Whether it's hate, love, it's a very strong emotion.

For Ye Hui, who is indifferent, these emotions are difficult for her to bear.

She has always believed that her rebirth is to have a new beginning, to be able to live a new life.

So she is trying to change, she learns to understand Cao Yanhua, and learns to integrate into the Lu family, who she never integrated into in her previous life.

also learned not to get tired of Lu Minglei, who once made her want to take revenge.

Change is actually difficult, and every step she takes is not as easy as it seems to outsiders.

But her reward is far more than she gives, and along the way, she seems to have understood the meaning of her rebirth.

Life is a practice, what do we need to cultivate?

She shook her head gently, looking at Xu Chunhai, who was a little confused, she raised her hand and patted him on the shoulder gently.

"Chunhai, I'm different from you. You were born with a father and a mother, you are the only son of Xu Cripple and Xu Guihua, they must hate to hold you in the palm of their hands.

"Looking back and thinking about it yourself, have you really suffered in those ten years?"

Ye Hui's question made Xu Chunhai also fall into memory, and Xu Cripple was not particularly early.

He remembered very well that it was the winter when he was eight years old, and Xu Cripple went into the mountains with people to hunt for treasure, and on the way back, he passed by the river at the entrance of the village.

In previous years, the river had already been frozen at that time, and the result was so unfortunate that the people who traveled with him were all fine in the past, so he stepped into the ice cave.

The river at the entrance of the village is not shallow, and Xu Cripple's legs and feet are not good, and when everyone struggles to rescue him, others are no longer good.

When Xu Cripple was there, their family was also bitter.

I can't eat a few meals of white rice or a few bites of meat throughout the year.

But as long as there is something delicious, then it will all be left to him, even Xu Chunni can't get a bite.

This kind of thing working in the field has never fallen on his head, obviously Xu Chunni is thin and small, but she has been doing housework and weeding since she was six or seven years old.

You can't think about the past in detail, otherwise you will only let yourself recall scenes that you don't want to face.

"Before I left Xujiabao, my life was not as good as Chunni's.

"Chunni can eat at least one full meal a day, and all I can eat every day is the leftover rice soup they drink."

This is the second time Ye Hui has mentioned it, and the first time he has ...... It's still when it's in Qingwan.

Looking back now, it seems that the change in Ji Fan's attitude towards her began at that time.

Sure enough, is it better to sell pity in exchange for the sympathy of others?

She laughed self-deprecatingly, put away her memories and looked at Xu Chunhai again.

Xu Chunhai's intelligence had already allowed him to guess what Ye Hui wanted to say, and he rejected this answer in his heart, but he knew that only this answer was reasonable.

is the only thing he can accept, it will seem that his eldest sister is not so affectionate.

"I know you blame me, but Chunhai, Xu Guihua is really not as good to me as you think.

"It's just a thin mother-daughter relationship between me and her, and it can be dispersed when the wind blows.

"So I won't forcibly put shackles on myself for her, I also have what I want to pursue.

"I don't want to make myself too tired, just treat me as a selfish and cold-blooded person."

Ye Hui's tone was quiet, she didn't excuse herself or Ji Fan.

The real thoughts in her heart are just like what she said before, what she needs is to look forward, she has too many secrets, she doesn't want to find another person, and then slowly test the other party's acceptance.

Xu Chunhai pursed his lips tightly, he was still in Xu Guihua's stomach when Ye Hui left Xujiabao.

So he didn't know what happened to this eldest sister at the beginning, and he only had the impression that Xu Guihua would say that Ye Hui was a white-eyed wolf if she was fine.

I went to Rongcheng to enjoy the blessings, and I didn't know how to come back to see them and pull them up.

He has heard this kind of thing a lot, and he will inevitably have a little resentment towards Ye Hui in his heart, and he always feels that this sister is too selfish, even if they are half-husbands, she shouldn't be so indifferent.

He felt a little ashamed in his heart for no reason, and at this moment, he began to dare not face Ye Hui's gaze again.

"Eldest sister, I'...... I don't blame you, I'm just sad. ”

"Since you're sad, blame me and your brother-in-law, we are indeed all at fault, if it weren't for my return to my hometown, there would be no follow-up."

Ye Hui's face was calm, and it was calm that Xu Chunhai suddenly thought that if it weren't for those things, he and Xu Chunni might still be in Xujiabao now.

If he hadn't experienced being a guinea pig, maybe he wouldn't have those real dreams.

And if they hadn't left Xujiabao yet, maybe Xu Chunni would still be like him in his dream, working in the county at this time, busy with several divisions of labor a day, just to save his tuition.

A series of maybes made his cold sweat come down.

How could their current fate not be exchanged for Xu Guihua's life?

Such an indecisive and thoughtless person can do his best to commit suicide, in order to force Ye Hui not to ignore their sister and brother, right?

The more Xu Chunhai thought about it, the more cold sweat he felt.

Ye Hui hurriedly raised his hand and touched his forehead: "What's the matter, what are you?" Isn't it uncomfortable there? Is it that the root cause of the disease left behind has recurred? ”

Xu Chunhai looked at Ye Hui quietly with an anxious face and a concerned voice.

He didn't speak, and Ye Hui became more and more anxious.

"Bear with me, I'll call an ambulance."

Xu Chunhai is now protected and valued as a national treasure, as long as the phone is dialed, the ambulance can go downstairs in less than five minutes.

As soon as she got together, she was grabbed by Xu Chunhai.

"I'm fine, I'm just ...... I think I'm also selfish. ”

His smile was bitter and far-fetched, and they exchanged Xu Guihua's death for today's everything.

Why did they complain about Ji Fan and Lu Minglei's mistakes at the beginning?

This is a bad debt, I can't calculate it and I can't calculate it, I will only thin the sister-brother relationship every time I calculate it.

Ye Hui shook his head and smiled gently: "No, you and Chunni blame us for it, Xu Guihua and you raise you, if you completely leave her behind for the sake of your own future, then you are not my cutest brother and sister." ”

Everyone has their own experiences and positions, and it would be best if they could understand and tolerate each other.

It's just that the more she is like this, the more sad Xu Chunhai becomes.

"Eldest sister, let's not mention these words to the second sister, okay? She didn't know anything. ”

"Okay, I'm measured, come and wipe your face, don't go out and be seen by her later."

Ye Hui got up and walked to the basin stand to find a dry towel and asked Xu Chunhai to quickly wipe it.

"Ji Fan, if you have disgust in your heart, then behave however you want, I won't stop you.

"But don't get to Nozomi, understand?"