The reason why it is called a dead end is because there is no road in front and no road behind.

That year, it snowed all winter, and when all the white had receded, I saw not a fancy house, not a brocade coat, but utter desolation and poverty.

I put my hand on my slightly bulging belly, and tears poured down my eyes.

This is my last straw, I have been looking forward to it for nearly two years, and it actually came to my body when I was on a desperate path, and my blood was connected.

Do you know, when I felt him swimming in my belly, I Jiang Xinshan felt remorse for the first time in my life.

If I hadn't gone to that restaurant with Zhang Xinyu;

Suppose, I wasn't curious about Jiang Xinyao's relationship with that man;

If......

Is there a if-and-go in life?

No.

Therefore, I do not regret it, and I cannot regret it.

I suddenly understood why such a stupid person as my aunt was desperate to pull Gu Shi into the main room. Because she is like me, she is strong as a mother, and she wants to fight for a way out for the child in her belly.

I, but I have to fight for the child in my womb - a way to survive.

He should have been the most favored child of the Zheng family, a serious descendant. It was supposed to be finely clothed and fed, calling slaves and maids, and trampling everyone under their feet. And now, he's huddled in the square with me.

I'm not reconciled. No matter how difficult it is, no matter how much it costs.

……

Soon, the opportunity lay in front of me.

The two kings competed, and King Jing was defeated. Xiao Han and King Jing are relatives of each other, once King Han ascends the throne, what kind of result will Xiao Fu have, and what kind of result will she Jiang Xinyao have?

I think. Someone would care more about such an outcome than I do.

As I expected, Zhang Xinyu really stretched out her hand to me. I returned to the Zheng family as I wished.

If you ask me, why are you sure that the Zheng family will welcome me home?

I'll tell you gently. Although Zheng Heng is a scholar, he is most greedy for glory and wealth. What do you say about fame, intoxicated with poetry, words and paintings; Say what will be joyful and sorrowful. All live in Danqing; Say what you don't love about red and mundane things. Live a life of poetry and wine. It's all nonsense, empty talk,.

"Bear with the name. changed to a shallow low singing", which has never been something that the Zheng family can do. Therefore, when the granddaughter of the eldest prince of Huiwen, the ninth grandmother of the Shen family of the official eunuch family, sent a letter to the Zheng family, Zheng Heng, such a smart person, must know how to act. For him, it is most beneficial to Zheng Jiacai.

When I returned to Zheng's house, the first thing I did was to go to the temple to burn a pillar of peace incense for myself and the child in my belly.

I pray that the Buddha will bless our mother and son with peace and prosperity. He also prayed to the Buddha to bless King Han to ascend to the throne as soon as possible and reign over the world.

……

Obviously, the Buddha didn't hear my sincere prayers. Or maybe my prayer came too late. Because within a few months, King Han was defeated.

The human heart is the most realistic, so realistic that it is bloody, and I can't bear to look at it directly.

The defeat of King Han meant that King Jing became the emperor of the Southern Yan Kingdom. Then the Xiao family, who was separated from King Jing, became a real close minister of the Son of Heaven. I, Jiang Xinyao's sworn enemy, have become a water dog in the eyes of everyone. No one can wait to get rid of me.

The Zheng family bore the brunt of the attack.

My son's father, the man who had been willing to pluck the moon for me, gave me two choices. Either a letter of resignation, or Jiang Xinyao's forgiveness, in exchange for the safety of the Zheng family.

I looked at Zheng Liang's obscene face coldly, and for some reason, I actually thought of Shen Li.

That cold man, even if the person he loves wipes the sky, he will definitely stand in front of the woman without hesitation and be the enemy of the world.

I covered my red and swollen face, and my eyes shot at the man in front of me like a knife, and the hatred in my heart overflowed in my heart.

In this world, anyone can slap me, but the people of your Zheng family can't. Because your Zheng family does not have this qualification. You treat me as a pawn, pinch me in your hands, turn your hands into clouds, and turn your hands into rain. It's useful, please come back; It's useless, push it out.

Phew!

The power that can be born in despair is endless. This superficial and amorous man, I can pinch his seven inches when I reach out and reach out.

Sure enough, he fled.

The Zheng family?

If you want to manipulate me, you have to see if my chess piece is easy to manipulate.

As long as I coax Jiang Xinyao to forgive, you should provide for me like your ancestors, and then you ......

……

I knelt in front of Jiang Xinyao, a person I hated to the core.

Tell her that I was wrong, I was blinded by lard, and the ghost was confused, we are sisters in the flesh and blood, don't let outsiders see the jokes.

I say this from the bottom of my heart.

Who knows, that Jiang Xinyao looked at me condescendingly, and the chill in her eyes was like an ice knife and frost sword, attacking me inch by inch.

Her voice was like a ghost climbing up from hell. No, the ghost scares people, and she scares my heart. She's more terrible than a ghost, more terrifying, more terrifying,

She said, "She wants me to live well."

She said, "What do you have now?"

She said: "You have to settle the old ledger with me."

She said: In the days to come, how should you live the third sister?

She also said: You have to choose your own way of life, and no one else can give you it.

My heart was in terrible pain.

Sheng?

From the moment I, as the third lady of the Jiang family, fell to the ground, you have never given me a way out. Where did a concubine born to an aunt come from?

You forced me...... You forced me!

Jiang Xinyao, you slut!

You ignore your sister's siblings and want to watch me die, are you worthy of being a man?

Why...... You're going to push me like that......

Why......

My tears are like pearls with broken threads, and they can't be flowed endlessly.

From then on, there was only monstrous hatred left in my life.

……

That's right, I hate you. I hate each and every one of you.

I hate my father, this man actually broke off the father-daughter relationship with me after I was expelled from the Jiang family by the old lady, and let me suffer in the Zheng family.

I hate my birth mother, this stupid woman is not enough to achieve. There are more than failures, and there is no calculation in his mind except for pretending to be his father.

I hate my second brother. This cowardly, selfish, and lustful man will only shrink his neck when he encounters something. A turtle-like non-squeak.

I hate my grandmother even more. This used to hurt me. The old lady who doted on me actually expelled me from the Jiang family.

Expelled from the Chiang family? From now on, I, Jiang Xinshan, am a hard-working person who doesn't even have a mother's family!

Ha...... Ha...... Ha...... Ha

Why?

You're all people I hate!

……

Outside the yard. Who's babbling and singing? Such a beautiful voice can only be found in famous characters.

The drums were beating so loudly, I heard the men cheering and the women cheering?

I was dressed in single clothes and stood under the eaves. It was as if the heart had been torn apart.

Hatred suddenly rose in my heart. The Zheng family actually imprisoned me in exchange for their promotion and wealth, glory and wealth.

And I, on the other hand, have to be trapped in this small courtyard in all directions, not knowing day and night. I couldn't hear the singing of birds and flowers, and I couldn't see the smiling face of my son, until I died of old age. Just like my biological mother, her green hair turned into white hair in a blink of an eye, and her delicate face grew old in an instant!

Pity my child, who will be months old. He didn't even remember his mother's face, and he was taken away from me. From now on, he will be alone, facing all the guns and arrows.

I didn't cry.

I don't shed a single tear. My tears turned into hatred and resentment.

One day, my resentment, will become a raging fire that will burn on every one of you who have lost me, and then you will never be able to live again!

……

I remember that day very clearly, December 30 of the second year of Yongjia. It's a good day for families to put on lights and reunite with their families.

The carbon in the basin burned extremely strongly, and the room was as warm as the spring sun.

I was alone, sitting on the kang, facing a table of wine and food, the more I drank, the more sour my my heart became, and the more I ate, the colder my heart became.

My mother-in-law refused my request to spend the holiday with my children, saying that a woman like me was not worthy of being a mother.

I was pregnant in October, and it took two days and two nights of pain to give birth to the baby. She actually said that I was not worthy of being a mother.

For a whole year and a half, more than 400 days and nights, I couldn't sleep all night, worried about the children's food and clothing, and she actually said that I was not worthy of being a mother.

I, Jiang Xinshan, fell from the clouds into the mud, living a painful life without freedom and smoky fire. It's the New Year, you even have to refuse such a small request as mine, you ruthless and unrighteous people, I want you to die a good death.

So, I spent five taels of silver to buy off the mother-in-law who guarded the door, and quietly came to the place I was once familiar with, and lit a fire in the courtyard that was now empty.

The fire soared into the sky, reflecting half of the capital, burning people's hearts with thunderbolts, what a joy!

Burn, burn, burn, burn them, burn the things that are in the hearts of the beasts.

December 30 of the second year of Yongjia.

It's a good day for families to put on lights and reunite with their families.

That night, I set a fire and burned half of Zheng's mansion.

My son, the one I conceived in October and gave birth to after two days and two nights of pain, was reduced to ashes in this fire, along with Zheng Liang's two concubines.

From that night on, I went crazy!

……

This mansion is the Zheng family's other courtyard, where the mountains and rivers are beautiful and the trees are shady. I've lived here for seven years now.

I am still Zheng Liang's wife. They don't even have the courage to sweep me out of the house, and they still provide me with delicious food and drink.

What I do every day is comb my hair in the mirror. That's what I used to do when I was a kid.

The woman in the mirror is so beautiful, with beautiful long hair, like a waterfall. She's so carefree.

Do you know what happiness is?

I live happily with no sorrow and no hatred.

Know what is forever?

I tell you:

To be a crazy person is forever! (To be continued.) ())

PS: The new book has not been recommended yet, and the naked running is very broken, and I really want the care of book friends, I hope to collect more, recommend more, thank you!