The reason why I also remember Lanlan's "sunny afternoon that gradually wakes up" is because the glimmer of hope I never gave up was completely shattered in that afternoon.

I wished I was wrong, but reason told me it wasn't, and at that moment I was very hurt, bruised and bruised and realized that I had lost to Lan Lan from the beginning.

And at this moment sixteen years later, now, at this time, I know that in fact, I can't talk about "losing to her from the beginning", let alone "losing to her all the way to the end", I didn't have a chance to start at all, how can I talk about "defeat" and "losing"?

All my involuntary self is just a box of my wishes.

Another reason I remember that "sunny afternoon" is that I spent the whole afternoon making a very painstaking decision from that moment on:

I have to stay away from this "love battle" that I am destined to win, let go of all my delusions, and be in a normal relationship, as a roommate, alumnus, friend, and buddy...... Make peace with them.

I thought intellectually, since the two lines have come all the way to the same plane and still don't intersect, let's go on parallel near or far...... It can only go on in parallel.

I made up my mind to let go and let myself go.

However, it is not easy to let yourself go, and there are some things that you can't do.

I can convince myself to give up the joy I have gained, but I don't have the concentration to be able to calm down after losing.

Fortunately, the next month was a military training that was exhausting enough to make people prostrate, and the severe consumption of physical strength left me no longer with extra energy for grief and self-pity.

Our 97-level military training must definitely be regarded as the "bigest" and most heavyweight one-year military training, and the "training" of this intensity is probably the kind of "no one who has ever been seen before and no one has come after", and I have never heard of it before, and there will be no more in the future.

Every day, under the scorching sun, we can't hold on to it and want to faint a few times, so that we can naturally boil down day by day, and we can't think about anything except eating or sleeping every day.

After being stripped of a few layers by the cool and stern instructors, we do seem to be a little out of the woods.

Everyone turned from hatred to love for the boring training, the deadly training, and the training ground where the "scorching sun and salt" was always terrified when they thought about it, and when they were about to leave, they all cried reluctantly.

All the loss was diluted because of the military training that came as scheduled, and after the training, it was indeed like being reborn, returning to the 6 buildings 204 that had been absent for more than a month, I seemed to be able to completely cut off the love at first sight, and it seemed that I could completely clean up my mood, change my mind, and be a new person.

However, things don't always go as you want them to go, they don't come to fruition in a TV series, everything doesn't go according to the script, but the plot often unfolds suddenly and quickly, which catches people off guard.

After the National Day, everyone began to officially start classes, and all kinds of large and small classes were unexpectedly tight.

The easy college life I longed for in my junior year of high school turned out to be just a dream, and the dream of not having to study tirelessly is just a dream.

The assets, liabilities, and owners' equity in accounting made me dizzy;

Higher mathematics made me dizzy and confused;

What other principles of microeconomics, statistics......

Let me walk every day as if I were walking on a rainy sky, surrounded by clouds and fog.

The four girls in the junior college class were also tormented by the difficult drawing methods and geometry and engineering drawing, and the five of them were in the same pain, and the complaints were the main theme in 204 of those days.