Chapter 35 I don't know what I want
Luo Xicheng is really busy, and he has been a little anxious about his family and business recently. Ding Ning could roughly feel some of Luo Xicheng's busyness. To be honest, Ding Ning is very grateful to Luo Xicheng for being busy, at least she doesn't have to see Luo Xicheng often, she can also calm down and think about her relationship with Luo Xicheng, so as to clarify her mind.
Luo Xicheng was busy with his own business in the front yard, and Ding Ning was sitting in a daze in the backyard, which was all morning. Cuilan looked at Ding Ning's unrelenting appearance, and began to worry about whether Luo Xicheng said anything to Ding Ning last night that made Ding Ning embarrassed. Although Ding Ning treats her as a sister, after all, Ding Ning is also her master, Cuilan is naturally not easy to interject, not to mention that Luo Xicheng specially took her and Huanxi away last night.
Cuilan was also in a daze at this moment, thinking of any way to comfort Ding Ning. But in the blink of an eye, Cuilan's mind came up with an idea, she happily ran to Ding Ning, sank her breath again, and said to Ding Ning seriously:
"Madam, the medicine prescribed to you by Dr. Guan is gone, you should go to his hospital today."
"Isn't there supposed to be another pair of medicines?" Ding Ning asked rhetorically.
"Yes, but I dozed off when I boiled up a pair of medicines, and I didn't dare to tell you. There's no medicine at this point, so I have to ......," Cui Lan said with an embarrassed gesture.
Ding Ning looked at Cuilan's pitiful look, as if she had made a big mistake, and said with a smile:
"It's just a medicine, and you're doing it as if I'm going to punish you severely. It's okay, let's go to Guan Gongzi's to prescribe medicine in a while. ”
As soon as Cuilan heard that Ding Ning was going to go to the hospital, the big stone in her heart was put down. She happily said:
"Then I'll go see if Gongzi Guan is in the hospital first, and then I'll pick you up. What do you think? Or do I call Guan Gongzi to come to our garden? ”
"Guan Gongzi has so many patients to take care of, I will go by myself, and I don't bother him to make a trip." Ding Ning replied,
Cuilan understood what Ding Ning meant, and ran towards Guan Lumo's medical hall while agreeing. When Cuilan ran out of breath and ran to Guan Lumo Medical Hall, Guan Lumo was seeing a doctor with someone. Cuilan waited for a while before she could see Guan Lumo.
After all, it was someone who had been with him for a long time, and Guan Lu Mo knew that something was wrong with her when he saw Cuilan's appearance, so he spoke first:
"What's wrong with Mrs. Luo?"
"Madame...... alright"
Guan Lu Mo listened to Cuilan's words, and saw Cuilan's troubled expression, so he wondered. Cuilan also seemed to see Guan Lumo's appearance of not knowing her, and hurriedly explained:
"No, I mean, Madame is fine, but she is fine."
"You speak slowly." Guan Lu Mo was afraid that Cuilan would be in a hurry and couldn't speak clearly, so he hurriedly comforted.
"Last night, on the way back to his garden from my grandmother's room, my lord separated me from Huanxi, and I don't know what to say to my wife, who was in a daze all day today! I was not at ease, and I did not dare to ask more. I used the excuse that I had broken the medicine and wanted to reopen it, and I wanted to lure her to you, and you could talk to her for a while, enlighten her. You don't know, Madame has never been so stunned in the morning as she is today! Cuilan slowly explained the reason unhurriedly.
"It's okay, you bring her here, Luo Xicheng is not in the house, I went to the inner courtyard for fear of inconvenience." Guan Lu Mo smiled and ordered Cuilan.
Cuilan hurried back to Luo's Mansion in a hurry, and she was afraid that Ding Ning would see that she was in a hurry, so she had to take a deep breath outside the garden, adjust her emotions before entering the garden and saying to Ding Ning:
"Madam, Gongzi Guan is in the hospital."
Ding Ning responded and went to the inner room to change his clothes, followed Cuilan into the carriage waiting outside the house, and went all the way to Guan Lumo's medical hall. Guan Lu Mo knew that Ding Ning was coming, so he had planned the number of places for his own consultation early, and when Ding Ning arrived, there were no more patients in the medical hall, only some people who grabbed medicine, and Meng Yang was enough to deal with it.
Guan Lumo looked at Ding Ning with his warm smile and said:
"Cuilan just said that your medicine is gone, I wanted her to bring some back, but after thinking about it carefully, I still gave you a pulse before prescribing a prescription, so I asked her to call you over."
Ding Ning smiled lightly:
"I'm tired of managing my son, Cuilan's girl is not sloppy, it is estimated that I have asked her to do too much recently, so she will doze off and burn the medicine."
As he spoke, Ding Ning walked to Guan Lumo's diagnosis table. Guan Lumo also sat in the position where he usually checked his pulse, and carefully diagnosed Ding Ning's pulse. After a while, Guan Lu Mo asked thoughtfully:
"Mrs. Luo has been depressed recently and can't let go?"
Ding Ning didn't know whether to tell the truth or not, but after all, it was the truth, Ding Ning could only look at Guan Lumo and nodded by default. Guan Lu Mo saw Ding
Ning did not deny it, and then asked:
"Mrs. Luo is worried about her husband?"
Ding Ning listened to Guan Lu Mo's words, she was at a loss, she didn't know if she should tell Guan Lu Mo what Luo Xicheng said to her. However, there is no one who knows Luo Xicheng better than Guan Lumo. Ding Ning thought so, and felt that Guan Lu Mo might be able to give her some pertinent advice. So, Ding Ning spoke:
"Last night, Luo Gongzi said that he wanted me to be myself, to be the Ding Ning he knew, and to be his veritable wife."
Guan Lu Mo knew that Luo Xicheng was sincere to Ding Ning, and he wanted to remind Luo Xicheng several times that his attention to Ding Ning was more than that of a master to his subordinates. But Lu Mo couldn't remind Luo Xicheng like this, he was afraid that Luo Xicheng would find out that he really liked Ding Ning, and he was afraid that Luo Xicheng would be close to the water. But now, Luo Xicheng's confession caught him off guard.
Luo Xicheng, who Guan Lu Mo knows, is a person who does not express his feelings so directly, after all, Luo Xicheng and Xue Ran have been for so many years, and he has never said his feelings for Xue Ran in front of him Guan Lu Mo and Xue Ran. Guan Lu Mo couldn't believe that Luo Xicheng really said the words that Ding Ning had just relayed.
"Is this really what Hee Cheng told you last night?" Guan Lumo confirmed.
"Hmm." Ding Ning looked at Guan Lu Mo's eyes and affirmed.
Guan Lu Mo didn't know what to say all of a sudden, he could only believe the voice in his heart at this moment, the voice that told him that Luo Xicheng really loved Ding Ning.
"And what do you think in your heart?" Guan Lumo asked.
"Me? I can't say for sure right now. Ding Ning replied.
"You tell me what you think now, I at least know Luo Xicheng better than you, don't I? Maybe I can give you some advice! "Guan Lu Mo said.
In fact, what Guan Lu Mo said was Ding Ning's heart, and she originally wanted Guan Lu Mo to give her some advice. So Ding Ning spoke:
"I used to think that Luo Gongzi was good to me because I looked like Miss Wanting, and I just wanted to use his kindness to Miss Wanting to make myself comfortable in Luo's Mansion, so that I could save some belongings in the future and maintain my life after leaving the house. But when Luo Gongzi said this last night, I didn't know what I wanted. ”
"Then do you care about him?" Guan Lumo asked.
"I have always cared, after all, he is the one who saved me from fire and water, and he is my master. But is this kind of care the same as caring about each other? Ding Ning was puzzled.
"Are you just not sure what you want?" Guan Lumo asked.
"No, Luo Gongzi's words came too suddenly, like a whim. I've heard too many such words in the Spring Mankaku, and at first they were all good stories, but in the end they all became jokes. Although I am no longer a Qinglou woman, but after all, I was born there, whether Luo Gongzi was embarrassed for a while because of my face, I don't know. I also don't want to be a joke for others in the future. Ding Ning said and lowered his head in disappointment.
Although Lu Mo understands Ding Ning's intentions, in Ding Ning's heart, whether she likes Luo Xicheng or not is secondary, but she doesn't want to become someone else's joke after dinner. No matter how much Lu Mo wanted to tell Ding Ning that Luo Xicheng was not necessarily sincere, but he couldn't ruthlessly break up a pair of lovers. Guan Lumo finally smiled and explained carefully to Ding Ning:
"The Xicheng I know is not a random person, since he opened his mouth, it must be from the heart. Let me ask you, did Xicheng tell you that he can still cooperate with Bailixi without you now? ”
Ding Ning whispered "um". Guan Lumo saw Ding Ning's affirmative answer, and said with a smile:
"That's not wrong. With his ability, Bailixi's cooperation with him is inevitable, and Bailixi can't cut off contact with Xicheng because of his daughter's death. After all, the person behind Xicheng is also Bailixi, who wants to do his best to get closer. ”
"That ......" Ding Ning is smart, so she can naturally guess Luo Xicheng's friendship with her from here, but why Luo Xicheng would have a friendship with her in such a short period of time, she is very unclear.
"I don't know what it was like for you and Xicheng to meet for the first time, but you must have left an indelible impression in Xicheng's eyes. Xicheng can hide your identity so much and bring you into Luo's Mansion, with his personality, it is not as simple as asking you to be a chess piece. Because there is a far easier way than getting you into Luo's Mansion to solve his business dealings with the Baili family. ”
Ding Ning looked at Guan Lu Mo, who was talking the truth, and didn't know how to deal with it, so he said in a hurry:
"I ......"
Guan Lu Mo looked at Ding Ning and said with a smile:
"Mrs. Luo doesn't have to respond in a hurry, and Xicheng will definitely not force you to give him an answer now."
"Me, understand my mind?" Ding Ning has always determined how she should go next according to the minds of others, and now she has to take a step directly according to her own mind, she doesn't know how she should go out this step.
"What kind of courage did Mrs. Luo have to marry Lin Zihao at that time, and what kind of courage does she have to face your own feelings now! It's hard to take a step, but it's better than leaving regrets! "Guan Lu Mo knows what Ding Ning is hesitating about, he really wants Ding Ning to break out of his inner defense, if Ding Ning finally musters up the courage to be with Luo Xicheng, then he sincerely wishes, if Ding Ning finally decides to pursue the freedom she wants alone, then God will give him Guan Lu Mo a chance to get Ding Ning.
Guan Lu Mo asked Cuilan to follow Ding Ning regardless of whether she was with Ding Ning or not, and protect Ding Ning for him, precisely because he couldn't guess Ding Ning's true thoughts, and he couldn't bear Ding Ning to suffer outside alone. Now it's time to end it, and he wants to settle his heart, so Ding Ning must also know his heart.
Ding Ning listened to Guan Lu Mo's words, and the bits and pieces of Luo Xicheng's daily stay with her kept coming to mind. In those ordinary cares, she could sense Luo Xicheng's kindness to Baili Wanting, but now she finally understands that those kindnesses to Baili Wanting are fake, and Luo Xicheng wants to take care of only her.
Ding Ning began to carefully recall every affectionate look that Luo Xicheng had with her, she had secretly envied Baili Wanting countless times that she could get such eyes, but now she understands that the friendship in these eyes is really given to her.
Ding Ning began to feel that he should not live up to Luo Xicheng's affection. Luo Xicheng is the benefactor who pulled her when she fell into the dust, the benefactor who protected her from the discovery of her identity by the Baili family in Luo's mansion, and the benefactor who was willing to give her a promise and promise her peace for a lifetime. No matter what the reason, she Ding Ning had no reason to refuse Luo Xicheng. As for whether she loves him or not, whether she has him in her heart or not, let the years give an answer!
After thinking about this, Ding Ning's face finally showed a smile that cleared the dark clouds and saw the sunny sky. Ding Ning looked at Guan Lu Mo with a smile and said:
"Thank you Guan Gongzi for your reasonable persuasion, I understand now! Please prescribe medicine for me! ”
When Guan Lumo saw Ding Ning's sudden smile, he naturally understood, Ding Ning had already seen it and figured it out. So he didn't say much, turned around and grabbed the medicine for Ding Ning and put it in her hand himself.
Ding Ning took the medicine and thanked him with a smile and left.
Ding Ning is ready to have a new start with Luo Xicheng!