Wen Jing opened the envelope, and the signature on the letter was a person who was thinking about you, but the words in the letter revealed that love and entanglement were intertwined.

"Xiao Jing, I'm sorry, I apologize to you for my previous behavior, I deeply feel that I said a lot of inappropriate things before I said goodbye last time. I often feel that love is far away from me.

I didn't know how to speak, I kept asking myself, what kind of person do I want to be? Recognize yourself first and then plan for the future. If you think about it, you are indeed a humble person, but what do you think in your heart? During this time, the mood is gloomy, the sky is gray, the road is gray, the people are gray, and often I am at a loss and don't know what to do? Stunned in place. I'm also grateful for this time for letting me be sure of something, I may really not love, love this kind of behavior is really profound. I didn't find enough to convince myself, I used to think that I could go to school quietly and talk to a partner at university, and it was enough to get a job after graduation, but it wasn't until I decided what I wanted and what path I wanted to take.

It's been a long time since I've spoken to you, and the last time was after a farewell. I'm usually very busy, maybe I'm just a little free, all I'm looking for is the stability of life, and all I see in front of me is the desire for a future life. I have thought about escaping, but I have a fear of giving up my life, I have a strong yearning for the life I yearn for, when I am overwhelmed, and when I am trampled by reality again and again. I woke up several times in the middle of the night, opened the window, looked at the empty street downstairs and the lights that were still on, and I kept telling myself "I can't give up yet, there is more waiting for me ahead, and now is not the end yet", and the cold wind made me more calm. I thought about giving up, after rinsing my face with ice-cold water, the whole person would lose his fighting spirit in an instant, as if he was being pumped out of anger, and he was sluggish, but in the end he could only save himself.

In the past, I was always full of illusions about the future, and fantasy was always good. I look forward to life now, but I know that I won't be lost anymore, I used to be easy to handle relationships, but now I am tired from complex relationships, and I may not really know how to deal with the right things in love and friendship. There aren't many things that can excite me, and even if that's the case, I know that life is good, and life never takes the initiative to be kind, but when I meet you, all my rationality has been out of balance.

You should know that when reason and emotion have the same place, especially in a person who easily gets caught up in thinking, it is more contradictory and more painful. I don't have the ability to guide people, and I'm stuck in the quagmire myself, and I can't show the way to others. In the eyes of ordinary people, this is something that does not need to be entangled, if you see something you want so much when you are young, and you are forced to buy it, you can't ask your parents. It's something that you keep in mind, and maybe as time goes on, your feelings about it get weaker and weaker, with occasional exceptions. What you can't get is always the best, put it in the window and look through the glass, it seems to me that this is the case for me, and there are always exceptions for others. There are those who are brooms in the eyes of outsiders, but they regard them as treasures, and there are those who are treasures themselves, so they are more cautious about themselves. It doesn't seem to me to make any difference, whether you didn't get it when you were a child or you already got it.

The desire for knowledge is something that has been there since childhood. Most people like to hunt for curiosity, it's just a matter of nature. Apes don't like to eat bamboo. If something happens, there is no way to do it. I want to maintain a sense of mystery, but I also want to be close, beautiful things will be more or less different from your ideal appearance, but sooner or later it will be discovered, people are always imperfect, there is a straight face and there is a back of the head, if there are faces on all sides, what should it be? It doesn't look good now. There are always dark places in the sun, and even if you are wrapped in a mirror, the soles of your feet will be dead ends, so there is no need to go to great lengths to prove something unnecessary. All I have to do now is to look from afar and get closer, and I want to smell your fragrance.

Love is both obtainable and unacceptable, and there will always be some shortcomings! If everything is complete, there will be less to sigh about, although love is not for sighing. But we always like to learn from experience, which helps to grow and evolve.

I'm a little scared after all, and I've been like this for a while. The inability to resonate with my thoughts is my anesthetic, and I don't get pleasure or bliss during the anesthesia. I don't dare to try, if I can resonate, I will be more and more reluctant. Since you have decided to go, tell yourself at the beginning that you can extinguish the flame that has just been kindled, that it is tenacious and reluctant, and that it cannot be extinguished today until there is no firewood for it to burn.

I don't have to be afraid, because there are no jackals, tigers and leopards in front of me, and I won't be troubled and sad about the bleakness ahead, but I should be happy that I am in love with such a thing. Because in a sense, I am a person who has never been in love, and my love is not a childish act to pass the leisure time when the mind is not open, what is the real like. I used to feel that I was ignorant, that I had been humbled to the dust, and in fact there was nothing to be sad about, because I had never experienced anything before. Grief is also unnecessary, and there is no need to be sad about mood fluctuations in immaturity. In this way, I have never been in a relationship with you, and I happen to be single when you are the same age. ”

Wen Jing's heart obviously fell on the last few words, she didn't expect that Ye Jiajin would like herself, she looked at these few words, her heart had already flown from the classroom to the building next door, she wanted to see Ye Jiajin immediately, but the shyness that the girl should have told her that she couldn't do this, she seemed to see Ye Jiajin standing by the window in the early morning, the calm and firm love in the letter made her feel warm, she didn't expect this letter to make her intoxicated, so that she didn't listen to a few words in the whole class.

When she got out of class, she received a message from Ye Jiajin, "Do you want to stay outside for a while after eating in the afternoon?" Wen Jing hurriedly replied to Ye Jiajin's message, she was afraid that Ye Jiajin would wait a second longer, "Okay, where will I look for you in a while?" After the message was sent, she quickly took out her mobile phone and looked carefully at her blushing face, for fear that her hair would be messy and her face would be dirty. Before she could ask at the same table, Wen Jing blushed like a child, "I won't go back to the classroom with you after eating, you can come back first, I'm really embarrassed." ”

"Are you dating?" Wen Jing's tablemate asked with a smile after hearing this, "No, don't talk nonsense," Wen Jing was embarrassed and was found thinking carefully, and she denied it again and again. Seeing Wen Jing's shy appearance for the first time, she didn't ask more, just teased, "The big girl is not staying," and after finishing speaking, she reached out and touched Wen Jing's head, "You go away, my hair is messed up," Wen Jing's tablemate "poof" laughed out and stopped teasing her.

"I'll wait for you in the playground after dinner." Ye Jiajin also said his plan after seeing Wen Jing's reply.

At the entrance of the cafeteria is a small playground, where the flag-raising ceremony was also held on Monday, and at the end of the playground is the teaching building where the Ye family is located, with the building in Wenjing's class on one side and the girls' dormitory at the back on the other side.

"Shui Miao, haven't you played basketball for a long time?" The Ye family asked Shui Miao, who was still stunned beside him.

"yes, it's been a long time, why are you suddenly asking this?" Although Shui Miao was flustered at this time, she believed that there must be a way for Yejiajin.

"You can play basketball for a while, perform well, and let Wen Jing see your performance."

"Okay, then let's get ready to open your eyes," as soon as he heard about playing, Shui Miao was not afraid, he never questioned his basketball skills.

After school, Ye Jiajin and Shui Miao did not eat but went to the playground to play ball first, Ye Jiajin watched Shui Miao play ball next to him, and after half an hour, there were more and more people on the playground. Wen Jing was about to call to ask where the Ye family was near, but the Ye family saw her first, just like she beckoned, and when Wen Jing was about to arrive, Ye Jiajin made a gesture to Shui Miao.

"I remember you don't play basketball, do you?" Wen Jing handed over a bottle of water to the Ye family, and the Ye family did not dismantle it, but looked at Shui Miao on the field.

Wen Jing only understood when she saw Shui Miao on the field, "So you were waiting for him, you reconciled?" ”

"Yes, we reconciled, don't be angry with him, everything will be fine," Ye Jiajin lowered his voice and said with emotion.

At this time, Shui Miao's feeling also came, shuttling around the court, connecting a few people, shooting and scoring, and after he saw Wen Jing coming over, it was a three-pointer, which attracted cheers from the audience.

"I didn't expect him to play basketball so well," Wen Jing also patiently watched Shui Miao play basketball, she was not interested in sports, on the contrary, she loved life very much, but the third year of high school didn't give her much time to look at these things again, Ye Jiajin looked at the adoring look in Wen Jing's eyes and couldn't help but be proud, "It seems that my plan has succeeded." ”

At this time, Wen Jing on the field, Shui Miao on the field showed off even more hard after seeing Wen Jing, but unexpectedly stepped on the air and fell to the ground.

"Shui Miao, what's wrong with you?" Ye Jiajin saw that Shui Miao was injured, and immediately ran to the field, helped him down, Wen Jing looked at Shui Miao's hands that were already a little red and swollen, and trotted all the way to the school commissary to buy some ice cubes and wrapped them in towels.

After Shui Miao took Wen Jing's ice cube, "Wen Jing, aren't you angry?" The painful look was only happy after seeing Wen Jing, "You, you still pay attention to safety, the college entrance examination is about to begin." ”

"Wen Jing, did you see that letter?" When Shui Miao was about to ask, a girl was holding a bottle of Yunnan Baiyao spray that she had just bought from the infirmary, "Senior Shui Miao, recover early," Shui Miao wanted to refuse, but Ye Jiajin accepted it for him, "She is also kind, you can accept it." ”

"Thanks, are you a sophomore in high school?"

"yes, I'm your little fan." The two of them chatted with each other, Wen Jing looked at Shui Miao's expression that she was no longer in pain, so she pulled Ye Jia's close and ran under the tree and chatted, "Is what the letter said true?" Wen Jing no longer looked at Ye Jia's approach, but scratched the green leaves like freshly torn thumbs with her two fingernails.

"Of course?" Ye Jiajin guessed that it must have been written by Shui Miao, and laughed with laughter.

"Then, then I'll go first, you take care of him," Wen Jing finished speaking and ran away.