Remembering that I hadn't washed off the foam on my face, I wailed and ran back to the bathroom, but my phone rang again.

This time I looked carefully, it was the word "Zhou Gongjin" flashing brightly, as for when his name was signed, I don't have an impression, I'm afraid he took advantage of me to sneak it when I was asleep.

took a deep breath, picked up the phone, and warned word by word: "Zhou Gongjin, you'd better have a reason to convince me - now you have to call again and again to harass me." ”

"Daughter-in-law," Zhou Yu whispered on the other end, and then said, "Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, and my mother just called me to ask us to go back tonight." ”

It was as if a heavy stone had smashed into my heart, so I took down my phone and looked through the calendar, and sure enough, today was December 23rd.

Suddenly, a fragment of overlapping shadows flashed in his mind, and he replied softly: "Got it." ”

"Jia Xiaoru, wait until I come back from work and go back with you."

"Hmm."

After the call, I walked over to the couch and sat in, not getting up again.

When Zhou Yu came back, I was sitting alone on the sofa in a daze, and I came back from my trance when I heard movement from the door. As soon as he entered, he glanced at me, frowned, and asked, "What is the white piece of your face?" ”

That's when I remembered that I was interrupted on the phone while I was washing my face, and I forgot about it, and the cleanser foam on my face had dried up. I still got up very calmly in front of him, "A new Korean face mask." ”

When I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror, it was really miserable, and the white foam was stained on my face. I quickly rinsed my face and looked in the mirror again, and found that my face in the mirror was pale, so I took out the makeup case and sketched a few simple strokes, and smeared rouge on my cheeks, so I looked okay.

I went back to my mother, knowing that we were coming back, and the door was open. When I entered the door, I saw fish, meat and other dishes on the square table, but there was no trace of my mother. I changed my shoes and shouted, "Mom? ”

After a while, my mother came out of the room, and saw that we were not as enthusiastic as before, but greeted us in a calm tone: "Come back, go wash your hands and get ready for dinner." ”

When the family sat down at the square table to start eating, no one seemed to be interested in speaking, and even Zhou Yu, who usually talked a lot and liked to make his mother happy, was relatively silent, only bored and picked, and there were few dishes.

I picked up the rice grains in the bowl with chopsticks, and I didn't eat all day, but I didn't have an appetite at this time, and I was afraid that my stomach would be hungry and my stomach was suffocated. Suddenly, my mother spoke on the other side: "Are you picking rice in that chicken?" Don't eat it yet, I have something to say after eating. ”

Zhou Yu looked at me, reached over and poured my rice into his bowl, and then said with a smile: "Jia Xiaoru ate snacks in the afternoon, I'm afraid I can't eat it, or I'll solve it for me." ”

Mom snorted softly, but it was rare that she didn't ramble anymore.

Zhou Yu ate quickly, and the bowl bottomed out with two hula hula chops, and the mother put down the chopsticks almost immediately.

"I called you back today because I have something to tell you both, originally no one mentioned this day tomorrow at home, but you got married this year, and I thought about it and thought that you should go and clean your father's grave together."

It was as if my heart had been hit with a heavy punch, and it hurt dullly.

Tomorrow is December 24th, Christmas Eve, Dad's death day.

However, in our family, since my father left that year, he has never had a death day, only a birthday. Maybe my mother would secretly go to the grave alone, but she didn't call me once.

I only went to that cemetery once after my dad left that year.

Zhou Yu should go down, and live on my mother's side tonight.

After returning to the room, I asked him if he had something to do in the office tomorrow, and he said that there was nothing to be busy with, so he went to sit in the office. Just call tomorrow morning to say hello, and he can also take a break.

I had no opinion, and after taking a shower, I lay down. But it may be that I didn't get up until noon, and it was only nine o'clock at this time, so I didn't feel sleepy at all. Zhou Yu went outside to take a bath, and I didn't see him come in for a long time, so I went to open the door and couldn't hear a trace of movement outside. Suddenly, the door next door was opened, and Zhou Yu walked into the line of sight, and also saw me at the door of the bedroom.

"What are you hiding here and eavesdropping?"

"Where did I eavesdrop? I'm going to come out and pour water to drink. ”

Do I need to eavesdrop in my own home? If you want to listen, you should listen openly. While pouring water, I thought sullenly.

When I went back to the room, I saw Zhou Yu leaning on the head of the bed and looking at his mobile phone, so I walked over and pretended to ask casually, "What did my mother tell you?" He put down his phone, "Still wondering how long you can endure before asking." ”

I raised an eyebrow and waited for him to follow.

"Actually, it's nothing, just tell me when I want to get up tomorrow morning, what things to take, and what points to pay attention to."

"My mom isn't going?" I was a little surprised.

He nodded and said, "It seems that yes, it seems to mean that we will go by ourselves." ”

I was silent and didn't ask any more questions.

This night, Zhou Yu was not presumptuous, just hugged me and slept peacefully. He knew in his heart that I was not in the mood for this night, and it was not suitable. Listening to his breathing in his ear, I pulled away his hand around my waist.

The mood is restless and a little uneasy. I glanced at Zhou Yu and saw that he was sleeping soundly, so I got up from the bed and went to the cupboard in the living room to rummage. Suddenly, my mother's voice came from behind: "What are you looking for?" ”

I was startled, and turned around to see my mother standing at the door of my father's room, and my heart chuckled, did I not come out of it all night, or did I not sleep like me and went to talk to my father again?

"I didn't look for anything, I remember that I thought I bought a bottle of coffee before, I don't know where I left it?"

My mother frowned and said disapprovingly: "What kind of coffee do you drink in the middle of the night, and you can't sleep yet." ”

I was silent and whispered, "Mom, I can't sleep." ”

Mom sighed, "The coffee is on the second floor under the cupboard. ”

I pulled out the coffee bottle and found the cup, and brewed a full cup. This coffee was brought back from Canada by a friend, and it tastes very mellow, but I prefer the aroma of this coffee that wafts through the room.

When you are irritable, drinking a cup of coffee can calm your emotions.

But lately, because I've been in someone's custody, I rarely touch it.

"Xiaoru, Mom knows that you are not happy."

I paused with my hand holding my coffee, "I didn't, Mom, don't think about it." ”

"Okay, I'm your mom and I don't know about you. When I separated from your father, you didn't say anything, but you went home less and less, and then you came back once a semester when you went to college. ”

I took a sip of my coffee, bittersweet and bittersweet.

Wait for the taste in your mouth to dissipate before you speak: "Mom? Did you really not love your dad back then? ”

When my mother heard this, she didn't reply to me immediately, but took the coffee from my hand and took a sip, and then said slowly: "You should be your young people now, what did we talk about in those days?" The family can get together to live together, and there is a discussion, which is harmony and beauty; If there are differences of opinion, they often quarrel, and if they can't get together, they have to end. ”

So at the beginning, my mother and my father divorced because of life and reality.

"I think, although I asked you and Xiaoyu to kowtow to your father in the house before, and also told you about your marriage, but in the first year of marriage, you should still go and sweep your father's grave."

I pondered for a moment and asked, "Are you going?" ”

"I'm not going. Remember, your dad's location is in cemetery number 18 on row 29. Take your father's box with you, it's all his thoughts, but don't leave anything behind, you have to get it back for me." ”

There was another quiet silence, except for the occasional sip of coffee, only a soft moaning breath.

Before I knew it, the coffee bottomed out, and my eyes swept to the side, and I found that my mother had fallen asleep on the sofa with her head tilted.

It is rare to look at one's mother so unscrupulously from a close distance. On the hem of my mother's clothes, there are a few horizontal folds left after sitting on the sofa for a long time, which is a little out of place with the meticulous hot appearance on weekdays. The hair should be dyed, a touch of black shiny, knowing that although my mother is a strict person, she is not unsophisticated.

It's just that after so many years, my mother has always been alone. Even if she and her father divorced very early that year, even if she had a second spring, but in the end there was no follow-up because of that disaster.

I think in my mother's heart, it was difficult for me to communicate in adolescence, and I was also willful as an adult. It's like divorcing Chen Huan before, without saying a word of reason, without giving an explanation, and quickly marrying Zhou Yu.

didn't wake her up, took a blanket from the room to cover it, and found the remote control of the air conditioner in the living room to turn on the heat.

It didn't take long for the room to get warmer, and I used to say that my mother's air conditioner in the living room was a furnishing, and I almost didn't use it when I bought it. When she gets up tomorrow morning and finds out, she will definitely feel distressed again.

When I rinsed my mouth and went back to my room, I tried to relax my hands and feet, but as soon as I lay down on the bed, the immobile man came up, wrapped my waist tightly and sniffed in my neck, and then whispered, "You're drinking coffee again." ”

…… This man is really a dog's nose, and he can smell it.

"Why did you wake up?" I'll talk about him left and right.

He said, "Can you fall asleep without a wife holding you?" ”

"Cut, I didn't see you who couldn't sleep if you didn't hold me the night before."

He chuckled and arched his nose over my hair, "Jia Xiaoru, are you suggesting that I hug you?" ”

I obediently stopped the conversation, deliberately pretending to be sleepy and muttering, "Sleep, I have to get up early tomorrow morning." ”

"Hmph, can you still sleep with a cup of coffee?"

I said, "Wait and see." ”

For others, a cup of coffee may be a stimulant that can keep people energized for the night. But for me, it relaxes my nerves and calms my restless emotions, so I close my eyes and fall asleep not long after.

In the morning, I was woken up by Zhou Yu, and I heard him say: "Our mother has passed by the door of our room three times, and the footsteps are very loud." I rubbed my eyes, feeling very tired, my whole body was sore, but I said, "Then get up." ”

Actually, it was still early, and when I walked out the door to see the clock on the wall, it was just after six o'clock.

My mother calmly called us for breakfast, and in the bowl were two sweet boiled eggs, an old habit that had been inherited from the old days. Zhou Yu and I finished eating silently, and my mother asked if it was enough, and if there was still enough in the pot.

I shook my head and said enough.