annoyed, so I let them go back first.

Sitting in Pu Zheng's car, scooping mung bean honey porridge and drinking, "It's not sweet enough." ”

"Four spoonfuls of sugar, miss!" Pu Zheng, who was concentrating on the road conditions, turned his head and glanced at me.

"I like sweet." After thinking about it, he added, "The sweeter, the better." ”

"It's weird, I didn't see you like sweets so much when I was a child?"

"Well...... I started to like it in recent years. Condensing his stray gaze, he smiled softly, "French desserts are really delicious." ”

"Huh! By the way," Pu Zheng took out a stack of papers from his suit pocket and handed it to me, "a plane ticket to Shanghai tomorrow afternoon, and a plane ticket to France the morning after tomorrow." After a pause, "Do you have to rush like this?" It's been less than four days since I got back. ”

"Four days, that's enough."

When I arrived at Park Zheng's apartment, it was already completely dark, so I got out of the car and Park Zheng went to the underground garage to park.

After putting on the hat behind my back, I walked towards the door of the apartment, and suddenly, a pair of arms behind me pulled me back, and the force was so strong that the hat slipped off as I turned around.

An overly dazzling handsome face came into view - Ye Lin!

The dim light of the street lamp reflected him, and the chic and wild swing on weekdays was no longer there, at this time, he was a little haggard, a little depressed, and a pair of frivolous peach blossom eyes were bloodshot.

After the fright, I tried to break free of my restrained wrists, but the grip was tighter and more painful.

"Ye Lin ......"

Before he finished speaking, the scorching breath came to his face, and in the next second, his lips were blocked by a hot kiss, and the tip of his flexible tongue invaded, stirring and grinding arbitrarily, tossing and grinding, feeling his body heat infecting himself, crazy, desperate, extremely depressed and resolute, with fierce demand, as if he wanted to pour all his feelings into this kiss.

My mind went blank in an instant.

After a while, Ye Lin slowly buried his head in my slightly trembling shoulder blades, and let out a helpless and somewhat suppressed sigh, "Don't you want me......" The voice was a little bleak and a little bewitching.

As if bewitched, I couldn't help but raise my hand to stroke the soft black hair, with a little nostalgia and indulgence.

Ye Lin's body stiffened, raised his eyes and stared at me, something flashed in his eyes, bright and exciting, and slowly he lowered his head to approach my lips again, licking gently with a little temptation, from shallow to deep......

The cold air of winter seeped in from between the buttons of a shirt that I didn't know when to untie, and my body trembled and woke up suddenly! Realizing that he was out of control, he instinctively pushed him away -

Caught off guard, Ye Lin took a big step back, stood up dejectedly, and looked at me, with an indescribable but obvious repression and charm in his eyes, wanting to attract something and seem to want to reject something, with bitterness in the contradiction...... But, it's very seductive!

"Jian Anji's ......" was a slightly unsteady breather. Ye Lin twisted his eyebrows, suddenly took another step closer, and stretched out his hand to pull me who wanted to retreat into his arms, "Jian Anji, do you really want me?" "A demonic sweet murmur, whispering in my ear like a dream, trying to break all my defenses.

- What a cunning man!

Finally, I pulled him away and said softly, "Ye Lin, stop playing." Say whatever you want. "I can't and can't guess his motives, and his mind is always more thoughtful than mine.

Ye Lin's expression was a little hurt, but the eyes that looked at me were still sharp and clear, as if he wanted to see me through, "Jian Anji, I love you." "A frivolous voice, with a suppressed suffocation.

I was stunned for a moment, and the person in front of me was unresponsive for a while. Such a thing - it really shouldn't be said now.

"Jian Anji, I love you!" My calmness, at least on the surface, made his tone begin to sharpen unconsciously.

"We've broken up, Ye Lin, six years ago." I spoke, my voice cold and rational.

"Jian Anji, I love you!!" Ye Lin stubbornly said what he wanted to say. The raised voice was a welcome frenzy and familiarity, and my heart couldn't help but beat a beat.

Trying to suppress the tension and uneasiness that suddenly arose, he pretended to look at him calmly, "Ye Lin, we have broken up. Tell him this fact clearly.

Suddenly, my arms were firmly grasped, "I don't want to break up with you!" An almost irritable voice, "I regret it, Jian Anji, I don't want to break up with you!" I said I regretted it! I don't want to break up with you! ”

"Ye Lin." I frowned, the arm I was grabbed was in great pain, but my voice was distant and calm, "You said that you want to break up with me." ”

"You forced me to say that! Jian Anji! You don't care about me, you don't care about me at all, you say you're going to that damn France! I'm scared! I'm angry! I said I was going to break up! I want to make you nervous, I want you to stay! However, ......" In the end, Ye Lin's voice was a little sad, "But you still went!" He looked up at me, "You can always be so decisive, so simple, so simple that it makes me feel ...... You've never loved me! ”

If you don't care, if you don't love, you won't allow a person to stay by your side for six years.

It turns out that he has always thought so.

This kind of not being understood, even after six years of separation, still feels uncomfortable to hear.

Cover your eyelashes. With a faint opening, I spoke very slowly and lightly, but every word was clear and cold.

"I love you, ever.

When you broke up with me, I was very sad, really sad, Ye Lin.

I—I was kicked out of Jane's house.

I'm looking for you.

I said I was going to France, and I was forced to go to a place where I couldn't even speak.

I just want to find you.

You say, 'Let's break up, Jane'.

I don't know how I turned away, and I still can't remember how I turned away. ”

- Jian Anji, you fucking bastard, if you want to go to France, you can go, what do you say to me, who am I you, to put it bluntly, it's nothing! ——

"But even if you say break up. I still miss you, I just arrived in France, I want to find you, I can't help it, even I feel strange, but I still think about it.

Once, I finally mustered up the courage to call you.

It's not you who picks it up.

She said...... You don't want to answer my phone.

I was standing on the street and couldn't remember the way back.

Even if that road has been walked no less than ten times.

I tried to ask someone, but I found that I couldn't understand a word. ”

"Ye Lin, we have been together for six years, not sixty days......

…… For the first few months, I dreamed of you almost every day......

For a long time, I didn't even want to wake up.

Although, ironically, at night I had to take a lot of sleeping pills to fall asleep. ”

"The second and last time, I'll call you.

Actually, it shouldn't be hit.

However, I was scared, really scared.

I...... Someone was injected with cocaine.

Christine is dead.

I just want to ...... Looking for you.

After this time, let me really decide - no longer looking for you. ”

- "Ye Lin, it's me. ”

“…… Something? The voice that followed the long silence was cold and unforgiving.

"I ...... Miss you, Ye Lin, really, very much. "Man is the only animal that has spiritual feelings, especially when he is vulnerable, and he especially wants to be emotionally dependent on someone, someone who is extremely important in the depths of his heart.

"Really?" There was obvious sarcasm in his voice, "Jian Anji, if you call and just want to tell me this...... Well, I won't be with you. ”

"Ye Lin - I want to see you......" abandoned all self-esteem and pride, the only humility in his life.

"But I don't want to see you, not at all! Jian Anji, if I could, I really want to forget everything I had with you! ”——

I looked up at him, and Ye Lin's expression was completely shocked.

Huo Ran let go of my hand, took several big steps back with some staggering, and laughed, laughing embarrassed and desperate, "Jian Anji, you are so ruthless, you will always be ruthless than me!" After saying that, he turned and ran into the deep darkness, his messy and fast pace looking unusually sluggish on the dim road.

Am I ruthless? Maybe I'm really ruthless, once I deny it, I will never accept it again, this is a kind of persistence, but also a kind of pathological extremism, hurting others and hurting oneself. But it is deeply ingrained and difficult to change.

Looking at the slender figure that was gradually moving away, pinching the palm of the hand that had been sweating, there was a little sting in my heart.

That's the best, though. Knowing that it is no longer possible, simply do not start in the slightest.

When I turned around, I saw Xi Xichen standing under the street lamp not far away!