Today is Monday, at this point after work, the inner ring road is still a little blocked, the car is going very slowly, and Han Yunduo and I are silent.

Is that what it means to take someone else's life to give me another life?

Then Cortana left, her so-called leaving for a while, is it to find the next substitute ghost?

"Shall I send you back?"

Han Yunduo suddenly stopped the car, and I realized that we had chosen a random exit and went to the temporary parking space on the side.

"Don't!"

I shook my head, folded my arms, bit my lip, and refused.

"You say, wasn't it the first one, and before that, it was she who saved me, not you?"

Xiao Na kept saying that it was she who saved me, not Han Yunduo.

"I'm saving you, she's hurting you!"

Han Yunduo shook his head, her words made me a little confused.

She said that the so-called elves are nothing more than failures that can't be done well. The so-called demons are the same.

Everything in the world should have its own order, and the pursuit of immortality is just a matter of prolonging a few more years, which is a punishment, not a good result.

You live, everything you once had, disappears, whether it's time, or space, or something that coexists in between.

"What does this have to do with the question I asked you?"

What is such a tirade trying to express?

"The living need to struggle to survive, and the immortal, what will they do?"

Han Yunduo asked.

"How do I know, I'm not immortal!"

Ask me again? You vixen, it is said that you have lived for 8,000 years, this kind of thing, you ask me?

"If immortality is worry-free, you have to have fun, if immortality is only temporary, then it depends on personal choice!"

Han Yunduo gave an answer by himself.

I didn't understand it, and I didn't want to understand it, because I couldn't empathize with what she said.

Even if I can really be reborn once in 500 years, every time I am reborn, it is a new me, and I should live in the present and cherish the present.

What immortality, I just want to live a safe life!

But I seem to be dying in this life, and I won't live to be thirty years old.

"I still don't understand, what does this have to do with the question I asked you?"

I shook my head and continued to ask.

"In the future, you will understand that the stakes are great!"

Han Yunduo looked at me a little helplessly and shook his head, "Demons are more decent than people, like Xiao Na, on the surface, they saved you, but in fact, they are trying to blacken your soul." ”

"Why?"

My soul is blackened, what's the benefit?

"In this way, you can stay ghostly, gather your soul into a spirit, and accompany her!"

Han Yunduo made it very clear.

It dawned on me.

That is, she wants me to be a bad person and then a demon.

But what if I don't want to?

"I don't want to do this, you're right, other people's lives matter!"

I never stepped on someone else's life to keep me alive.

"Am I not going to live more than a teenager every life?"

"Eighteen!"

Han Yunduo nodded.

"Then I'm 27 years old, which means I-"

I don't know what to say anymore.

"There are ten people, and this woman is the tenth!"

There was silence in the carriage.

It turned out that there were already ten people with the same name and surname who died because of me.

"It's a big price to continue her life like this, that's why she's like that!"

Han Yunduo rolled down the window and looked at the scenery outside in a daze.

The whole city has entered the night, and the street lamps on the streets are lit up, and it is bright, but I don't know why, he is still black, with a sad night.

"Cortana said you killed her master, right?"

I was sitting at the back of the driver's seat, leaning my head against the window, and I could see Han Yunduo's side face.

"What am I going to do with him?"

Han Yunduo snorted coldly, as if he had heard the biggest joke in the world.

"That means you didn't kill it?"

I guess that's her answer, if she didn't kill her, who would it be?

"He died of his own free will!"

Han Yunduo looked back at me, "Want to know how he died?" ”

"Anyway, it's not dead, and it doesn't have much to do with me."

I shook my head, forget it, this matter is all 50 years ago, the past between them, what am I mixing in!

"It's a big deal, he's your savior!"

Han Yunduo's words made me not know how to pick it up, and I was stunned in my seat, unable to come back to my senses for a long time.

"A human life, in exchange for a year's longevity, is not something that a stupid elf can imagine."

"He's behind it?"

The man who said that he would definitely save me, was all this planned by him?

"What is love?"

Han Yunduo didn't answer my question, but asked me another question.

This is a word I have never understood, nor have I ever encountered it.

In my 27 years of life, I have seen everything very plainly, family affection, friendship, I still know the warmth and cold, but I have never understood love.

It's not that I haven't talked about friends, but every friend will say that they have never felt my sincerity or felt my love.

My eyes, when I first saw them, were filled with stars, but when we were together, they were a pool of stagnant water, without any ripples.

That's not what they want, they say.

I said it was an excuse for them to break up.

In the world, two souls who can be completely compatible, the chance of meeting is not a few points, most of us are just snuggling up to each other for warmth, love, sooner or later it will precipitate into family and friendship, why cry and beg?

I don't understand, I really don't.

"If in the future, you can choose two paths, one is the soul is scattered, and the other is eternal life, and follow him away, what will you choose?"

Han Yunduo saw that I didn't answer her, so she changed her question.

I can't answer this question.

"I don't want to go with him!"

This is the only thing I can be sure of, I have seen that man, he is very good, for me, has done so much, these so-called love, I can't bear it.

"Why, don't you like it?"

Han Yunduo asked.

"It's not—"

This is a reflex answer, and when my mind turns, I immediately correct, "It's that I don't deserve him!" ”

"In this world, there is nothing worthy or unworthy, only willing or unwilling."

Han Yunduo sighed, "So, you still don't want to after all." ”

Han Yunduo said this sentence very definitely.

I don't know why she's so sure.

"500 years ago, 1000 years ago, every time, did you show up with me?"

I couldn't help but ask, she seemed to know my soul.

"Sort of, it's just, this time, I'll give you a choice!" Han Yunduo turned his face back and looked ahead, "On your 28th birthday, it will be your last choice." ”

I laughed, I haven't had my 27th birthday yet!

At 28 years old, I still have more than a year to go.

"Anyway, let's make one last choice!"

Han Yunduo started the car, "Do you still want to go to the cemetery?" ”

"Go!"

This answer is categorical.