In the hospital room, the white walls, the white sheets, the cold air and the smell of disinfectant potion were all familiar to me, but this time, it was not me who was lying on the hospital bed.

I walked over slowly, sat on the edge of the bed, Xi Xichen in a coma looked haggard and harmless, the perfect facial lines were soft and even a little childish, the unruly black hair covered the slightly locked eyebrows, the miserable white lips were pursed, the usual arrogance was gone, and some were just pale.

Exploiting, deceiving, moving with emotion, one ring after another, carefully playing the cards in your hand, calculating, and the capital needed to get out of the dark path, even counting your own life.

It's just as smart as him, but it's jerky to the point of being almost clumsy when dealing with feelings.

Slowly raised my eyes, and in an instant crashed into a pair of deep ink eyes that had opened and were quietly staring at me at some point, I was stunned, and the next moment I stood up from the edge of the bed at a loss, but before I could stand firmly, I was lightly held by Xi Xichen, and the voice of "An ......" was hoarse to break.

"I'll call a doctor."

"No," Xi Xichen sat up with a little difficulty, his eyes like a deep pool did not move a bit, and his tone was slightly earnest, "That's fine." ”

I was a little uncomfortable with his eyes, and tilted my head, "Xi Xichen, I won't accept a love for the sake of gratitude." ”

"I know." After a long silence, he said unusually calmly.

"It's just, I thought you weren't coming back."

"Your bitter ploy is very thorough." I sneered slightly, at that time I still feel a little trembling when I think about it, if I don't figure out that his pain is not a lie, if I don't figure out the words behind the "unless" is that unless someone holds down the switch, you can't open the slate...... In fact, I have always hated this kind of insincere hypocrisy, but I have never been so disgusted, so disgusted that my vision is blurred, and my face is full of green tears.

“…… Guilt? Qingming's vision darkened.

I looked at him with a blank face, "Don't try to test me. ”

Xi Xichen smiled bitterly, "Really, it's useless for me to do anything, right?" Maybe it's the sick and weak relationship that makes him look like a wronged child at the moment.

I turned my head slightly, "Xi Xichen, I don't hate you anymore, so you don't have to do anything more." ”

Suddenly, his face became a little brighter, gently pulled me a little closer, and brought my hand to his mouth and lightly imprinted a kiss, the cold touch of his fingertips made my heart palpitate, "You ......"

Xi Xichen raised his eyes, "Thank you, so far, this is already very good." ”

I didn't know that Xi Xichen was so easily satisfied, such a strange person, but he also had a touch of warmth that led me.

As for everything in the tunnels, we deliberately don't mention it.

"You rest, I'll come back tomorrow." Breaking free from his grip, he grabbed the coat on the back of his chair and walked towards the door.

"Ann." A faint voice came from behind him, containing a thousand words, "...... I just want you to know that I'm not going to do anything that will upset you, your father's side...... That blind date ......"

“…… I know. ”

There was a pause in the back, "Thank you, trust me." Also, Anji, I'm sorry. ”

I didn't stay any longer, opened the door and went out, and the last sentence of sorry was six years late, but now it only sounds like a light breeze, in fact, all that is true is only a light breeze.

Xi Xichen was hospitalized for a week, and I went back to school to deal with some things and informed my aunt of the postponement of the trip.

My roommate didn't raise the slightest question about my disappearance in the past few days, we have rarely been involved, but the Singaporean girl asked me for the news of "Ye Lin" every time she saw me, and I could only answer with a wry smile that he was about to get married, obviously she was a little disappointed, but she also obediently stopped bothering me.

At noon that day, I took the takeaway meal from the Italian store to the hospital, Xi Xichen was sleeping, the wounds on his body had been completely scarred, but his face was still pale.

The scar on his palm, so deep and so terrifying, brushed gently, with a little distress that he hadn't even noticed. The next moment I felt his fingers slowly draw my five points between his fingers, tightly intertwined, "Here we go." Xi Xichen seems to have regarded not hating as acceptance, and he is a little bit inched.

"How are you feeling today?" Doctors said he was demobilized quickly and had been discharged early yesterday.

"It's not bad." Xi Xichen's eyes were very clear.

I withdrew my hand, poured a glass of water and handed it over, "I'm more or less responsible for your injury. ”

“…… I'm sorry, but I'm making it difficult for you. He lowered his head and looked at the glass in his hand.

He is really like a baby in his feelings, cautious and extremely sensitive, every temptation, can't help but touch, when I coldly refuse, and consciously retreat to the most suitable and effective distance, and then wait for the next move.

…… And how much better can I be than him? Perhaps, hating him is just a kind of anger, cowardly tolerance for his father, and when his grievances and resentments have nowhere to vent, he selfishly and completely transfers them to him, and, self-hypnotized, takes it for granted, and strokes his left cheek, where there is no pain, but ...... Perhaps, he just wants to prove that he is still alive through him, and perhaps, he is the one who has been used......

I admit that my state of mind is very different from before, and I know that I have something else to do with him besides "gratitude", and I recall my panic again that day, and I can't help but smile bitterly, what is my persistence...... Last night, I thought about it a lot, thinking of my aunt, Pu Zheng, Christine, Ye Lin, Xi Xichen, mother, father, Lin Xiaodi, Mo Jiazhen...... I thought about all the people I have been with, I don't know why Dudu has so much to do with Xi Xichen, maybe it's the arrangement of fate...... It's just sad that the coldness and coldness of the two make it difficult for each other to express their emotions easily, and then getting along has become a hardship, until now...... After this incident, Xi Xichen became extremely gentle and supple, as if he had let go of something, but the failing EQ made him not know how to deal with this feeling.

"Anji?" A faint voice sounded, with a sense of gentleness.

I stood up, suddenly a little relaxed, and a little helpless, and slowly exhaled, "Xi Xichen, let's get along in harmony." ”

Try to look at him with a calm mind, without any prejudice, and maybe, I can really get along with him.

Of course, it is too early to define this relationship as a love, after all, it is not easy for me to fully accept a person in terms of mentality. So now we can only come step by step, in the future, we may get along and integrate, or we may part indifferently.

And what I know at the moment is that I just don't want to hate him anymore, that's all.