【12.】

The first semester of freshman year was relatively good.

The days passed super fast, and after eleven, I took classes for two months and started the exams. After all, the exams in college are different from those in high school, and children like me and Tao Hao who don't usually skip classes have a better impression from teachers. Therefore, the usual high score is given, which invisibly saves us a lot of trouble. So here I would like to advise all of you who are not yet in college and those who are already in college.

It's very bad to skip classes in college, because if you fail the exam, even if it is a make-up exam, once you usually have low grades, the teacher will easily catch you.

It's not terrible to hang up, it's the money to rebuild it.

It's really hard work and money.

Of course, this is purely a little bit of advice from me, who has come before.

Let's talk about the story.

On the day of the holiday, Tao and I packed our things early in the morning and waited to go home. Jin Tongtong got up late, and her usual routine is very regular. So it seems a bit unusual. Since that meal, my relationship with her has been a little inexplicably sensitive, not awkward, but not as natural as before. However, such an unconscious change in psychology is difficult for outsiders to notice, and probably only the person concerned knows.

For example, if there are only two people left in the dormitory, Jin Tongtong and I, she usually plugs in headphones to watch movies, while I plug in headphones to listen to songs and do homework. Not even a word of conversation for an afternoon.

Of course, I know that she is jealous and inexplicable, but I don't know how to explain it, there is a saying in China that is self-defeating, and the common people also say that the more they describe it, the darker it becomes. I don't want to make excuses for myself, I think Jin Tongtong always feels uneasy in this relationship, and she desperately needs to find a reason to convince herself: Du Bin doesn't love her, it's just that there is an extra third party between their love.

To put it bluntly, I have invisibly become her imaginary enemy, in fact, I am cannon fodder!

It's just that sometimes I wonder, she is so beautiful, why is she so unconfident in herself? Does it have to be Du Bin? Du Bin is of course in excellent condition, but Tao Hao and I have discussed this issue in private, and the two of us agreed that if Jin Tongtong dumps Du Bin one day and finds a better man, this matter is absolutely reliable.

Tao Hao and I laboriously removed the sheets, while eavesdropping on the phone call between Jin Tongtong and Du Bin.

Forgive us for our bad tastes...... As I said a long time ago, the two of us are so filthy that we can't be called models of women in the new era. But then again, neither of us expected to be in the textbook, so it doesn't matter if it's shameless, no one cares anyway.

"I'll be home in a moment...... Stuff a lot. She lay on the bed, bit her lip and asked very carefully, "Will you send me?" ”

I think Du Bin should really come to see Jin Tongtong at this moment, she is so beautiful, such a beauty frowns and interprets the beauty of oriental women to the fullest, so that a few years later, I participated in an exhibition with Shen Duo, in Los Angeles, it was a Chinese painter, he was born in the United States since he was a child, and rarely had the opportunity to return to China, I don't know why he was able to interpret the elements of Chinese classics so perfectly in his paintings, I think that is probably the search for roots in Chinese bones. It doesn't matter how far you've traveled, no matter how long you've been away from home, or even if you've been exposed to this culture. As long as you are a Chinese, as long as the blood of the descendants of Yan and Huang flows in your body, then you will be addicted to Chinese culture, it is so profound, some scholars will not study it thoroughly in their lifetime, and it is so popular that people in the world can understand it.

I have a Greater China plot that everyone who knows me knows it. Forgive me for my little ramblings.

At that exhibition, the young painter painted a classical Chinese beauty, a bright red wedding dress, and a dazzling array of ornaments. The beauty sat on the bed on her knees, gently lifted her hijab with both hands, and frowned and looked outside.

At that moment, I remembered Jin Tongtong.

Du Bin on the other end of the phone should have said no. Jin Tongtong asked again, "Are you busy?" ”

After a while, she hung up the phone softly, rolled over and buried her face deep in the covers. Even if my relationship with her is not so good, I feel that her love is too humble at this moment, but Jin Tongtong is very stubborn, she will love someone to death, and she can't be admonished by idlers, not to mention that our relationship has not gotten better yet, if I really tell her that Du Bin is not suitable for you, you can change it. She must have thought I had bad intentions, so why should I bother to be thankless.

Liu Xin's holiday was more than half a month later than me, after all, it was high school. When she was on vacation, it was already the New Year. Tao Hao and I hang out every day, or I stay at home every day and have nothing to do.

That afternoon, I was bored watching an unnutritious TV series at home, my phone rang wildly, and I still had potato chips in my hand. I picked it up without looking at it.

"Hey, hello."

"Liu Jia."

My heart suddenly hung in my throat, and I was always surprised that I could remember that it was his voice for the first time, and I made excuses for myself at that time, attributing it to his voice that it was so good. But at that time, I didn't expect that Du Bin's voice was also very good, but why couldn't I recognize it?

And he was the first person who grew so big and called my name on the first phone call.

My voice suddenly muffled: "Well, it's me. ”

"Will you come down?"

"Come down?" I subconsciously got off the couch and asked strangely, "How do you know I'm sitting on the couch?" ”

“……”

He was silent for a long time, mixed with a helpless sigh.

This sigh made me understand what he meant in an instant. I didn't have slippers on my feet, so I ran to the balcony and looked downstairs.

He stood there, slim, and although I knew that this word was not suitable for a man, at that moment, he gave me the feeling of being so clean and pure. Shen Duo raised his head and looked at me, his mouth opened and closed, and his voice came from the phone: "I'm going back to Beijing, Liu Jia, let me see you." ”

I almost burst into tears.

He smiled, "I know you're not going to come down." ”

Shen Duo's voice was tired, and there was a sense of vicissitudes that did not belong to his age: "Then please don't move, it's okay for me to just look at you like this." ”

Later, I had a lot of controversy with Shen Duo about the memory of that day, and I thought he left after dark. But he stubbornly said that he had been standing for a long, long time.

I looked at him with disdain: "It's a shame that you're still a science student, how can such an uncertain time term be compared to my dark sky for a long time!" ”

He smiled and touched my hair: "It's dark, you can't see me, think I'm gone." Then you turn around and go into the house, turn on the lights, I don't know what TV you're watching, but you haven't moved for a long, long time, just sitting there. The curtains reflect your shadow, Liu Jia...... At that time, I really felt that maybe there was only you and me in this world. You live your life, do what you want to do, watch what you want to watch, eat what you want to eat, walk the way you want to go, love the people you want to love, and hate the things you want to hate. And I, as long as I can keep looking at it like this. ”

He's always been like this, maybe he knows how long he's been standing, maybe he's really been standing all night. But he would never tell me that his love was so deep, but sometimes, it was so soft. Like air, it surrounds me silently, but it never gives me a sense of oppression.

That's who I love, and I think it's worth it.