He was afraid that others would say that he was "short and fat and gathered around Wen Jing every day," he couldn't help but care about words, those words he heard others say when he was wearing jeans when he first entered junior high school, "You elephant legs," those voices have been echoing in his mind, like a tide beating his fragile nerves again and again, he gradually lost himself in these voices, even if he is full of illusions about tomorrow, even if he is pierced by the voice of reality, he always hopes for tomorrow.

The first physical education class at the beginning of school is a physical test, the first event is a 1,000-meter run, this is the first time that Ye Jiajin has officially run so far, even if Wen Jing has been shouting and cheering him on the table tennis table by the playground, Ye Jiajin has not finished a lap and he slowly fell from the middle of the boys to the end, at this time how much he wants to give up, he can't run anymore, even if Wen Jing is watching him from the side, he can only walk a few steps and run slowly, and walk a few steps, just like five minutes to run a thousand meters, Wen Jing waited for him by the runway as soon as Ye Jiajin finished running, "Little fat man, you run really slowly," Wang Guang looked at Ye Jiajin who was panting as he walked past him and sneered, Ye Jiajin originally thought that this time he could stay away from Wang Guang, but he didn't expect them to get a new title in another class, Ye Jiajin ignored him, in fact, he was now panting and spitting, and coughing also accompanied. In the second class, the boys were pull-ups, and the girls were sit-ups, and when it was Ye Jiajin's turn, Wang Guang snickered on the side, "Fat pig up the tree," Ye Jiajin tried his best and couldn't pull one up on the horizontal bar. Instead, he fell on it, and the surrounding classmates laughed, "Fat pig on the tree," Ye Jia's face was blushing, he only begged them not to shout, he let go of his hand and fell, the only thing he was glad about was that Wen Jing didn't see him, his embarrassment was better in running fifty meters, and he won the titles of fat pig and little fat man in a physical test.

"Maybe it's time to come here," Ye Jiajin secretly thought in his heart, in fact, it is easy to destroy a person with low self-esteem, Ye Jiajin spent a longer time in elementary school alone, Wen Jing was just an angel who came out of his fifth grade, how could he dare to expect Wen Jing to accompany him all the time? He's just a fake girl in elementary school, how can she save his soul? Wen Jing didn't bother Ye Jiajin, she wanted Ye Jiajin to see a different version of herself, she hoped that Ye Jiajin could like this kind of self, just like the fifth grade.

The autumn sports meeting came not long after the start of school, and there was a stage performance part, which was a piano piece that Wen Jing had prepared for a long time, even if she was practicing the piano when she was young, this time she just wanted to perform on the stage to Ye Jiajin, "Did you hear Ye Jiajin?" This is what I want to show you, played specifically for you, and she doesn't know what to do to get them back to what they used to be. Ye Jiajin looked at Wen Jing from the stage, his gaze was no longer as pure as the sixth grade, the more dazzling Wen Jing was on the stage, the more scared he became, he didn't dare to look at Wen Jing, the classmates sitting around him were talking about Wen Jing on the stage, those envious eyes and praise, how could it have anything to do with him, a little fat man? He was even afraid that others would know about his relationship with Wen Jing. Wen Jing didn't wait for Ye Jia's approach after the performance, she began to be disappointed, her piano sound passed through the stage, through the teaching building, through the crowd, and spoke to every audience, but did not wait for his call.

"Ye Jiajin, you said that you were still leaning towards her at that time, do you know the gap between you now?" Wang Guang looked at the Ye family's almost chubby body, just like when he was in elementary school. When the Ye family heard Wang Guang's words, his head was lowered lower, and he seemed to hear the people around him talking about his inadequacy. Even if Wang Guang provoked him again and again, he only pleaded, begging him to let him go.

"Ye Jiajin you come here," during the sports meeting, Ye Jiajin didn't want to go, and couldn't stand being dragged by Wang Guang, Wang Guang took Ye Jiajin to the back of the restaurant, he and a few friends took out a cigarette from their trouser pockets, lit it and began to smoke, Wang Guang spit a puff of white smoke on Ye Jiajin's face, when a few of them were enjoying it, the principal walked to the back of the restaurant, the cigarettes in their hands were not allowed to throw away, they were caught, they were taken to the head teacher by the principal, "You guys are bold, Smoking at the sports meeting was also caught by the principal, "The head teacher took the whole box of cigarettes from Wang Guang's, Ye Jiajin wanted to explain what happened just now, when he saw the teacher's serious gaze, he lowered his head as described in the book, he thought that he could be spared by Wang Guang in this way, the three of them were not punished, but they were named and criticized at the sports meeting, Wen Jing threw down a sentence after hearing Ye Jiajin's name, "Ye Jiajin, you are willing to fall," Ye Jiajin felt dizzy, he seemed to really have nothing to do with Wen Jing anymore, He stumbled home, even if it was criticism, it was not as sad as Wen Jing's words, he wanted to explain to Wen Jing, but he didn't even have the courage to speak, Wen Jing looked at Ye Jiajin, who had not spoken from beginning to end, and she no longer had expectations.

"Ye Jiajin, you have to fight to join the group," his mother said to him when he arrived home, he saw the expectation in his mother's gaze, Ye Jiajin wrote an application for joining the group at school, even if he didn't know what it meant to join the group, when announcing the members of the group, he wanted to stand up several times, but his ass left the stool but put it down, his clasped hands began to pray, and in the end he didn't hear his name.

A heavier blow than this came, the impermanence of the world, although he avoided Wen Jing, he didn't think that he would face such a situation, when he went home, Wen Jing stopped him, "The Ye family is close to me and I'm leaving, goodbye," At this moment, his heart began to be afraid, he grabbed Wen Jing's hand, he forcibly calmed himself, grabbed Wen Jing's hand but was trembling slightly, although Wen Jing saw the fear in his heart, he could only comfort him, "I will come back to see you in the future, Ye Jiajin You have to take care of yourself, don't care about other people's eyes." ”

Ye Jiajin stared at Wen Jing, his involuntarily trembling hand was unwilling to let go but he didn't know what to say, and finally Wen Jing pulled his hand out, and he felt that his hand was empty. The two of them went home together This is a rare picture after they entered junior high school, on the way home, Ye Jiajin did not speak, he had a lot of things to say in his heart, "Goodbye, Wen Jing," "You still owe me a painting," in the end, Ye Jiajin still chose to be silent, Wen Jing did not speak again, he walked very slowly, she also walked very slowly, the mountains in the distance were covered by dark clouds, he lowered his head, she occasionally looked at the moon in the sky and looked at him.

True despair is to give you hope and see the light of dawn. It's just that the light of dawn is the illusion of dusk. Cruelly throwing you into endless darkness, remorse and pain shattering the last remnants of faith in the torment of loneliness.

The next day, Ye Jiajin didn't see Wen Jing in the classroom, and he began to regret it, he knew that Wen Jing was gone, and he suddenly left from his life just like he suddenly appeared in front of him two years ago, how he longed to hear a word of "Ye Jiajin" again.

During math class, the hair of the female classmate at the front desk of Ye Jiajin fell on his desk, and when he was pulling his hair forward, the female classmate instantly cried, and Ye Jiajin was invited to the office by the head teacher again, "Ye Jiajin, why are you so bad?" "Ye Jiajin's homeroom teacher is a female teacher, who is stricter than Ye Jiajin's Chinese teacher in primary school. Ye Jiajin hasn't explained yet, she can't help but pick up the bamboo stick and hit Ye Jiajin, Ye Jiajin began to dodge, she directly picked up the book on the desk and smashed Ye Jiajin, Ye Jiajin circled around the desk, the head teacher turned it over directly from the desk, Ye Jiajin couldn't escape but was caught and beaten.

"You suspend classes first, when to memorize the code of conduct for middle school students and when to go to class again," the head teacher pointed to the code of conduct on the wall of the office, how could Ye Jiajin, who was beaten in the office, concentrate on watching, he only memorized it in the morning when school was about to end, and the head teacher went to the classroom with him at noon, "Ye Jiajin will sit here in the future position after you," the head teacher pointed to the empty place next to the podium, his face was facing the classroom door, "Don't talk to Ye Jiajin in the future," this sentence stung Ye Jiajin even more deeply, he never thought that there would be such an experience, he felt that junior high school would make a change in his life, he felt that it was already unfortunate to go to Wang Guang, but he never thought that it would be such a change.

"Ye Jiajin, congratulations, harvest love seat," Wang Guang and a few people blocked Ye Jiajin in the classroom when school was out, "I really want to eat ice cream, do you want to give me a dollar?" ”

"I just gave you two yuan last week," Ye Jiajin was a little angry, and as soon as he finished speaking, he was held down by several people around him, "Look, you gave it last week and it was fine, now what?" Ye Jiajin remembered that he was beaten for the first time, so he took out the money from his trouser pocket and gave it to Wang Guang.

"You wouldn't have given it and it would have been done, wouldn't you, little fat man?" This is also the reason why Ye Jiajin does not go home with Wen Jing except for low self-esteem, he is afraid that this scene will be seen by Wen Jing. He didn't dare to tell his mother, let alone the head teacher, since he was beaten for the first time, although he wanted to resist, he ushered in a more ruthless revenge.

Ever since Wen Jing left, he had always felt that he had lost something, and this feeling had arisen since he began to regret it. He struggled in the abyss of pain, and when he reunited with Wen Jing again, those images made him strong again. The preference of the Chinese teacher and the physics teacher is the light of the rest of his junior high school days, "Ye Jiajin, you are not bad at physics, and you will be the representative of the physics class in the future," the Chinese teacher read his compositions in the classroom again and again, which supported him to finish junior high school.

Memories are like a torrent that opens the floodgates, and the surging waves swallow the Ye family into the turbulent water, and finally disappear on the surface of the water until it sinks to the bottom.

Every day is an ordeal, and the Ye family is close to competing with time. He and Wen Jing are still in touch, and when they meet again, Wen Jing gave him his own QQ, and the Ye family recently went to the Internet café to apply for a QQ, which replaced the small note and became a bridge between them, and he knew that Wen Jing would be online every Friday.

Time walked weakly, and Ye Jiajin was still as persistent as before. He finally looked forward to the dawn. On June 24, the Ye family was looking forward to tomorrow, he finally saw hope, and he couldn't help but feel a trace of joy in his heart, junior high school was over like this, and he could finally leave the love seat that had accompanied him for three years.