Chapter 719: Tolerate me being selfish for almost a month

Zilong and I had a very unpleasant quarrel because of some things before, and even broke up to the point of breaking up.

It was also when I broke up with Zilong that I realized that I didn't love him at all.

It's because I thought gratitude could turn into love.

I thought I would forget you after I promised to be with Zilong.

But I underestimated the influence you had on me.

Because I found that although I was ruthlessly abandoned by you, although I hated your ruthlessness in my heart, I could not forget you, and I could not love you.

I don't know if it's right to agree to stay by his side even though I don't love Zilong.

But in the past two years, Zilong has always been with me when I was in pain, and now that he is so lonely and needs someone to accompany him, how can I bear to leave him alone.

Maybe from today onwards, take good care of him, accompany him, and use this way to make up for my debt to him, after all, I owe him too much.

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[September 24]

Fate really plays tricks on people.

You came back when you were away for a full 730 days.

But the scene when we met was so awkward.

I don't know what happened to Zilong that day, he suddenly lost control, and now that I think about it, he should have known the news that you were coming back, and he was afraid that I would return to you immediately before he lost control.

For Zilong, I used to be full of gratitude to him, but now I feel guilty the most.

Zilong accompanied me when I was at the lowest point in my life, and warmed my despair of life little by little with a cold appearance and that burning heart.

I used to think that gratitude and guilt would turn into love, and even ridiculously thought that sooner or later I would forget you and learn to love Zilong.

But it wasn't until today that I understood a truth.

Deep love cannot be forgotten and replaced.

Although it was you who dragged me to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and even used Zilong's safety in France to force me to register my marriage with you, but ask myself, in my heart I have always longed to marry you one day.

I just don't like it when you force me to do things I don't like to do.

What's more, it was less than 4 hours before Zilong left Huaguo, and I married you, I really feel like a bad woman, hurting Zilong who has saved me countless times for me and has been changing.

After we got married, although you were very good to me, I didn't dare to accept it, because every time I was touched by you, I felt sorry for Zilong.

Of course, I'm also afraid that your kindness to me will be temporary, and maybe one day you will disappear silently.

And I'm going back to the hard days that awaited you like hell.

So every time I'm with you, I don't dare to love you according to my feelings, and even I feel that every time I love you a little more, I owe Zilong a little more.

Every day I have to endure the urge to love you to reject you.

I'm really miserable!

Every time I see how good you are to me, I can't help but want to hug you and tell you that I actually love you all along.

But as soon as this idea was formed, I felt very sorry for Zilong.

I really don't want to hurt Zilong.

I know that it would be unfair to you to reject you with the guilt I felt about Zilong in my heart.

But thank you, Tianxiu, for tolerating me for being selfish for almost a month.

In a few hours, Zilong should return to China, I think his dream has come true, and when he returns to China, I will find a chance to clarify it with him.

I'm sorry everyone, but I'm not in a state to write today.

I wrote for hours, wrote and deleted, deleted and wrote, and only now have I written one.

After that, I have 3 days off.,I'll try to make up for the chapters I owe before.,Thank you little fairies for your support.。

(End of chapter)