Chapter 20: Let go
Zhu Xiaoqiang learned from Lu Doukou that the School of Physics and its vicinity were closed, and the test site was transferred to other colleges. He followed Lu Dou carefully and flexibly to avoid some people, and entered the roof of a building closest to the blockade area.
Looking at it up close, the scorched black and ruins are even more shocking. It's like a patch of white flowers mixed with a cluster of black, which is particularly eye-catching.
The little fat man Lu Dou is well-informed, Zhu Xiaoqiang knows something from him that he has never heard, and he doesn't know where he found out.
The two watched for a while, and Zhu Xiaoqiang saw that it was almost time to gather, so he separated from Lu Dou and went to the meeting place. Yesterday afternoon and a few hours in the evening, the freshman and sophomore exams were finished, and today it is the turn of the juniors and seniors with some graduate students.
Something happened last night, and I don't know if it will affect today's test, Zhu Xiaoqiang is a little unsure.
The morning passed quickly, the flow of people testing was fast, and all the previous worries turned out to be unnecessary, or inconclusive. Zhu Xiaoqiang followed the flow of people into a dark room, the room was deliberately prepared so that people could not see a trace of light, stayed for a while and then was told that it was okay, and walked out of the test room, everything was at a loss, this is the end?
Is there an awakening? How many people have awakened? How are they judged? No one has told them these questions.
Like all students who have been tested, the results are not known.
Seeing that it was past noon, but no one had the heart to eat, the crowd gathered at the meeting place. I have been informed in advance that the lockdown can be lifted when I return to J University, and the holiday has begun.
When school starts again, it's my senior year.
Zhu Xiaoqiang walked with the crowd, his mind was blank, a little relaxed, and some unknown worries.
Suddenly, a figure appeared in front of him, blocking Zhu Xiaoqiang. Zhu Xiaoqiang raised his head, and when he saw the person coming, his eyes deepened.
"Hello, can you talk?"
"Ouyang Zheng, the only son of a vice president of University A, is okay. Song Yiyi once said.
"Ouyang Zheng, very good, the son of the vice president of the School of Biology......" Not long ago, a strange girl told Zhu Xiaoqiang.
"Okay," Zhu Xiaoqiang nodded lightly.
Ouyang Zheng didn't expect Zhu Xiaoqiang to be so calm, which was a bit unexpected for him, but he still showed a warm smile.
The two came to a secluded garden, standing two meters apart, no one spoke at first, Ouyang had a gentle face, confident, calm, with a shallow smile at the corner of his mouth, not disgusting, obviously well versed in the etiquette of interacting with people, looking at Zhu Xiaoqiang with an inquiring gaze, Zhu Xiaoqiang's face was expressionless, calm and excessive.
The two who never knew each other were now standing facing each other because of a woman.
Zhu Xiaoqiang turned her gaze, and the corner of a white dress flashed away in the distance, her quality and heart were clean, and her preferences were as always.
Zhu Xiaoqiang sighed in his heart, withdrew his gaze, and looked at Ouyang Zheng. The two of them are generally tall, the other party is stronger than him, at least they look stronger than Zhu Xiaoqiang, who is completely emaciated now, the other party is well-dressed, he is empty, just like his empty heart, there is nothing to fill.
Ouyang Zheng looked at Zhu Xiaoqiang and said, "You must be curious to know the reason why she left you, Mingxi asked me to tell you that you are very similar to his father, at least when you were young." Handsome, sunny, kind, upright, but also at ease with encounters, without great ambitions. Her mother used to believe in love and thought that love was enough, but in the end she was defeated in the face of reality. Her mother had tried to change her father countless times, but she never succeeded, when her father could not bear the burden of life, her mother could only carry it by herself, and since then, the mother who was once as beautiful as a rose has slowly withered in Mingxi's eyes. She had witnessed, or rather watched, step by step, his father from young, handsome, sunny and upright, to finally being crushed by life, and becoming humble, pitiful, wooden, and numb. People can't guarantee that they will never change, they can't guarantee that they will change, she doesn't have the confidence to go on with you, she doesn't have the courage to face the unknown, the uncertain future, she is afraid to see you become like his father. She...... I have mentioned to you my future ideals, future plans, and future visions, but you ......" Ouyang Zheng glanced at Zhu Xiaoqiang, his eyes were a little strange, and he shook his head slightly: "Every time you talk about that, you say you want to go home...... Go home and raise pigs, without exception. Maybe you may have wondered why Mingxi didn't mention it anymore later, her heart was already dead. ”
"Also, you may like Mingxi's hometown very much, with white walls and ink tiles, covered bridges around the stream, antique, and told her that you want to live there in the future. But you never know that Mingxi has lived in that environment that suffocated her since she was a child, and she has always wanted to escape from there. ”
Zhu Xiaoqiang's body was shocked, and his eyes were distracted.
Mingxi doesn't like to eat noodles because her mother sells noodles every day, which means a heavy life for her. You don't know this, and there is one more thing you may not know, the city that Mingxi wanted to go to back then was the magic capital, and because of the difference of one point, she came to B University. You often wander around the University of B campus, but she never says she doesn't like it at all. Ouyang Zheng's voice was calm, but the words pierced Zhu Xiaoqiang's heart.
Zhu Xiaoqiang's eyes were dull, the huge blow drained all his strength, he could no longer straighten his back, and slowly lowered his head.
Maybe it's the reluctance to see his sadness, his vulnerability.
All this fell in Ouyang Zheng's eyes, maybe the man opposite was tasting the bitterness and bitterness, maybe he had been swallowed by pain. He didn't speak, and he didn't need superfluous movements, he was already a winner, and the fall of the loser would only show that he was not qualified, and it would also lower his impression in Su Mingxi's eyes.
But he didn't lie, he was just acting as Su Mingxi's messenger today, telling the man opposite what she was inconvenient or no longer necessary, and cutting everything off.
That's enough.
He is even a little grateful to the man opposite, in a materialistic society, there are people who are willing to cherish a pure love and not blaspheme their beloved lovers, maybe in his original vision, he will cherish it until he is old.
It's a pity that providence makes people, and the woman he loves is unwilling to accompany him to old age.
A man's frustration in love forges his flawless love.
It doesn't matter if it's right or wrong, as the old saying goes, there is no right or wrong in love, only the proud and the frustrated.
Success and defeat are not suitable here, but people know their own sweetness and warmth.
Facing Ouyang Zheng, Zhu Xiaoqiang's fists clenched and loosened, loosened and clenched.
Ouyang Zheng's words were not humiliating, but perhaps the loser itself meant shame.
Zhu Xiaoqiang lowered his head, trying to calm down his violently undulating chest, he seemed to have returned to last night, and he was so lonely, so helpless, and so painful.
I don't know how long it took for him to look up again, and he had completely calmed down.
He said to Ouyang Zheng: "I understand, thank Su Mingxi for me, thank her for accompanying me for nearly three years, I was very happy in those three years, I understood the beauty of love." But please also tell Su Mingxi that I also tasted the bitterness, the bitterness is very strong, I can't get rid of it, I used to be very painful. ”
Zhu Xiaoqiang took a deep breath: "Love is a matter of two people, since she chose to give up and have no intention of staying there, I will let it go, please rest assured." His eyes were far away, as if he were reminiscing about the past.
In the end, he said, his expression was very serious, never more serious: "Tell Su Mingxi that Zhu Xiaoqiang in the past is dead, and ask her to kill Zhu Xiaoqiang in her memory."
The rivers and lakes are far away, and you can't see it. ”
Plain words silently draw a chasm, past and present, in the past and in the future.
Zhu Xiaoqiang made a break with his past self, and he gained the peace of his soul.
"I've put it down. ”
Zhu Xiaoqiang turned around and said softly.
"Life may be like that. ”
Zhu Xiaoqiang walked farther and farther, his steps were firm, the sun was shining on his body, and he suddenly had a kind of enlightenment.
Seeing Zhu Xiaoqiang disappear into the crowd, Ouyang Zheng couldn't retract his gaze for a long time, his rare brows furrowed, and the shock in his heart couldn't dissipate no matter what.
Ouyang Zheng was very sensitive, he clearly noticed the heaviness of Zhu Xiaoqiang's mood when he first stood in front of him, which could not be concealed. The pain after listening to his words was even more obvious, but just now, he felt his ease.
It is the relaxation of the mind after untying the shackles and untying the knots of the heart, driving the limbs, and finally spreading to the whole body.
"Such a man ......"
Ouyang Zheng muttered to himself, a little distracted.
Zhu Xiaoqiang walked towards the school gate, where a school bus was waiting for him, and the freshmen were also waiting for him.
When I came to the gate of A University, there were only a few students from J University, and most of them had already returned to school by bus.
"Brother Zhu, ...... you" Lu Dou was waiting here, and saw Zhu Xiaoqiang greet him.
"I'm going back. Zhu Xiaoqiang nodded and walked forward.
Lu Dou was a little lost, lowered his head, and suddenly someone walked up to him, Zhu Xiaoqiang took out his mobile phone: "Leave a contact, we will be friends in the future." ”
Lu Dou nodded happily, the car was gone, and he was still shaking his hand. Some people are like this, even if they have only met a few times, they can feel each other's sincerity.
This kind of friend is caught, it is a lifetime.
There were very few people in the car, and Zhu Xiaoqiang was nestled in the saddle, tired, and just wanted to sleep well.
This short journey, when he came at a loss, when he returned, everything seemed to be shrouded in fog, and he didn't care what the outcome would be.
In a hazy sleep, Zhu Xiaoqiang said silently in his heart: "I never think there is anything wrong with raising pigs, I am so big, I can go to college, I can know you, and even everything I have now is inseparable from our pigs, and raising pigs is not unambitious." And also...... I have 10,000 pigs at home. ”
I didn't say that at the time, because it didn't make sense anymore.
"Also, I like to eat noodles. In the muttering, Zhu Xiaoqiang fell asleep.
Ouyang was coming to Su Mingxi's side, this weak girl tried to pretend to be strong, but her uneasy deer-like gaze indicated that maybe it wasn't the case.
Ouyang Zheng looked at Su Mingxi's red and swollen eyes, a little unbearable, but he opened his mouth and said, "He said goodbye to you, saying that the rivers and lakes are far away, and he can't see it." ”
He ...... I love you so much, I can tell. ”
"You...... There is no love for the wrong person. ”
Su Mingxi's delicate body shook, Ouyang was about to help her, but she avoided her, her eyes were blank, tears flowed silently, how similar to Zhu Xiaoqiang before in Ouyang Zheng's eyes.
Ouyang was looking at Su Mingxi silently walking away, and his heart was shaken.
Are you really the winner......
Love is a life and death field, once you step in, no one can leave safely.