218 That little thing between men
The dialogue between two men often does not have so much unnecessary foreshadowing and nonsense, either they don't say it, or they are straightforward. And the problems between Li Qiren and Mo Yang are all well known, so there is no need for additional explanations.
Li Qiren didn't think to say these words at this time, so he didn't say goodbye to Mo Yang in person before leaving, but deliberately chose to avoid it. But since Mo Yang will take the initiative to find it, when he is about to leave the capital, facing Mo Yang again, he seems to be unable to suppress everything in his heart.
"You like Yuhua too, right?" He asked expressionlessly, but he added the word yes before the word liking, obviously not caring about breaking down the contradiction between the two.
Hearing Li Qiren's words, Mo Yang did not hesitate, nodded directly, and said with certainty: "Yes, I like her." β
It's not just a simple like, but love, the kind of love that only wants to be with each other for the rest of your life, hand in hand. Mo Yang secretly added in his heart.
Such an answer was naturally expected by Li Qiren, and the reason why he asked this sentence was just for his own later question.
"When did you first fall in love with her?" Li Qiren's tone became slightly sharper: "Did you like it when she first came to Wenxiang Teahouse?" β
Mo Yang didn't care about Li Qiren's attitude, shook his head and said: "When I first saw her, I just thought she was very special, but I didn't like her all at once. And I don't know when I fell in love with her, it wasn't love at first sight, but it was engraved into my heart unconsciously. β
He is right, that kind of liking really doesn't know when it arises, and I don't know when it deepens, but when you fully understand your heart, everything becomes impossible to let go. Although this kind of relationship is not as heart-wrenching as love at first sight, it becomes incomparably affectionate and indestructible in the unconsciously bit by bit relationship.
Li Qiren heard this. His expression was slightly strange, it was the first time he had heard Mo Yang say such a thing, if it had been placed before, he couldn't believe that the person who said such a solemn thing in front of him would be Mo Yang who had a cold personality and never put half a love word on his lips.
There was an indescribable taste in his heart. Mo Yang is a person with a firm heart, once he identifies something, it will not change even if it is difficult, and in the end, he can do it well with his ability and hard work. For so many years, he had never seen Mo Yang miss anything, and it was the first time he had seen Mo Yang so solemnly and firmly admit the feelings in his heart.
Mo Yang's temperament is destined to be like him, and he can't like someone just by looking at it, but once he likes it, that kind of temperament is more terrifying than anything else. Li Qiren had a headache in his heart. I couldn't help but think of the look on Yuhua's face that involuntarily appeared when I asked Yuhua, and now when I saw Mo Yang again, I suddenly felt that it was so similar.
Holding back the feeling in his heart, Li Qiren sighed secretly and continued to ask Mo Yang: "Then when you first met Yuhua, did you know that I already liked her?" β
"Yes." Mo Yang didn't hide it, he was as familiar with him as Ren. How could it be impossible not to understand this?
"Why do you want to fight with me when you know I already like her?" Li Qiren obviously couldn't control the excitement in his heart, and he admitted that he was still not mature after all. couldn't control his emotions as calmly as Mo Yang, but this sentence was really held in his heart for too long, so long that he was almost out of breath.
Perhaps, he understands the truth and knows that feelings can't be forced, but emotionally, he subconsciously transferred the reason for this emotional loss to Mo Yang. The reason why he didn't want to meet Mo Yang head-on for so long was that he couldn't control himself. Say something like this, and emit emotions like this.
And Li Qiren's current appearance is not too surprising to Mo Yang, understanding that he has always been a more direct person, and it is not easy for this contradiction between them to be avoided by him for so long. But Yu Qing Moyang can understand, but Yu Li does not agree, especially this one contention. Make him unacceptable.
"Qiren, since you asked this, then I can't help but say a few words from my heart." Mo Yang thought about it for a while, and felt that since some things were said, it was better to simply say them, but he had never been very good at tactfulness, and he was afraid that he would invisibly hurt Li Qiren again, so he thought for a moment before continuing to educate and said: "First, you know the thing of feelings, it doesn't mean that if you like it, you can like it, and if you don't like it, you can not like it." I know you like her, but you can't go against your heart. If you like it, you like it! β
"Second, Yuhua is a person, not a thing. She has her own ideas, her own decisions, and her ideas and decisions should be affirmed and respected. You can like her, I can like her, everyone has the right to like others, but in the same way, Yuhua She also has the right to choose whether she likes or dislikes, doesn't she? β
Mo Yang estimated that he had never said such a long thing in one breath in his life, and seeing that Li Qiren did not squeak, he looked silent, but continued: "If you say that when you know her, or like her, she is already your wife or fiancΓ©e or something, it is really wrong for me to like her again." Even if you and her didn't have a marriage contract at that time, as long as the two of you promised each other, I would never have liked it. β
"I can see that you like Yuhua very much, but I can also see that Yuhua just treats you as a best friend. When I liked her, I wasn't sure if she would like me, but I knew that this was a woman worth liking. Whether or not she will like me as much as I like her in the future, whether this love will have the result she wants in the future, I will not regret it. Although he had thought about it very solemnly for a while, as soon as the words came out, Mo Yang still found that he really didn't know how to express it tactfully, and when he saw this, he simply didn't think too much, and directly said what he thought in his heart.
And Li Qiren was obviously shocked by Mo Yang's words, although these words were really extremely uncomfortable to hear, but he had to admit that what Mo Yang said was not wrong. It's just that subconsciously I don't want to agree.
"You just don't have back pain when you stand and talk, because now you already know that the person Yuhua likes is you. And not me! Isn't it? If the person Yuhua likes is me, not you, this will be kung fu, and you can still stand in front of me. Is it so calm and so indifferent to say this? Li Qiren frowned, turned his face away and stopped looking at Mo Yang, this friend who had made him for so many years made him feel a lot of feelings at the moment. Although I know that I can't blame others for many things, I can't help but put the blame on others.
Perhaps, it is precisely because he subconsciously knows that Mo Yang is his best friend that he will be like this.
Looked at. Mo Yang didn't want to say anything more, he was not a person who was good at words, and what he just said was already enough to express everything, he knew that many things could not be figured out by understanding the truth, and many things had to be slowly comprehended by Qiren himself. Perhaps, this time it is not a good idea for Qiren to choose to leave the capital temporarily for some time. Stay away from the land of right and wrong and calm down. Time will make people mature, and it will also make people involuntarily comprehend.
"Qiren, I can understand your mood at the moment. So no matter what you think of me, I don't have anything to think about. It's just that Qiren, no matter what, we are best friends, and I don't want the brotherhood between us to be affected because of Yuhua's affairs. In the same way, I don't think Yuhua wants to see us turn against each other for her, right? β
Mo Yang sighed slightly and said, "It's okay if you blame me or blame me, I can understand it, but no matter what, I hope you can let go of your knots." Turning back into the hearty and happy Qiren before, I hope you can put down all your burdens and successfully complete this trip to Longnan. β
Today's words really exceeded Mo Yang's usual too much, and Li Qiren understood in his heart at the moment that Mo Yang was not what he just said that standing and talking without backache. He knew that Mo Yang really valued the brotherhood between them, and he also knew that everything Mo Yang said was a real word. To be honest, except for the fact that he hated Mo Yang and resented Mo Yang when he got Yuhua's affirmative reply at the beginning, after so many days. This inexplicable hatred and resentment in my heart has long since ceased to exist, but it still can't eliminate the mustard in my heart, and I still can't let go of it.
He stood there, not knowing what he could say, so he simply shut his mouth and said nothing. Is he really unwilling to pay attention to Mo Yang anymore? Not really, Li Qiren knew in his heart that he was still not mature and rational enough after all, and he knew that it was impossible to give up this friendship, but he showed his emotions by his temperament. If he really regarded Mo Yang as an enemy in his heart, he would not let Yuhua tell him on his behalf when he left yesterday.
Therefore, in the final analysis, he just can't pass the level in his heart, so he asked the emperor for this errand, ran far away, and let himself calm down first. Maybe when he returns to Beijing again, many things will be a foregone conclusion, or something will change again, so that he has enough time to think and understand, so that it should be fairer to everyone.
Li Qiren's silence made Mo Yang not understand, at this time they seemed to have changed their personalities, they used to like to talk and laugh non-stop but were silent, but in the past, he rarely spoke out but kept talking like a one-man show. But so what? He doesn't care about what he thinks is worthwhile, and Qiren is naturally a brother worth fighting for.
However, seeing Qiren's appearance, Mo Yang knew that there were some things that didn't need to be said again, and it might be better if it was done in moderation. Since Qiren chose to leave the capital temporarily, this shows that Qiren is also aware of this in his heart, and wants to take the opportunity to reason and think about it. In this case, he did not need to say more. Qiren is a smart man and a reasonable person, and he should get better after a period of calm.
He didn't think much about it, and when he saw that it was not too early, he took out a letter from his arms and handed it to Li Qiren and said, "Qiren, it's not too early, you're almost on the road." You take this, and when you get to Longnan, maybe there will be a time when you can get it. β
Seeing this, Li Qiren was no longer silent, and he didn't pick it up immediately, but just looked at the letter and asked, "What is this?" β
Seeing this, Mo Yang explained slightly: "There is a person named Feige in the Longnan area, who is a local black and white character. I had a relationship with him in the first two years, and I helped him a big favor, and I had some friendship with him. This person is a person with great grievances, after you go to Longnan, if you encounter any tricky things and need help, you can take this letter to him, after seeing this letter, he will definitely help you. β
Hearing Mo Yang's explanation, Li Qiren couldn't help but be slightly stunned, he didn't expect Mo Yang to think so well for himself. This person called Fei Ge, he has long been in trouble, and the entire Longnan realm is really a well-known figure. When I got there, it would be much easier to get to the help of such a head snake.
For a while, there was an indescribable feeling in my heart. He understood more and more that from beginning to end, Yuhua was still that Yuhua, and Mo Yang was still that Mo Yang, but he didn't want to admit it.
hesitated for a moment, not knowing whether to reach out to pick up the letter handed over by Mo Yang, but Li Qiren's complicated emotions did not escape Mo Yang's eyes.
"Take it, maybe you won't need it at all, but it won't take up much space with it, in case you can use it!" Mo Yang stuffed the letter into Li Qiren's hand as he spoke, and then said no more: "It's not too early, hurry up and get on the road, I haven't drunk with you for a long time, when you come back, let me pick up the wind for you, let's have a drink." β
Speaking of which, Li Qiren didn't seem to be able to twist anything more, after taking the letter, he looked at Mo Yang for a while, and finally didn't say anything else, just nodded and said, "When I come back, I'll invite you to drink." β
In a word, Mo Yang couldn't help but smile comfortably, being able to temporarily put aside everything on the side and invite him to drink, which is enough to show that Li Qiren still has him as a friend in his heart!
"Okay, let's have a drink!" He solemnly repeated, waved his hand, and finally said goodbye to his brother in his heart.
Li Qiren's departure made the entanglement between Xia Yuhua and Mo Yang temporarily stop, but at the same time, in the capital, a new round of storms is gradually approaching. (To be continued)