I turned off all the headlights, resisted the urge to feel compassion, and walked up step by step.

I could feel that Zhan Yunting was still standing there, and I didn't dare to look back.

After taking a shower, I still couldn't hold back, quietly lifted the curtains, and looked out, I vaguely saw that it seemed that his car was still parked there, and in the dim light, I roughly felt that he was still there.

Just like when I was injured, during the time I lived here, I felt like there was a person downstairs staring in this direction not far away.

Suddenly I realized that it was him downstairs at that time, and it couldn't be wrong.

I took a step back, my heart aching, and I was asking myself, why torture each other like this? Am I really wrong?

Suddenly, I heard the sound of the car starting downstairs, and I was startled, is he leaving?

The next second I ran barefoot out, walked down the stairs quickly, and rushed out the door, but he was already gone.

The bright moonlight reflected the shadows of the trees, and the sound of the cars leaving was faintly heard, getting smaller and smaller, until they disappeared into the ears and were replaced by the rustle of the plants swaying.

My heart felt as if it had been hollowed out in an instant, empty and cold.

I took two steps forward, sat down slowly on the steps, curled up and hugged myself, and it was so quiet all around, only the chirping of insects and the blowing of the wind.

He left anyway, which wasn't really my intention.

But...... What reason did I use to convince myself to keep him?

I don't know when, the door behind me squeaked open, and my brother walked out and sat down next to me.

None of us spoke at first.

After a long time, my brother spoke first, "If you are reluctant, you must learn to tolerate!" To love her is to keep her with your tenderness. ”

I'm speechless.

Is that still me?

"It's just me who has to learn to be tolerant." I muttered something quietly.

I think what my brother said is chicken soup that is not salty or light, and it is not very nutritious.

"You've never been in love, what do you know?" I didn't hit him angrily.

"Hah! If you have been in love, you may not be able to see it clearly, and there are many times when you lose it in order to understand the truth. His voice was soft, and it felt like he had lost.

I turned my face sideways, still resting my face on my arms around my legs, and blinked my big eyes at Sven's handsome brother, I really liked my brother, he was very caring, polite, elegant and gentlemanly.

"Have you ever been in love?" I asked in a very small voice, but it was a bit of a challenge.

"Remarkable?" He said dismissively. Of course, he asked me rhetorically.

"Nothing remarkable! Come to think of it, I'm not in love, I'm a sad unrequited love! I said quietly, a little discouraged.

"I used to be ignorant and thought I was in love, that boy started chasing me from the day he entered college, and everyone thought he was my boyfriend, so I naturally thought he was." My voice is especially empty in the silent night.

Cheng Siyuan sat there, looking at me all the time, without interrupting me.

"Let him take care of him every day, around him, it really feels very comfortable, I think I am really in love, and I feel that he is the first boy I like, I believe that it is love!" I'm kind of silly.

"But after I had an accident, he disappeared without a trace, and he didn't look for me, as if he had disappeared from my memory all of a sudden." I chuckled faintly.

"I was still reflecting on myself, thinking that I was sorry for him, hiding him in my heart, thinking about it for 1 whole year, until I gave birth to a child, I couldn't breathe because of the trivial oppression of life, I was left thinking about how to feed my mouth, but I still think of him occasionally."

For Han Jiaqian, I am really disappointed, even desperate.

"Is that Han Jiaqian?" Cheng Siyuan asked.

"Hmmm! Be! It wasn't until that time that he had a class reunion that I was completely aware of who he was, and I excused him from time to time, just to regain my self-esteem, and told myself that I believed his original intention was to love me. ”

I looked at Cheng Siyuan, "Brother, am I so stupid?" ”

"It's not stupid, it's kind, I don't believe in the reality of this society, in fact, human nature is so ugly. How can I blame you! I can only say that you were young at that time, and you didn't know him well enough! "I understand that my brother is also comforting me.

But on the day of Zhan Yunting's wedding, I was completely desperate, and even subverted my cognition, no longer believing that the world is simple. It turns out that his original intention turned out to be so ugly and bad, I can't even accept that there is such a person. ”

Cheng Siyuan smiled, what he meant was that I was the Lin family, and he was laughing at my simplicity.

"It's not as bad as him, it's the worst, and it's become the best of the scumbags. He sold me, and sold my holiness for a mere ten thousand dollars. ”

I shook my head and sighed, "Now that I'm thinking about Han Jiaqian, I really can't express how I feel in my heart. ”

I smiled wryly and looked at my brother beside me.

"I always meet strange people, brother! Am I stupid? But no matter how stupid I am, I'm not stupid enough to be sold by my 'boyfriend', right? But I broke the record, and it really exists. Do you say I'm stupid or he's bad? ”

I hid my face in the crook of my arm, not in pain, but in helplessness.

Then I raised my head again and looked at the dim night in the distance, "How many people envy me, envy me that I actually gave birth to Zhan Yunting's son." This fact is envied even by the people in my office, saying, 'How can I not meet such a thing, if God gives me such an opportunity, I will not hesitate!' He doesn't have to be responsible, as long as he once had. ’”

I learned what they were saying behind my back.

"Hah! What crazy ideas. How do they know, behind what they once had, there is a lot of shame, I don't know what the structure of those women's three views is, anyway, I don't want to, my self-esteem does not allow me to be cheap. ”

"That's the difference between people!" Cheng Siyuan said.

"In fact, the moment I knew that Zhuang Zhuang was his son, my hatred made me have the urge to kill him, but seeing his doting love for Zhuang Zhuang, I retreated."

"Brother, you don't know a woman's mind, after a woman has a child, her true self has withdrawn, and it is her child who has been replaced, so there is a saying that you don't know the kindness of your parents if you don't raise a child."

"But I don't have a son, and I know the kindness of my parents!" He raises the bar.

"Oh, it's true!" I smacked him.

"He attracted me not his handsome appearance, but his strong and desperate fatherly love, I had struggled for a long time, but their father and son won, my ego gradually failed, I had to retreat to the second, for the sake of the children, for the strong food and clothing. Shameful, isn't it? Brother! ”

"No, brother knows that you have been greatly wronged!" Cheng Siyuan patted me on the back.

Gradually, I found that what he gave me was a sense of security, the sense of security I needed since I arrived at Tan's house. There is also that kind of domineering, in order to be strong, he stands by my side again and again. ”

"Brother, I needed his protection so much at that time. In a sense, it is a kind of dependence that others can't give. He also touched me little by little, whenever I needed it, he was domineering, which is a need that every woman can't quit. ”

"I understand!" When Cheng Siyuan said this, he could hear the guilt in his tone.

But anyone who arranges this fate will feel powerless.

"I've tried to leave him, but I've been crushed by him time and time again, you know that! That's how he exists in my life with Zhuangzhuang. My tone was filled with helplessness.

"Gradually, I realized that everything for me had to be arranged by him to feel safe, and I thought that this was the moment when he loved me, especially Hong Kong."

I still remember the baptism of bullets and bullets.

"I don't have the idea of running away anymore, and I even hope that if I stay with me, I will be happy, and I will face all the difficulties and share the ups and downs with him." I looked out at the deep sky and let my thoughts fly.

Night, really quiet.

The soft air is also full of floral fragrance.

I withdrew my eyes and looked at Cheng Siyuan.

"However, I was wrong, he didn't love me at all, he loved Cheng Keling, at that moment all my thoughts were pale and powerless, I felt abandoned again, just like meeting Han Jiaqian." I'm sad to say.

I still looked at Cheng Siyuan and asked puzzled.

"Brother! I want a love like my parents! Am I being hypocritical? I looked at Cheng Siyuan.

Cheng Siyuan didn't answer me directly, and fell into a deep sink.

"You have the right to fight for the love you want, the right to live, and there's nothing wrong with that." Cheng Siyuan said faintly, "Everyone has such a fault!" ”

"That means that my brother is also in love?" I seem to feel that Cheng Siyuan also has a love story.

Also, the difference between my brother and Zhan Yunting is only one year old, and he is one year older than Zhan Yunting, of course he will have emotional experiences.

"Tell me about your love!" I looked at Cheng Siyuan.

Actually, my brother and I have been talking about it since the day we met, otherwise how would he bring me home?

At this time he sat beside me, looking at the distant night sky, listening to the sound of the silence. The voice was quite magnetic, telling me about one of his romances.