"Because I don't have a sense of reality." Qiuqiu whispered: "All this came too fast and too good, good is not real." You have an extraordinary identity, a high position, and a love ...... that once promised life and death"

Not long ago, she was just a very ordinary girl, and she thought she was one of the countless ordinary people in this world. Suddenly, her world was completely turned upside down, and even her worldview was refreshed.

It's all too much, it's so good. Everything he gave, she trembled, for fear of losing it and breaking it.

This love, and the changes that come with it, are like a crystal coat, beautiful and intoxicating, but also extraordinarily fragile and unreal. She held this love, but deep down she always felt that it was not her own, but she had stolen and borrowed it temporarily, and maybe one day she would have to return it all with interest.

I just don't feel steady.

This love is not only heavy, but suddenly, and most importantly, she can't remember the past.

She didn't know how they met, how they fell in love, how they got along, and how the last thing happened.

Those glory and aura don't belong to her now.

Qiuqiu vaguely felt in her heart that either Shi'er had made the wrong person, although it was extremely unlikely. Either he lived too well in his previous life, and all the luck, intelligence, and courage were all overdrawn, so that in this life, he was born ordinary, without any extraordinary, standing beside Shi'er, it was a strange combination of a toad and a white swan.

She desperately needed something to prove the reality of it all.

"I think that if I can have a child that belongs to us, I will be able to grasp this truth, and I will be able to stand beside you with less guilt and hold you firmly...... Tie up. ”

Yes, tie up.

She was so uncertain in her heart, but she was unexpectedly greedy.

She wanted to be with him, she liked his breath, his eyes, his arms - everything she wanted from him, for a long time, and never let go.

But what kind of capital does she have? The two people are so disparity, they are not a good match. If one day Shi'er really turns away, what can she use to keep him? Is it an unstable and unstable relationship? Or is it her three-legged cat-level ability?

Children are the emotional connection between two people, a witness, and even a bargaining chip.

Qiuqiu can now calmly express her worries: "How despicable and narrow-minded my thinking was at that time...... In fact, I really wanted a child at that time, not because I loved him, but because I needed him. ”

Shi'er hugged her wordlessly.

"Don't say that, you're not like that. Everyone has selfish intentions, and I am no exception. ”

What selfish motives can he have? Qiuqiu shook her head.

"You don't have to discredit yourself to comfort me."

"It's not a smear, it's true." Shi'er's fingers rubbed lightly against her cheek.

Although he didn't know much about the process of a woman's pregnancy, he had seen it in books and heard people say that most pregnant women would become plump.

But Qiuqiu's appearance has not changed at all, but seems to be more clear.

"I also used to resent why such a fate had befallen me. Even when we first met, I used to be jealous of you, you are so healthy and cheerful. I have maliciously thought that if someone else would go through the pain of my illness once, they would know how pale and superficial their self-righteous comfort was. ”

It was the first time Qiuqiu had heard Shi'er expose his shortcomings.

However, she felt that this was normal, that the patient had to endure the pain that others did not understand, that it was human to be short-tempered and have strange thoughts, that there was nowhere to relieve the pain and pressure in her heart, and that she had to endure the useless comfort of others over and over again.

Of course, the person who came to comfort him must have had some good intentions, but at that time, people may need more quiet, and he does not need others to mention his pain over and over again, forcing him to look back on the trauma and express gratitude and gratitude to the person who comforted him.

It was like a long ordeal.

It's nothing, these psychology and thoughts are not the same thing as her thoughts.

"I didn't think it through myself, but it was only after I went into retreat and found out that I had children that I slowly discovered my original motivation." Qiuqiu continued: "I used to think that this child was not real, but caused by my inner demons. We all know how terrible the demons are. I wondered if I would end up going insane and die if I allowed this demon to develop. ”

At first she felt panicked and conflicted.

She was afraid of death.

But she couldn't bear this child.

Even if it was a hallucination caused by a demon, she still couldn't be ruthless.

"You see, if, as you say, you only want to have a child to achieve your goal, how can you even risk your own life for him?"

"I don't know...... Qiuqiu was a little confused: "I really don't know." ”

When did her mind change? She couldn't even say it herself.

The child gradually occupied all her mind, and she valued him more and more day by day, and cared for him more. She simply couldn't accept the idea of hurting him, or even eliminating his existence altogether.

Actually, the change probably started before the retreat.

She regained her memories at Peak Nine.

She no longer felt that their love was a castle without foundation and origin. She knew he loved her, she knew how they met—she remembered everything.

Not even death could separate them, and her uneasiness and panic faded away as her memories revived.

Then according to what she said, she should not be so obsessed with the matter of children.

Because children are no longer her only possible protection.

I don't know if it's because the question she thinks about is too gloomy and heavy, and her stomach moves.

Shi'er's hand lightly pressed against her stomach, and he immediately noticed the movement.

"He's moving!"

"Yes." Qiuqiu nodded.

For her, fetal movements are commonplace, and she doesn't think it's uncommon for a long time. But looking at Shi'er's expression, his eyes were shining, Qiuqiu had never seen him so happy.

Shi'er pressed his face on as well, and then he felt another, clearer, harder vibration.

"It's moving again!"

Belch......

Qiuqiu looked at him with some embarrassment.

She's not like Shi'er, and she feels new and layman about this.

If she guessed correctly, the kid just kicked Shi'er hard.

- This kind of person who is sent to the door and sticks his face to make people kick, and is kicked happily like a treasure, it is probably difficult to find a second one in the world.

If you tell someone else, they won't believe it.

The wise and noble and glamorous peak master would be so stupid, who would believe it.

But...... Qiuqiu felt that this kind of pick-up was very special and real.

He was finally no longer bound by the past and habits as before, and began to gradually show emotional reactions and ups and downs.

The child in the belly kicked and punched, as if he was trying to turn over.

Qiuqiu could feel his movements, and even feel the excitement he was different from before.

What's wrong with this kid?

Although I used to be very active and active, I have never been as abnormal as I am today.

Could it be that he also sensed that his father was right in front of him?

It's possible.

Shi'er's spiritual power is surging, and for a child, such a powerful existence must be able to sense it.

Not to mention that he is still the father of the child, this child must naturally have a sense of closeness and attachment to him.

However, is this child's way of expressing joy by kicking with his hands and feet?

Ahem, this expression is really, quite unique.

"If only I could take a look at him."

Qiuqiu felt a little regretful.

If in modern times, there are means to scan the shape of the child in the womb. Not here.

Shi'er was reminded by her words, raised her head and said, "Look...... I can see it, too. ”

Qiuqiu was puzzled: "Then what do you think?" ”

Shi'er smiled slightly and said, "Don't worry, but you have to wait for the evening." ”

Waiting for the evening?

Qiuqiu looked up at the sky, the sun had already set, is it evening or night?

"Come, let's go back first."

There was peace in the Bongseen Pavilion. The two of them didn't have the heart to take care of the things around them at all, and they were all on each other and the children.

Qiuqiu couldn't hold her breath and urged her to pick up her several times.

She couldn't wait.

Over the past few months, she had thought more than once that she would be able to see what her child looked like.

I didn't expect this idea to become a reality.

"Isn't it time yet?"

"Almost." Shi'er knew that Qiuqiu was eager, she was simply restless and looking forward to it.

Shi'er raised her hand slightly, and her fingertips tapped a little on the desk.

The light in the room was extinguished at the flick of his fingers, and the room became dark.

Shi'er held one of Qiuqiu's hands, and the other hand gently covered her stomach.

Qiuqiu's entire attention was focused on Shi'er's hand.

What can be done?

Just when she was puzzled, Shi'er's hand suddenly glowed with a faint, white glow.

Not only was there light, Qiuqiu also felt a particularly comfortable spiritual power, escaping from Shi'er's palm, which seemed to penetrate her clothes and flesh, and spread all the way to the child's body.

The feeling of joy that came from the child made Qiuqiu fully understand how excited and comfortable he was.

Can it be uncomfortable? It's such a luxury to do this.

The bear child in his belly is really knowledgeable, wrapped in such a pure and mellow spiritual power, it is like taking a hot spring bath with spiritual power, and all the pores on his body are afraid that they are all open, and he is so comfortable that he doesn't know why.

And Shi'er's palm is getting brighter and brighter.

In this white light, Qiuqiu's clothes and the outlines of his arms all seemed blurred.

And the palm of his hand is under his head, the center of the white ball of light,

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