It's a pity not love

I am a paper tiger in front of the family, it seems that every day is a tooth and claw, full of momentum, in fact, as long as he frowns, I will instantly lose my arrogance and be defeated. If he showed a little discomfort or sadness, his heart immediately began to hurt for him first.

But feelings are not perfunctory, once there is a rift if not repaired in time, under the catalysis and amplification of reality and time, the scar will become bigger and bigger, and finally break into a big hole, devouring those feelings that were once cherished.

After the previous events, Chengjia and I began to consciously take into account each other's feelings, and I was no longer so clingy to him, trying not to disturb him. In this way, my free time is either studying to recharge or soaking with Yaoyao, and I try to find more time to come back to see me, or call and send messages to me.

Our relationship was once polite and distant, and I was supposed to be the closest person besides my parents, but my heart always seemed to be separated by something, and sometimes I had a feeling that I didn't know how to get along with him.

It feels like raising a pot of beloved flowers, I like it very much, I can't wait to water it every day and fertilize it so that it grows up quickly, but one day this flower is going to hang because of too much watering, you are afraid, afraid that it will die, afraid that no one will accompany you, you can only carefully protect it, and I don't know how often to water it is appropriate, and I don't even know whether to water it in the future.

After a long time, the family naturally noticed the changes in me, and sometimes when I looked at him every time he wanted to open his mouth and didn't know what to say, he could only look at me silently, with pity in his eyes. I know this change, and I hate this atmosphere, but every time I face the face of starting a family, it is always a feeling of powerlessness.

I had my birthday that day, it happened to be the weekend, and the family called Yaoyao and Wang Lei to the house a day in advance, saying that they would celebrate me in advance first, and wait until my birthday to enjoy the world of the two.

Because of the last incident, I didn't pay much attention to Wang Lei for a long time, and I slipped in while I was cleaning up in the kitchen, "Jiejie, are you okay with the family?" ”

I ignored him and went on with my business. Wang Lei scratched his head a little anxious, "Jiejie, what's wrong with you, why don't you ignore me?" "Load! Sample, I'll let you pretend again! Continue to ignore it...

"Okay, okay, I know you know, the family can't find you to call me to ask me to come, seeing that he is in a hurry, I told him what you asked me before." Wang Lei raised his hand to make a surrender, and I knew that the family must have known everything from Wang Lei!

"What else?" I glanced up at him.

"Also, there is a family that is not worried about you, I promise to help him watch you and pay more attention to you." Wang Lei scratched his head and looked flattering, "Besides, I'm also for your good, don't let down my kindness." ”

"That's all?" I picked up the kitchen knife in my hand and gestured on the board.

"Jiejie, I can't help it, I'm about to graduate, I haven't done a good job in the topic of my graduation thesis, and finally this guy promised to help me get my graduation thesis." Wang Lei looked at the carp lying on the board, then looked at the kitchen knife in my hand, swallowed hard, and then said, "Okay, okay, he also promised to help me ask about the interview in their company, sister, I was wrong, I was really wrong." But I also think that Chengjia really cares about you, so I agreed to help this kid. ”

Concerning? It should be, but unfortunately it's not love!