Tan Yiyang didn't answer my question immediately, just sat next to me and asked me calmly, "Do you want to see her?" ”

"I don't want to!" I blurted it out without even thinking about it.

She left without hesitation, and she didn't even come back to see how her only daughter was doing all these years, so why should I take the initiative to see her?

Rao said that he didn't want to, but the longing for her over the years in his heart has become deeper and deeper.

Tan Yiyang grabbed my hand and asked me calmly again, "Really no?" I can arrange for her to be in Sioux City. ”

Sioux City ......

So close......

In a city that is only a two-hour drive from Shanghai, I was so close to her, but she never came back.

If she was far away, I could still understand that it was not convenient to travel far away, but now, I really felt that she didn't want me and didn't want to see me.

Looking at Tan Yiyang's expression, I can't live up to his heart for me, at least he is for me, so I bit my lip and said little by little: "That... See you later. ”

At that time, I thought that Tan Yiyang was really good for me, and I was stupidly grateful to him.

But it wasn't until I really broke up later that I realized that there was nothing in this world that was good for you for no reason, and behind all the seemingly beautiful things were carefully planned traps, whether it was forward or backward, it would make me fall and fall to pieces.

Tan Yiyang's movements were quite fast, and he had already asked Xu Yuan to pick her up in Sucheng the next day.

I thought he would accompany me to meet her, but he disappeared on this day.

I answered a phone call, and there was a woman on the other end of the phone, and I heard him comforting the woman on the phone, and kept pinching the corners of his forehead, and then he just glanced at me and left in a hurry.

I'm actually still a little worried, worried that when we meet, my emotional instability will say hurtful things to each other, at least someone next to me can stop me at any time, but Tan Yiyang is not by my side, I can only take Lao Zhou's car and go alone.

The location agreed by Xu Yuan is a very stylish hotel, I arrived at the location, stayed outside the door for a long time, and has been hesitating what will happen after entering, will I hug each other with tears in my eyes, or cry about how I miss each other over the years?

Either way, it's time to push the door and face it.

So after a long period of mental preparation, I slowly pushed the door in.

What caught my eye was that Xu Yuan was facing me, and when he saw me coming, he stood up slightly and called me "Miss Li", and then withdrew, leaving me and her alone.

I looked at the woman with some gray hair with her back to me, and my heart was beating a little.

As I walked over step by step, the moment she turned her head to see me, the emotions that rose in her heart suddenly surged, and even her mind was full of images of her leaving me without hesitation.

But obviously, the expression on her face was extremely calm, and she couldn't see the slightest ripple.

For a moment there was an awkward situation between me and her, like two strangers who had never met, neither of whom said a word.

I stood here in a daze, and I was the first to speak when the silence finally broke.

"Uh, you—" I coughed lightly, my eyes dodging a little, but before I could say it completely, I was stopped by her cold and merciless words.

"I heard that you want to see me, and you have been found after walking for so long, is there something wrong with me? If it's okay, I'm going back. She sat in her seat without even looking at me, taking a sip of a cup of coffee.

One sentence was extremely ruthless, and the blood in my whole body flowed backwards as if it was suffocating.

I can't imagine that I haven't seen her for a long time, but there is such a lack of relationship between me and her.

At this moment, I squeezed my bag tightly, and I don't know if it was too hot or because I was too nervous, and the palms of my hands holding the bag were already sweating.

"I'm your daughter, after all these years, are you so reluctant to see me and my father, haven't you even thought of meeting you?" When I said this, my hands subconsciously tightened, but my eyes dodged and I didn't dare to look at her.

After a while, she looked at me with sharp eyes and said lightly: "There is no need to meet, and I never thought that your life and death are destined to have nothing to do with me." ”

In an instant, my whole body trembled, not to mention the embarrassment that my face must have turned pale.

I don't believe a word of what she says.

I am her daughter, the daughter who should be held in the palm of her hand and loved, how can she bear to say such a thing?

I started to wonder if they picked it up, and then lied to me that it was their daughter.

If it really is her daughter, how can she bear to hurt me with such words?

My eyes began to moisten and my sockets began to redden, but I kept gritting my teeth and not letting the tears fall, and looked at her stubbornly.

"I'm your hard-earned daughter, why would you hurt me like this?"

Originally, the hurtful words she said stabbed me hard in the heart, but the next thing she said was more like sprinkling a large piece of salt on the knife.

"The thing I regret the most in my life is to marry Li Lusheng, and you are the person who should not come to this world, as soon as I see you, I will think of that gray day for me, if there is no you, my love will not be so bumpy in the future, it is your appearance that kills my opportunity to pursue happiness, so I hate you, it's too late to escape from you, why do I want to see you? Don't you know how I have treated you since I was a child? ”

I bit my lip so tightly that I even had teeth marks on my lips.

It was like countless large stones suddenly rolling down and blocking my chest, leaving no gaps, and my breathing began to become difficult.

Every word of her poked at the tip of my heart, I had prepared a lot of heartfelt words to say to her before coming, but at this time, in the face of her approaching step by step, I was speechless, and my heart was very cold.

"Lane, do you know what I thought when I gave birth to you?" She stared at me like that, as if she were hostile to me.

I didn't know what she was going to say, I just kept shaking my head and begging her not to continue, I didn't know if I could stand the harsh words, but I couldn't stop her.

"If it weren't for the fact that it is illegal to abandon a child here, I really want to throw you away, I don't want to see you more for a moment, until the moment I die, I don't want to see you again, the purpose of this time I came is also to tell you, don't go to all the trouble to find me, I only love that man in this life, except for him, you are not worthy of my love."

My whole body began to tremble violently, and my emotions were completely untenable at this moment, but I still tried to make myself look just indifferent: "Ms. Weng. ”

Hearing what I called her, her face changed slightly, probably I didn't expect to say so much, but I called her so indifferently.

"Ms. Weng's so-called love is to abandon her husband and daughter, be with a married man, intervene in other people's marriages, and then talk about love here? Do you know what love is? Did you know that love is selfless, not selfish? You don't know how to give at all, and the most unqualified person in the matter of love is not others but yourself! ”

People are sometimes like this, many words and many things can't be cleaned up once they explode after being suppressed for too long, just like now, the words are a little unstoppable, and the words can only hurt each other.

Obviously, in the love-hate entanglement between her, my dad and another man, the most innocent person is me, but now it seems that I am also the one who finally suffers the hatred of this relationship.

They took all the pressure out on me, and made me suffer from the pressure and maturity that I shouldn't have at that age very early.

At this moment, I could clearly see that her expression was becoming more and more gloomy, and I inadvertently slapped me hard.

The voice was crisp and loud, and there was a burning pain on his face.

"Ms. Weng, what is this going to do? If you don't like me, you don't have to contact me, but hitting people without any scruples, is this the quality you should have as an elder? I looked at her coldly, not afraid at all.

She was so angry that she even began to tremble in her voice: "You...", picked up her bag and hurriedly left here before she finished speaking.

I watched her back disappear at the door in a daze, until Tan Yiyang pushed the door in, and at this time I didn't have time to cover my face, so he saw it clearly.

"She hit her?" Tan Yiyang frowned, and his eyes seemed to be flashing with countless emotions.

I didn't even bother to respond to him, so I got up and went to the bathroom, and looking at my red and swollen face in the mirror, I began to laugh at myself: "This woman already looks like this to me, why should I go against myself and feel sorry for him."

Through the mirror, I saw that my trembling body was uncontrollably pestle on the water platform, and tears flowed uncontrollably.

It was my mother, I thought she didn't hate me that much, I thought that after so many years of precipitation, the moment I found her again, she would want to return to the family, but in the end she gave me such a reaction.

I even thought that no matter if she left us because of another man or not, as long as she could come back this time, it would be more important to live together well in the future than anything else, and I could not care about anything.

But he was slapped in the face.

I never imagined that her birth would bring her endless pain and psychological torture over the years.

Now it's really a retribution, and she also poked a hole in my heart, so that my future days will be filled with countless torments.

I will never forget the cold expression and disgusting look she saw me, as if engraved on the tip of my heart, indelible.

In this short hour, my mood really fell from a high place to the bottom, and many things were not unacceptable, but a little uncomfortable for a while.

I took a break in the bathroom, and it took me a long time before I walked out with myself propped up.

As a result, I met the reporter in an extremely embarrassed situation.

I was unsuspected, surrounded by a large number of reporters, and I was stunned for a while.