The years are in a hurry, and it is like a lifetime;

The years are bright, and there is no news for a moment;

The years are gone, and they disappear in an instant.

Looking back at the past, looking forward to the future, and indulging in the present, I suddenly realized that the trajectory of fate was strange and far away. It can not only make people look forward to the strange and mysterious time in the future, but also make people inadvertently return to the helplessness of the starting point of life in the time that goes round and round.

The god of fate is like a great director with a certain quirk: everything follows the script it has written, and no matter how people run, how they escape, and how they can escape, they can't escape the circle of corners it portrays.

But no matter what, it's a joy that I can be reincarnated as a human in this life, and I'm so lucky. But in this life, I was born as a human being, but it is also a very uncomfortable and especially distressing thing - because it is really not easy for people to live, live well, mix up and become famous, embrace their own social status, and have a harmonious and happy family, and a prosperous career.

In this life, there is a lot of time to be blessed by fate. Some people only have a few days or a few years, but they leave this world contentedly. And although some people have a hundred years of life, they live a life of rebellion and divorce, alone, and end up lonely and desolate in their later years.

Although all living beings have different perceptions of time, there are some things in common, which is that the vision of the world often withers, and the glorious past turns empty. Although it is said that the hero does not mention the courage of the year, but the hero does not introspect himself, how can he be clear whether he gains or loses. As for people, they should also find more leisure time, savor the ups and downs of these years, and count how many happy and troublesome memories they have over the years, because these are the most precious wealth of life.

In fact, to be honest, since the day I ended my studies, I have experienced a lot of things - falling out of love, employment, unemployment, unemployment, squatting at home; It seems that I have not done anything, because in these years that have passed, I have really not achieved any proud capital or achievements, nor have I tempered the heroic courage to look down on the world and stand out from the crowd. Some are just ordinary and ordinary, trivial trickle things, such as being alone and lonely, such as enjoying loneliness. I know that I was just a very mediocre layman written by fate from beginning to end.

Although in 2017, I went to Ningbo alone to look for a job, and then used the money earned from work to buy an iPad, and also went to Guangxi, Xi'an, and Hangzhou alone for hiking, saw a lot of mountains and rivers and unique humanistic feelings, took a lot of beautiful youth photos, and met a lot of lovely, interesting and good-looking people on the road to Qingxiao, but all this has also become a cloud of smoke in an instant, and has become a sacrifice of youth that I have ended. And some people, goodbye is indefinite, and there is only one side of the fate in their lives.

Although in 2018, I abruptly resigned from Ningbo and returned to my hometown, and then learned to drive and got a driver's license, but I also spent a year in vain, because I never found a better job, and I was idle for too long. Although I have written a lot of poems, essays, impressions and life insights during this long period of time, what is the use of these in this era of camping and glittering.

Although 2019 is the beginning of the new year, it is the beginning of the year. But I can't escape the confusion and embarrassment of where to make a living and what means to make a living, and I can't escape the embarrassing situation of when to start a family and where to go on a blind date, and I can't escape the cruel reality that my parents are getting old and gray, I should grow up and take some responsibility for this family.

Although 2020 is still a year away from coming, I can also predict the situation at that time, maybe 2020 will be very different from 2018 and 2019, nothing new, very similar! After all, this is the main color of my life, and it is also the color that I least want but is always painted by the god of fate. But no matter what the rest of your life looks like, you will continue to meet whomever and what stories will happen. Or will I continue to be mired in the most tragic quagmire of my life, struggling for a long time and unable to get out. But I think that living the present, grasping the present, and cherishing the present is forever, after all, everyone is similar to me. But even if you live the opposite life, that is, continue to waste the years, continue to be ridiculously happy, and continue to waste time, but after all, all living beings are suffering, so this is not a big deal.

But no matter what, I still have to develop on the good side, after all, my parents have spent so much effort to raise me to adulthood, and they have spent so much money and food, and all I want is that I can start a family as soon as possible and glorify my ancestors! Of course, I also have to be filial to them, after all, I am so lucky to be able to get married to them and become their children in this life.

Thinking about it this way, in the first half of my life, I gained a lot more than I lost.

Perhaps, this is what the god of fate wants all beings to learn...