As soon as I entered the company, it was a mess, all kinds of busy work, if Wang Lei hadn't called me at noon, I almost forgot to meet him.

When I saw Wang Lei, this guy was another nonsense, but he didn't get to the point, I finished my lunch and chatted with him.

"Jiejie, let me tell you something, don't get excited." Finally, I looked at the time on the wall, and it was time to go to work, and Wang Lei started the topic.

I knocked on the table boringly, thinking in my heart, I knew that you kid couldn't hold my breath, nodded, and said, "As long as you didn't do something sorry for Yuanyuan and Douzi, I won't be angry with you." ”

Wang Lei was anxious when he heard this, and said: "How can that, I am very good with Yuanyuan." You can rest assured, rest assured. ”

"Tell me something!" I don't know why I suddenly had a bad feeling in my heart.

"It's about starting a family." Wang Lei hesitated for a long time but still opened his mouth.

I got up directly and prepared to leave, and said, "Wang Lei, I thought you knew it, his affairs have nothing to do with me, you don't need to tell me." ”

Seeing that I was leaving, Wang Lei hurriedly stood up, blocked my way, and said quickly: "Jiejie, it's not good to start a family now, their company is being sued, he is the first defendant, and now the problem can't be solved, he can't hold on anymore, if he doesn't do it well, he will not only have to compensate, but also go to prison." ”

"Jail?!" I was taken aback and asked, "How can it be so serious?" ”

Wang Lei motioned for me to sit down first, and then said: "You also know that this problem is very serious, and it has not been solved. ”

I sat in my position in a daze, my hand holding the quilt trembled slightly, how could it be so serious?!

Wang Lei looked at me nervously, opened his mouth to say something more, but finally didn't speak.

At that time, I was full of panic, and I didn't have the energy to pay attention to the obviously abnormal look on Wang Lei's face.

When I came back to my senses, Wang Lei was no longer in my seat, I was not in a hurry to go back to the company, but carefully weighed it in my heart, and the result was of course conceivable, I still had to go on this business trip anyway. I told myself that this past didn't mean anything, just that I was responsible for my work, and that I thought of him as a friend.

After making up my mind, I went directly to the second boss's office and knocked on the door, and the second boss looked at me suspiciously, signaling me to have something to say quickly. I took a deep breath, cleared my throat, and said, "Boss, I applied to lead the team over the case of Chengyu." ”

The second boss looked at me, didn't speak for a long time, and finally spoke: "Are you sure you want to go?" ”

"Hmm." I nodded, lest I don't have the courage to bring it up once I walk out of this office.

Hearing my answer, the second boss rarely had no poisonous tongue, stood up and walked towards me, and said with a solemn expression: "Xiao Jie, have you told the boss about this matter?" ”

I raised my head sharply and looked at the second boss, his eyes were clear, and sure enough, he knew.

Seeing that I looked at him in surprise, the second boss turned around and walked to the window, posing as a literary and artistic youth, and said, "I don't want to say much about your affairs, but I want to remind you that there are some fates, and if you miss them, you will never get them back." ”

I looked at the back of the second boss in a daze, "Thank you, I'll talk to the boss, now you are my direct boss, I hope you can approve it." I said softly.

"Mu Jie, I have found out now, the man who likes you is really unlucky, not only for your IQ, but also to fight with the same sex at all times to defend the integrity of his territory." Sure enough, the character of pretending to be melancholy is not suitable for the second boss, and he returned to his nature without saying a word.

After the second boss finished speaking, he sat down and continued to type on his keyboard, not squinting, completely ignoring my existence. At this point, I could only laugh at myself and turn away.

The next thing is how to talk to Lu Yu, I thought of a lot of high-sounding reasons, and finally found that in front of him, all the words were pale. How can you explain that you have no selfish motives in offering to act as technical support when your ex-boyfriend's company is in crisis?

I thought about it all afternoon, and the answer was, I can't explain it.

I also thought about ending the relationship with Lu Yu, because I knew that every time I thought about starting a family, it was not only a harm to myself, but also to Boss Lu. But as long as I think of the warmth of leaving Boss Lu, my heart can't help but hurt, I admit that I am selfish, I am reluctant to give up this warmth, it is the only medicine to relieve my heartache.

One afternoon, I struggled with pain, reluctance, sadness, anxiety, guilt, all kinds of pain overwhelmed and swallowed me.

When my mobile phone rang, I realized that it was already dark, and when I took the phone, it was Lu Yu.

"Little one, go home." Boss Lu's voice was still so warm, but for some reason, I heard a trace of sadness coming from the other end of the microphone.

"Boss, I want to talk to you about something." I took a deep breath.

"Say it, I'm here." Lu Yu said in a calm tone that he was listening carefully.

"There is a problem with this cooperation case, and I want to lead the team over."

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There was no sound on the other end of the phone for a long time, and I waited in silence. Suddenly, there was a screeching radio wave in my ear, and the phone was hung up.

It didn't take long for the door of my office to be slammed open, and Boss Lu walked in with an angry face, approaching me step by step. I sat on the chair and looked at Boss Lu with anger and sadness on his face, and I only felt that he stepped heavily on my heart with every step, making me almost unable to breathe.

"Did he make you so uncontrollable? Haven't I been good enough for you after all this time? Lu Yu came to my desk and questioned me painfully.

"I didn't." I cried and said, "No, you're good to me, I... I just want to... ”

I don't know how to explain it, and I don't know how to comfort the injured Lu Yu.

Time passed in the painful staring of the two of us, and in the end Lu Yu still relented, looked at me distressedly, and said with a bitter smile: "I have always wanted to take good care of you, why do I always make you cry?" ”

I shook my head desperately, no, not you, it's me who is not good, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!

Lu Yu walked around the desk, pressed me in his arms, and hugged me tightly, as if he was using all his strength to melt me into his body. I felt the pain, tears watering his chest.

When I finally began to calm down, Lu Yu gently wiped away my tears and said, "Do you want to leave me?" ”

I shook my head and choked, "I'm reluctant." ”

"Okay, let's go home." Lu Yu helped me sort out my clothes briefly and pulled me out of the company.

The frequency of crying has been too high recently, and my eyes hurt so much that I squinted and sat in Lu Yu's car. When I came back to my senses, Lu Yu had already parked the car downstairs at my house.

I looked at Lu Yu, who had been silent, and whispered, "I've arrived." ”

"Hmm."

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"Then I'll go up first." I spoke softly, breaking the long-silent deadlock.

Lu Yu didn't speak, didn't look at me, and nodded slightly. Just as I opened the car door and was about to get out of the car to leave, he grabbed me, looked at me quietly for a few seconds, and said, "I'm with you." ”

There was too much emotion in that tone, and I was a little understanding and a little heartache, so I nodded and said, "Okay." ”

When we got home, the two of us acted as if nothing had happened, as usual, Lu Yu went to make dinner, and I was responsible for cleaning up.

I finished washing, changed into pajamas, and stood quietly at the door of the bedroom looking at Lu Yu who was sitting on the sofa watching TV. Xu was aware of my gaze, Lu Yu turned around and asked softly, "Finished washing?" ”

"Hmm." I nodded and said, "I'm ready for bed." ”

Lu Yu turned his head, continued to watch the TV, and said, "You sleep first, and I'll watch it later." ”

"Okay." I whispered and turned back into the house, but didn't close the bedroom door.

Sitting on the edge of the bed alone, looking at the photo of me and Lu Yu at the head of the bed, our smiles were so bright and happy.

I don't know how long later, Lu Yu walked in, looked at me a little nervously, slowly approached me, and sat down on the edge of the bed. I moved myself towards Lu Yu and rested my head on his shoulder. Lu Yu turned around, hugged me gently, gently put me down on the bed, controlled me between his arms and the bed, and said very gently: "Let me love you well and take care of you, okay?" ”

Lu Yu looked at me so affectionately, I saw the strong affection for me in his eyes, my heart trembled, although I had already made a decision, but at this moment I froze, I didn't know how to react, let alone how to answer.

Before I could think about it for long, Lu Yu's soft kiss fell, like a drizzle, and gradually began to rush again. After getting along for so long, I have become accustomed to Boss Lu's kiss and his embrace, but no matter how deep it is, it is gone.

Tonight, Boss Lu seemed to have lost his usual calm, like a male beast who wanted to defend his territory, and his body exuded a strong aura, as if hinting at something.

I passively accepted it, and I didn't say no. I turned my head to see us smiling brightly on the bedside, and my heart began to calm down.

Lu Yu kissed me and caressed me, I knew that he wanted to have me. I also knew that I could accept this fact, and even tried to get myself to cooperate with him, but in the end I couldn't give him the response he wanted.

Finally, Lu Yu stopped his movements, punched the bed beside me, and roared, "Why don't you refuse?" If you can't accept it, why force yourself? Why? "The last why, Lu Yu shouted in a thick nasal voice.

I gently hugged him, patted him on the back, and said softly, "It's okay, it's okay, I'm willing, don't be sad, really, I'm willing." ”

Holding Lu Yu and feeling the slight tremor of his body, I seemed to hear him crying.

At that moment, my heart was like a knife, and I wanted to kill myself.

I scolded myself in my heart: Xiao Jie, Xiao Jie, how selfish and bad you are to force such a good man to be like this, how long do you want to hurt him?

I don't know how long it took, Lu Yu turned over and got up from me, sat on the edge of the bed with his back to me, and said calmly: "I still can't protect you for the rest of your life in the end." ”

I felt a deep sadness in Lu Yu's calm tone, and I choked up: "Boss, you are my knight, and you will always be." ”

I don't know how to tell him how grateful I am and how important his presence is to me; It was he who accompanied me through my most painful time, and it was he who gave me warm support.

For him, I have thousands of "gratitudes" and thousands of "sorry".

I didn't know how to say it, I didn't know what it meant to let him know; Speaking out may make my guilty heart feel a little better; But for Lu Yu, for that wounded heart, can these pale words really alleviate the slight pain?

In the dark, with the faint light on the TV screen, I silently watched Lu Yu's back, and my tears were about to dry up. I even hated myself for why I agreed to Lu Yu's pursuit in the first place, if I had chosen to bear it alone, then it would not have become a sadness for two people now.

Perhaps feeling the pain in my eyes, Lu Yu turned around, tried to pull the corners of his mouth to squeeze out a smile, and said, "I will always be your knight, as long as you need it, I will be the first to appear, my little princess." So, tonight, will I, the knight, be able to last hold the princess's hand and fall asleep? ”

I nodded, sobbing silently, "Of course, my knight-sama." ”

That night, I fell asleep holding hands with Lu Yu.

In the darkness of the night, my tears wet my pillow.