In the afternoon, the spring wind is very cool, the poplar forest on the campus is constantly piercing the sound of branches, students come and go between classes, and spring flowers bloom all over the campus flower beds.

Building C of the school is a dormitory area, which is full of students from all over the world, whose homes are remote from the flower fields, and they usually go through the dormitory procedures directly as soon as they enter the school. These students eat and live in the school, unlike the students who live near the flower field, where they eat and live at home.

After school, Jiming stood in front of the desk in the last row and put all the books in his school bag, and then stood in place and quietly looked at Mu Mei.

Wang Qianqian hurriedly picked up the books and exercise books on the desk. Then he glanced at the horizon of his day, and walked out of the teacher with a grievance and complexity. After that, she began to run wildly out of the moon gate and school gate in front of the Yongdao outside the May 1st class gate. Jiming carried his schoolbag and pushed his bicycle to follow behind.

There is an intersection 40 meters straight out of the flower field. Zhiming's home is in the city to the south, and the shallow home is in the village to the west.

Generally, every time he walked to the crossroads, Wang Qianqian walked to the east, and he walked to the west. This scene is played out every day. This scene continues every day. It's just that on this day, she was in a very low mood and unhappy. Generally, every time he arrives at the intersection, Zhiming will stop his bicycle and look indifferently at Wang Qianqian, who has been walking forward without looking back. He had to wait for a shallow look back at himself before he would pedal his bike home.

Qianqian knows this tacit understanding, but she has been angry with Baidu every day in the past few days, and her temperament is extremely depressed. When she came to the crossroads, she clutched the book in her arms and ran quickly in the direction of home. Along the way, the students after school walked home one after another, Wang Qianqian didn't want to look back, she didn't want to look back at Zhiming, no one wanted to look at it. When she ran to the bridge, she noticed that the overcast sky suddenly blew a strong wind, as if it was going to rain. Wang Qianqian began to worry about Zhiming, whose home lived in the city, far away from the school. She involuntarily turned around, and Jiming was still at the crossroads looking at herself from a distance, and he looked very anxious. When he saw that Wang Qianqian had turned around, he immediately waited for the bicycle to leave the intersection quickly. At this time, the sky was full of dark clouds, the wind was fierce, and large drops of rain fell from the sky. Wang Qianqian looked at the departing Zhiming and quickened the pace of going home.

After returning home, Wang Qianqian, whose face was covered with rain, pushed open the dilapidated small wooden door of his house. The puppy who had just turned a month old suddenly jumped up to the shallow and startled. The shallow front foot with a heavy heart almost stepped on the rice. Shallow was so angry that she kicked the screaming rice into the small ditch next to her, and scolded angrily: "Who told you to jump in front of me, nasty ghost." She took the opportunity to vent her anger during the day on Fanfan. After Fan Fan rolled into the ditch, he looked at him with a shallow cry of aggrievedness, and then climbed out of the ditch and lay on the ground to lick the dirty water on his body.

At this time, the mother sitting in the house heard the barking of the dog outside and blamed Qianqian: "Why do you kick the dog as soon as you come back, it has just been a full moon, how can you be as ruthless as your father." ”

"It's blocking my way." Wang Qianqian pleaded loudly.

When her mother heard this, she blamed her disgruntled and went back to the house to cook.

At this time, her younger sister Youlin was lying on the stone slab in the yard doing her homework, and she looked up at her sister as if she had seen the air, and there was no expression on her face at all. He glared at his sister lightly, and then piled up the stack of books in his arms on the stone table and began to write his homework without raising his head.

After finishing their homework, their mother urged them to eat in the house. So she and her sister sorted out their books and went back to the house to eat with her brother, who was by her mother's side. Her younger brother Kenji is a very well-behaved child who learns to be obedient. When he returned home, he stayed quietly with his mother as soon as he finished his homework. Kenji started school late, and he didn't go to kindergarten until he was 6 years old, and he was tall and didn't go to a small class. He was 7 years old and went up to the next level, Kenji was a smart and sensible child, he had yellow hair and white skin. He has always been at the top of his class, and he likes his little brother very much, but in her memory, she often ignores and forgets the existence of this cute little brother. Maybe he was too quiet, quiet in this home like a bluegrass and silent.

After eating in the evening, she sat alone in the room and recalled all the things that had happened in the past few days that made her sad, and her brain kept echoing the words that Ye Zi asked herself during the day: You betrayed Dazuo! Betrayed Dasa!

The more she thought about it, the more aggrieved she became, and the more she thought about it, the more she felt that she was making something out of nothing. Dazuo, who is Dazuo? I don't know at all! Do you really not know? It seems that there is a little bit of understanding. She searched her brain for memories of Osa and eventually found only a few blurry shots.

It was the spring of '98, and 15-year-old Wang Qianqian had just transferred from Shimoda No. 1 Middle School to his current school. At that time, everything in her eyes of the new school was unfamiliar, although the teachers and classmates gave her a warm welcome and encouragement. But after that, because his academic performance has not been able to keep up, he has been depressed all semester and immersed in a lonely world all day long. In the past, when she was still in elementary school, her academic performance was only 13th when she was not the best, but after arriving at this school, her grades were more than tens. That year, what she thought about the most at noon was to hope that Teacher Zang would take pity on her as a poor student and let her go home for dinner as soon as possible. After school in the afternoon, what she thought about the most was to hope that she could endorse and go home early, she didn't want to stay in the classroom with those poor students for a minute, dying day after day, although she was also a bad student, she hated those poor students who stayed with her very much. It is always a few of them who can't pass the endorsement, and it's always a few of them who can't go home from school every day.

She hates that every day after school, she and a few poor students are stuck in the classroom by two teachers in turn, and if the endorsement is not passed, a few of them have to stay in the classroom and spend time with the two teachers. At that time, every day, shallow life was worse than death. At that time, every night, when I was doing my homework, I lay down in front of the bed and secretly wrote a sentence: Mom, I don't want to live anymore. I want to die, I want to die. Don't look for me, shallow! I remember one day when I got out of school very late, I didn't see my mother when I got home, and my sister told her that my mother went out to look for her. Maybe her mother saw these notes from hers, or maybe her mother went to the teacher, and since then, Teacher Zang has kept them in school after school, but at most she only left them for a while and let them go. Teacher Zang gave up, and Qianqian followed a few poor students to give up, anyway, he couldn't remember how to memorize, so he simply gave up completely.

Later, the pressure was relatively small, and the shallow gradually forgot the idea of wanting to die. This is how she lived in her first year when she transferred to this school. But as for the big Zuo in the mouth of the leaf, she seems to have a little impression. It was one morning in the summer of that year, it was the end of class, and Asa was writing the math homework assigned by the teacher alone, and although class was out of class, the classroom was full of people. Just as she was concentrating on her homework, a fat yellow hand reached out to her chest, pinched it hard, and suddenly ran away. Shallow screamed, looked up and looked up angrily, it was Dazuo, an ugly-looking round-faced boy. He glanced back at the shallow and disappeared from the shallow sight as if he had completed a gamble behind him. During that time, there were often boys who made shallow bets to see who could make her cry or succeed in making her angry.

Shallow felt that this time there must be some bet between their boys. Asa lowered her head again, tears began to roll in her eyes, and in this moment, she remembered this ugly boy forever - Dazuo. A groping pig hand, a boy who has disgusted her for the rest of her life.

Later, he repeated a grade in the second year of junior high school, and that Dazuo was promoted to the third year of junior high school, and he has not seen him since.

This is the only thing that is broken between Wang Qianqian and Dazuo. What I didn't expect was that when I was in the fifth grade, Ye Zi suddenly said such a paragraph without a beginning or an end. Could it be that a boy touches himself even if two people are getting better? She didn't understand, and she didn't want to understand either. She only knew that she didn't have much impression of the big sa in Ye Zi's mouth. If Hazuko thinks that she forgot about Osa, and Hakudo also thinks that she has turned her back on Osa, then she has died unjustly. She felt that Ye Zi and Baidu, as well as the big Zuo in their mouths, were all making a fool of themselves. Children in the 80s started school late, and when they entered the fifth grade of elementary school, they were basically 14 or 5 years old, and they also reached the age of early love.

Although she felt that she was not afraid of shadows, she didn't know that the whole class was secretly talking about her 'empathy', and some people even ran to her and said to him; "Do you remember Dazuo, that chubby boy, after she entered junior high school, because she had a specialty in sports, she was selected by the state to recruit sports, and he went to participate in sports training. During this period, they were trained while studying. ”

"Oh." I was not interested in listening to it at all. But as her classmates continued to talk and look at her strangely, she felt more and more that Dazuo, who she had no impression of at all, had something to expect from her from his buddies. All the boys from his village began to become cold to her. She didn't understand what was going on with the boys and girls in the class, or if there was love between them, or if there was love that was taken away. Jiming is the crush of the girls in the class, and she is also the crush of the boys in the class, and the people who are hurt have envy, jealousy and hatred. But the truth is only known to Wang Qianqian herself, she didn't have a young love with anyone, she didn't say a word to Dazuo, if he had a crush on her, then what did he have to do with her? As for Zhiming, she didn't talk to him either, nothing happened, but all the rumors spread so real throughout the class. The person who created the rumors knew who it was, it was the leaf who had been at the same table with her. A person who likes to observe words and colors and is good at pondering, and shallow is a poor worm who is pulled into right and wrong by her.