Chapter 15 I have been a beauty since I was a child
If it weren't for her own influence, she would have died as a beauty hidden in the Overseer's Golden House, and I'm afraid no one would know about it.
There were many rumors that her friends at the time could not reach her, and to this day, most good people still believe that she was disheartened by another marriage to the Overseers, and sailed abroad and never returned.
Of course, Murong of the next generation didn't know what happened to Lin Wanru back then, she only heard from her parents that she had died, and no matter how much she wanted to inquire, she couldn't find much news - after all, no one knew about the internal affairs of the Overseer's Mansion if she didn't want to make it public.
"Have you looked up my mother's information?" Zhou Erya asked rhetorically lightly.
His mother's information has all been sealed, and everyone now knows Lin Wanru is also a famous female painter, but almost no life deeds have been handed down, and even the paintings are gone - in a few decades, I am afraid that this name will disappear from this world, and no one remembers that there is such a number one person in Shanghai.
"It's just...... I heard it at school...... "Murong picked up the water and took a sip to cover it up."
"Is there anyone else at your school who would mention her?" Zhou Erya took in her little expression and smiled faintly, "It's really touching, probably the older generation of teachers, right?" However, shouldn't she have been removed long ago? β
"The memorabilia of the school has her name, although the records have been erased a lot, but there are still comments on her paintings abroad, I went to Europe this time, and I happened to see her name, I felt very familiar, and found that it was actually a school sister."
Murong sighed, although she felt that her acting skills were very good, but in front of Zhou Erya's eyes, there was nothing to hide, and said frankly.
"If the school knows that you call her a senior sister, I'm afraid she will also be removed." Zhou Erya said sarcastically, unabashedly disdainful of the school.
Although it is the mother's alma mater, the women's college is not as bright and open as the school motto says, and the school that originally advocated the emancipation and independence of women's minds wanted to control and imprison the wings of female students.
For example, Lin Wanru organized a women's rights march more than 20 years ago, which was suppressed by the school and the government, and even arrested and imprisoned, and the school did not find a way to protect the rights and interests of its students, on the contrary, the school did the most shameful behavior - expelled Lin Wanru from school, publicly apologized to the government, and pushed out the unarmed female students to take all the responsibility in order to protect themselves.
If it weren't for Zhou Overseer's timely action, I'm afraid Lin Wanru would still be tortured in prison, but that's all for later.
But it is precisely because of this incident that Lin Wanru will "marry" Zhou Renshan.
In the eyes of Lin Wanru, who is noble in her heart and far-sighted, she is probably just a powerful and reckless man, but he has the grace to save his life - or maybe he was in prison at that time and was forced to accept some conditions......
There were other female classmates who were imprisoned with Lin Wanru back then, and when Zhou Erya asked them to understand the situation, some people said that Wanru gave up a lot of things she insisted on in order to save other female classmates and agreed to Zhou Renshan's pursuit.
Zhou Erya remembered that when she was a child, she once asked Lin Wanru: Is it because of love to marry your father?
At that time, Zhou Renshan had another wife, Lin Wanru rarely lived in the Overseer's Mansion, and often stayed in the mansion, and Zhou Renshan had less and less time to come, and it was more like a concubine in the Golden House.
Although Zhou Erya was young at that time, she could feel her mother's revolutionary thoughts, how could a person who called for women's rights like this be willing to share her husband?
Therefore, he asked if he was willing to wronged himself like this because he loved his father very much.
I remember that at that time, Lin Wanru smiled gently at him and told him that he was the crystallization of love, but love is just a small love, and some things are to give up small love and achieve great love.
Zhou Erya didn't understand what little love and big love were at that time, he just hoped that his father could come back a few more times to accompany them.
But when he got to the end, he finally found that his mother was not happy, and when his father came back, he would always quarrel behind his back in the house, and he hoped that his father would never come back.
And my father became more and more strict with my mother, and my mother's friends often gathered in the mansion, and he felt very happy when he watched them talk and laugh at his mother, but later, there were many more guards at the door of the mansion, and the guests who came to visit were rejected one by one, and his mother became more and more lonely, and refused to return to the Overseer's Mansion......
"If you tell the truth, you will be expelled, I don't care, such a school is not worthy of being proud of." Murong said calmly, "In this world, nothing is fair. β
Zhou Erya's memories of falling into the past were pulled back by the girl's crisp and powerful voice, and he looked at Murong deeply, as if repeating her words, and like mocking: "Everything is fair......"
"That's just wishful thinking on your part." Zhou Erya added slowly, "This world is cruel, you will know it when you grow up." β
"I'm not a child." Murong tugged at the corners of her lips, she knew that the world was cruel, but she was a little unhappy with Zhou Erya's attitude, and emphasized again, "I'm already an adult, you are only a few years older than me, don't talk to me in such a childlike tone, it's very unequal." β
Zhou Erya looked at her quietly for a few seconds, and suddenly smiled, thinking that she was very interesting: "That's right, you are an adult, so your father wants to marry you off." β
Murong was choked by his Qingqi brain circuit, and his expression couldn't remain calm, and he stared at him with a red face.
He looks noble, she is also cute and smart, just looking at the appearance, it is indeed a pair made in heaven, if you talk about the soul, they are also interesting souls, but both of them chose to withdraw from the marriage.
"In fact, it's not bad to marry someone you like, little girls are easy to be cranky, and always feel that the world needs their own strength, but in fact, only people who like you need you." Zhou Erya sighed, thinking of her mother, hoping that Murong would not repeat the mistakes of the past.
It's not that he discriminates against women, in such troubled times now, most men are helpless and powerless, not to mention the pampered daughter's family.
"I know why you're getting married." Murong blinked his eyes and said suddenly.
"Didn't we talk about the reasons for the divorce?"
"That's not the real reason." Murong looked eccentric, and after learning from his appearance, he sighed, "You have someone you like, but you can't marry it." β
"Oh? Do I have someone I like? Zhou Erya carefully recalled that when Murong met him a few times, he was not with any girl and was bumped into by her, where did this come from?
And you can't marry, isn't it......
"If your strong, old-fashioned father knew about it, I'm afraid he would be furious." Murong seemed to know a terrible secret, and looked at him with a regretful expression, "But it doesn't matter, this world is eventually moving towards fairness and tolerance, no matter what kind of emotional ......"
"Did you misunderstand?" Zhou Erya interrupted her with a strange expression.
"Anyway, it's good that you're happy." Murong said, taking away the excess crystal cake in front of him, and repeating emphatically again, "Your friend said that eating less sweets is not good for your health. Don't let him down. β
Zhou Erya became more and more nervous, and when she saw her cute appearance of serious nonsense, she suddenly laughed, and Grandma Wang behind the counter couldn't help but look at it.
The young man's relationship is really good, it seems that the young master who was not smiling back then has found happiness......
"You...... What to laugh at? Murong was a little at a loss when he laughed.
She was a little frightened when she saw this cold man laughing for the first time.
Such a bright and dazzling smile is completely contrary to his usual gloomy expression, and his facial features are completely stretched, like flowers blooming in the spring breeze, and like the bright moonlight in the middle of the night sky, dazzling and soul-grabbing.
"Nothing, just think...... Well, you're right, don't let down your friends who care about you. Zhou Erya stopped eating, and stood up with a smile, "It's almost time, we should also go, I hope to invite you to have a snack next time." β
"No, I'll pay for it myself." Murong said that he was going to take the money.
She is an advanced idea of equality between men and women, and she neither wants to take advantage of Zhou Erya, nor does she want to take the initiative to invite him to eat - she will give him enough to solve the case, but in private, she will do what she wants.
"Our old lady invited this meal." Seeing this, the waiter hurriedly stepped forward and said.
Grandma Wang kindly beckoned to Zhou Erya and said with a smile: "Little master, I haven't seen you for a long time, I invite you today, and I will visit you with your little girlfriend more in the future." β
Murong blushed when he heard her say "girlfriend" meaningfully, and wanted to explain that it was just an employment relationship, but Zhou Erya said lightly: "Thank you, Grandma Wang, I will come often in the future." β
"Good, good, good." Grandma Wang was a little excited and said hello three times in a row, and it seemed that she was really happy.
Watching the two of them say goodbye and leave, Grandma Wang couldn't help but sigh, twenty years ago, when Zhou Erya was a pink and tender child, she liked him very much, and in the blink of an eye, he was at an age when he could bring his children to eat desserts.
After Murong and Zhou Erya went out, they consciously distanced themselves from him, and the eyes looking at him and Han Yu became even more strange.
Han Yu always felt that this girl was as weird as Zhou Erya, although her appearance was clear, her skin was snow-white, her hair color and pupils were very dark, like a little fairy, but when she looked at people, she was like studying something, which made him a little uncomfortable.
Especially now, the eyes she occasionally cast over were full of some special feelings, as if she was encouraging him, and as if she was pitying him, which made Han Yu even more creepy - a friend's wife can't be bullied, but what's wrong with a friend's fiancΓ©e always glancing at herself?
Han Yu felt that after the case was over, he had to find a fortune teller to cure this rotten peach blossom, but Gu Xueli hadn't done it yet, and he was targeted by Murong again, which made him restless.
"It's quite far from Bai Fei's house, let's take the tram." Murong walked to the side of the street, just saw a tram parked next to him, and said.
Today, Adjutant Cai may not dare to disturb their two-person world, he didn't rush over, there was no special car, Zhou Erya has a habit of cleanliness, and he doesn't like the rickshaw that many people have ridden, and the smell of sweat on it makes him very disgusted.
There are not many people on this tram, although there are countless people going up and down every day, but the master cleans the car very cleanly, Zhou Erya glanced at the tram, hesitated slightly, and was urged by Han Yu: "You want to drive away, hurry up and get on the train." β
Seeing that Han Yu naturally reached out and pulled Zhou Erya's arm and pushed him into the car, Murong couldn't help but sigh in his heart: good-looking men have boyfriends......
On weekdays, the tram is crowded, and the tram at this time is relatively empty, Han Yu bought a ticket and deliberately sat in the last row, thinking not to be their light bulb.
Who knows, Zhou Erya also walked to him and sat down, leaving Murong alone in the front row.
Han Yu couldn't help but glance at Zhou Erya, and asked quietly, "Why don't you accompany her?" β
"The girl's family wants to avoid suspicion, and she is not ready to get married, so she naturally wants to leave some names for others." Zhou Erya made excuses seriously.
He asked Adjutant Cai to say this in front of his father.
Now the two families may be drinking and talking, not only angry at the absence of the two juniors, but also glad that they can't wait to invite them privately.
"You're not like that...... Old-fashioned people. Han Yu felt very suspicious, but looking at Zhou Erya's expression was very "sincere", he could only mutter, "I see that you have a good conversation, it is very suitable for ......"
"Look at people, when will you be approved?" Zhou Erya asked elegantly but sharply.
Han Yu was speechless, turned his head to look at the scenery outside, and didn't want to quarrel with Zhou Erya.
Because, I can't say anything about him.
The surrounding scenery gradually became noisy and cluttered, and the road became potholed and bumpy.
Bai Fei's home is located in an old commercial street, where there are many people, sewage is flowing sideways, trolleys and groceries are piled up in one place, all sides are noisy, and the sound of chickens and dogs is heard, no matter how you look at it, it has nothing to do with the word "elegant".
Her mother's dim sum shop has only a small faΓ§ade and is difficult to find, but Lu Xiaoping's north and south stores are a symbol, accounting for two and a half storefronts, although it is not luxurious, but it is also magnificent on this street.
Lu Xiaoping said that Bai Fei's house was diagonally opposite her house.
Han Yu searched according to the map, only to see a small faΓ§ade with the door panel closed, and the signboard hung "Fang Fei Early", but these four words had been mottled and peeled off, and they were stained with black soot, which seemed lifeless.
Bai Fei's mother is not in the store.
Zhou Erya was not in a hurry, after he got off the tram, he looked around, as if the noble prince had come to inspect, and he was very curious about the lives of these civilians.
Han Yu couldn't bear it anymore and went next door to inquire.
"Are you looking for Aunt Fang? It seems that something happened to her family, she didn't open the door today, and she didn't even have a coal stove. β
Next door was a shop selling tin foil, an old lady squinted at the door and basking in the sun, and when she heard Han Yu ask about Bai Fei's mother, she showed a strange enthusiasm.
"Something's wrong?" Han Yu was very surprised, Murong said that Bai Fei had not had time to inform his family of the accident, and the school wanted to suppress it, and it was estimated that he was discussing it with the patrol room in private, hoping to appease his relatives and fool this matter over.
"Don't you know?" The old lady asked mysteriously.
Seeing that a strange man came to inquire, soon several small shop proprietresses also gathered and asked curiously, "What are you looking for Aunt Fang?" β
"I just...... There's something I want to talk to her about. Han Yu couldn't resist the gossip of the three aunts and six wives, and some regretted not bringing Zhou Erya over.
"Did something happen to her daughter?" The old lady asked with a strange smile.
Han Yu was taken aback, how did these people know......
"What the hell is wrong with her family? Did Bai Fei's little slut hook up with some man? Another middle-aged woman with a gaudy makeup, undisguised her jealousy, asked rudely.
"Every time I come back, I see her dressed in fancy clothes and twisting her ass, and she is a college student, she really doesn't study well!" The old lady sighed, leaning on the old and selling the old and said, "It's better to come back early to help, or find a good family to marry, and it's good to reduce the burden on Aunt Fang." β
"Why the hell did you come to her?" The people around kept asking Han Yu curiously.
Han Yu underestimated the jealousy and excitement of these small citizens, and had no choice but to patiently explain that he didn't know, and just wanted to ask Bai Fanggu's residence.
The gang was still unsatisfied, babbled a few words, stopped talking regretfully, and finally showed him the way.
"Well, enter the innermost room from this alley, which was originally used as a warehouse. Aunt Fang knew how to be a family, and it was changed to a place where their mother and daughter depended on each other. Bai Fei's little girl knew that she was wasting money, and she didn't want to think about how hard her mother was. β
Even at this time, the old lady did not forget to accuse Bai Fei.
Han Yu was very disdainful of this group of neighbors who talked about people's strengths and weaknesses, and he still thanked them.
When he, Zhou Erya, and Murong walked into the alley, they sighed and said, "They are all neighbors, why do you have to speak so badly to each other." Bai Fei, this little girl is really pitiful, and I can understand why she doesn't want to mention it. β
Murong didn't speak, and she also saw the eyes of those neighbors looking at her, as if she should dip in the pig cage when she walked with two big men.
She only felt that this group of people was really pitiful, living in the mud, and she couldn't wait to pull everyone else down.
"It's like two worlds here, and the university." Han Yu couldn't help but say again.
This is a place that is incompatible with Bai Fei's beautiful dream life, a university full of books and art, and this snarky market, one like heaven and the other like hell.
"From a certain point of view, the old lady's criticism can't be wrong."
Zhou Erya said calmly and ruthlessly.
Just now he took a look at the surroundings and had a general impression of the situation in Bai Fei's family.
"What classmate Lu said is right, our family's family background is not very good, and it is not so easy for Aunt Fang to send her daughter to school. Even, it is an investment that exceeds her burden. β
The tuition fee of a private university is expensive, and of course it is not worth mentioning for a family like Murong, but like Aunt Fang's faΓ§ade just now, I don't know how much humiliation I have to suffer, and how hard it takes to slowly pull out one copper after another from this.
The bitterness and hardship in the middle are really not enough for outsiders.
What's more, it can be known from other people's mouths that Bai Fei is a vain girl, and she must be as close as possible to the girls with good family conditions in the school in her material life on weekdays.
Just like Murong, although she never shows off and reads in a low-key manner, the pendant of the silk fan in her schoolbag looks like a good thing for many years, enough for ordinary children to eat for a few years, maybe this is still the most ordinary thing in her family - luxury families, no longer need to use wealth to show themselves, but life is full of material abundance.
Han Yu has always been a science and engineering student, and his vision is not as keen as Zhou Erya, but he only feels that what he said is too arbitrary, and he is a little unconvinced: "Anyway, as the old saying goes, it is always good to be able to read when the schoolbag turns over." β
"That's a man."
Zhou Erya interrupted him calmly but sharply.
"Although I know that this is difficult to accept, but in this society, it is so cruel and inherently unfriendly to women, even if Bai Fei can really learn in college, it is difficult for her to get a proper social status through work. Maybe in the end, you still have to choose to marry someone to change your fate......" Speaking of this, he glanced at Murong who was speechless, and smiled faintly, "Even if it is the eldest lady of the family, she only has a slightly greater choice." β
In Shanghai in the thirties, it was difficult to have a space for an innocent and good woman, which is an undeniable fact.
Han Yu was very depressed, didn't want to accept such a fact, and tried to refute: "I can't say that, there are still many amazing women in recent years, you see Ms. Luo Yin and a few other ......"
"They're from a celebrity." Zhou Erya sighed, "No matter which example you give, you will find that their fathers are well-known local figures and have wealthy families, so they have room to survive and develop." For Bai Fei, it is a pity that she does not have such an environment. β
She didn't even have a father.
Following your mother's surname is a typical signal, and it even means indecency and shame.
This means that she has no family to rely on, and what can a lone weak woman do in this distorted and dark age?
Han Yu was speechless, he knew that Zhou Erya was right, but he was uncomfortable in his heart, as if there was a fire burning.
If he continued to talk about it, he felt that he might not be able to help but quarrel with Zhou Erya, who was so calm that he was not close to people.
Murong finally sighed softly: "You're right, we have no light now, and we are in darkness, so we have to use ourselves as a torch to light the way under our feet and for future generations." β
Han Yu couldn't help but look at Murong in surprise.
She looks small and white, compared with her noble and good background, she has more of a literary and quiet temperament, with a hint of fairy air out of the dust, and her speech is soft and soft, with the soft words of Wu Nong in the water town.
But what she said was the opposite of the fairy energy in her body, and she had her own ideas and power.
That is the power of true learning.
"So it's admirable that you don't want to marry me, a corrupt bourgeoisie, and want to burn yourself and all that rots." Zhou Erya praised Han Yu without hesitation, and then added, "I hope that when you burn, you can see clearly whether the road under your feet leads to heaven or hell." β
"I don't yearn for heaven, I don't go to hell, I just want to follow the path I want on this earth." Murong sensed the hidden edge in his words, and unceremoniously fought back, "It's better than immersing yourself in a sugar jar and living a meaningful life regardless of the suffering of the world." β
"It's rude to stand on the high ground and comment on other people's lives." Zhou Erya thought it was very interesting, looked at Murong and said.
"Oh, then who just commented on Bai Fei's life like God?" Murong raised his eyebrows and asked rhetorically.