Chapter 145: Things Are Not People (2nd Watch)
Chen Xi originally thought that Hua Mu was going to tell the truth when she saw Su Xiaoran this time, but after seeing Su Xiaoran's reaction, he understood: That secret is Hua Mu's last weapon, and she will never tell it unless she has to.
Obviously, now is not the time of last resort in her eyes.
Since Su Xiaoran wants to escape, let her escape for the time being, Chenxi thinks so. The current Su Xiaoran doesn't even recognize what kind of person she is, and if she is forced again, it will only make the situation worse.
Staying in touch was the last thing he could do for her. Fortunately, such difficult days will pass, Su Xiaoran finally found a new job, Chenxi listened to Qiqi, she said that Su Xiaoran refused to go to work with her, and found a more stable job by herself, working as a translator in a small business.
Although he is still a translator, because the place of work is different from the previous company, the environment is relatively less complicated, and Su Xiaoran likes it very much. What she needs most now is a stable environment.
Most importantly, the place where she works is not too far from her home, and it only takes 20 minutes to walk to get there. She doesn't have to worry about getting up in the morning to get on the bus to get to work.
After her work was stable, the first thing Su Xiaoran thought of was to go to see Teacher Hou and take her old man for a walk outside. In the past, when Xiaofang was still there, she often took Teacher Hou downstairs for a walk, but now that Xiaofang is gone, the newcomer Xiang'er obviously doesn't pay much attention to this matter, and the work is done step by step, but she is not willing to do more things outside of work.
On this day, after getting off work, Su Xiaoran came to Teacher Hou's house, and she felt a little sad the moment she opened the door. Teacher Hou's home seems to have returned to the old old atmosphere, there are no superfluous people in the family, and Teacher Hou is quiet, and there is not even a sound of talking or TV at home.
Su Xiaoran put the vegetables she had just bought in the kitchen and told Xiang'er to make dinner, while she herself pushed a wheelchair and took Teacher Hou downstairs in the community.
The evening breeze is blowing, it is already late autumn for the teacher, now the temperature difference between morning and evening is very large, the sun is still shining at noon, and the streets are cool after sunset, Su Xiaoran put the shawl on her body on Teacher Hou's thighs, looked at her white lips, and was very distressed:
"Why didn't you tell me when you moved back?"
"What if you say it, what if you don't say it? People, the more you live to the back, the more you find that many things can't be changed, so you just watch it develop naturally! ”
"You're talking about the truth again, in my opinion, no matter how much truth there is, the key is to be comfortable. Look at you, it wasn't good to live with Teacher Fang at the beginning, why did you ......?"
Su Xiaoran pushed Teacher Hou under a big tree, fixed the wheelchair, sat beside him, and looked at Teacher Hou.
Teacher Hou smiled, pointing to the sunset not far away, and the folds on his face were piled up. "Child, I have been a teacher for most of my life, I can't learn anything else, and my ability to observe words and colors is no worse than anyone else. You can see the blood-red sunset, maybe people can only see its poignant, but how many people can really understand why it sets? I, maybe I was greedy for a moment and enjoyed the excitement for a few days, but after the excitement, life was only peaceful. Don't underestimate the calm after this bustle, it can see a lot of things! Some people, whether they are happy together or not, not depends on the excitement at the beginning, but on whether you can withstand the contrasting peace after the excitement. I say that, do you understand? ”
Teacher Hou raised his head and looked at Su Xiaoran's face, his eyes full of love. She believes in fate, in her life, maybe she has seen a lot of hardships, so she cherishes the hard-won fate.
When she met Su Xiaoran at the beginning, she later treated her as her own daughter, and even later lost the opportunity to walk for her, she didn't regret it.
"Teacher Hou, I understand." Su Xiaoran looked away, she was now full of sensational dramas, and what she was most afraid of was seeing sensational people and things again.
"It's good to understand, I heard that your parents are here too?"
"Half a month ago, they had already bought a house and didn't plan to go back." After Su Xiaoran finished speaking, she smiled to herself a little embarrassed, and even she felt embarrassed when she talked about her strange parents.
Teacher Hou didn't think it was strange, "They must be too concerned about you, this time you broke up with Chenxi and changed jobs, no matter who you put in your heart, you can't rest assured." ”
"Teacher Hou, how do you know ......" Su Xiaoran was surprised, she hadn't said anything yet, how could Teacher Hou know everything about her own affairs?
"It was Qiao Xiaoyan who said that some time ago, she went to Teacher Fang's very diligently."
Teacher Hou didn't say anything further, but Su Xiaoran understood.
She thought that Teacher Hou's decision to move back was correct, after all, with Qiao Xiaoyan's character, she could almost imagine how uncomfortable Teacher Hou was staying there.
"Kid, you have time to ask your parents out, I want to meet them."
Teacher Hou suddenly interrupted Su Xiaoran's thoughts, she was a little resistant, of course Su Xiaoran knew what Teacher Hou meant by this move, but she would not agree, that was what she owed Teacher Hou.
"What, you won't agree?" Teacher Hou urged again, Su Xiaoran shook his head, "Don't always think about me, take care of your illness, and I'll let my parents come to visit you when I'm free." ”
"Alas! After all these years, you are still so stubborn. Xiaoran, do you know what your problem is? It's just too strong, too stubborn. Sometimes, it's not difficult to let go of your own mistakes, so don't take them if it's not your own mistakes, so that you will live a little easier. Do you know? Ji Ren, he has looked for me again. ”
"He? Didn't he already go to City Y?! ”
Su Xiaoran was very surprised, when she was on a business trip, Ji Ren clearly said that he had moved to Y City to live, how could it be......
Seeing Su Xiaoran's surprised face, Teacher Hou smiled and said nothing. Then he shook his head and sighed, "I said, you are just too simple, do you think that Ji Ren and Han Xiya divorced just to go to Y City to avoid you?" ”
"What do you mean?"
"He's definitely divorced because of you. He approached me that day and gave me a bank card, saying he owed me. I didn't want it, but then I thought about it, although he doesn't owe me, he owes you, a responsibility, a commitment. Kid, you've both broken up for so long, aren't you still taking the blame on yourself by now? ”
Teacher Hou looked at Su Xiaoran with bated breath, that was the student she taught single-handedly, not only that, Ji Ren, Han Xiya, Qiqi They are all her students, she loves each of them, but what she loves the most is Su Xiaoran, perhaps, that girl has the same stubbornness as her in her bones!
After a long time, Su Xiaoran came back to his senses, but only said one sentence: "I won't start again with him." ”
"Who wants you to start over with him? I mean, I tell you not to feel guilty for the rest of your life because you took the initiative to break up, and feel that you owe him Jiren, child, there are many reasons to love each other, but there is only one way that can separate two people, and that is not love. Think about it, you broke up with Ji Ren under so much mental pressure at the beginning, and what about him? Just turned around and left. Yes, maybe you can make excuses for him and say that he respects your choice, but now? Why did he come back to you again? A man who marries his wife if he doesn't love him, and divorces at will because of other women, such a man, even if you want to be with him, I won't agree! ”
Teacher Hou was a little excited and forgetful, waved his hand, and hit the armrest of the wheelchair hard, the wheelchair leaned forward, and Teacher Hou's body also fell forward.
Su Xiaoran hurriedly supported her, she understood the meaning of Teacher Hou's words, and she also understood why her old man was so angry. Maybe it's true as Qiqi said, she is not thinking about the old love, but she still refuses to let go of herself in terms of morality.
So tired.
"Teacher Hou, don't be angry, I decided to take care of you, it's not entirely because of Ji Ren's relationship, this is my own meaning. I am still capable, so why should you reject me? Don't worry, when I really don't have the strength one day, I will say it, and I will never carry it. ”
Su Xiaoran squeezed a grimace, and Teacher Hou patted her head, but she was reluctant to use a little strength. It seems that it is in vain again.
Teacher Hou squinted at the sunset that was disappearing little by little, put his thoughts aside, and quietly enjoyed the only brief moment......
After returning from Teacher Hou's house, Su Xiaoran's heart couldn't be calm for a long time. She repeatedly recalled every word that Teacher Hou said, and she could understand these words, but it was too difficult to practice.
Ji Ren, did he really divorce for his own sake? If so, how do you explain the 'chance encounter' in City Y that day? And what does he mean by starting over?
Is it fake to even get acquainted again and start as friends?
Su Xiaoran had to admit that maybe she really hadn't wanted to know Ji Ren for too long, so that Ji Ren's shadow had blurred in her mind, and the only thing she could think of now was the boy who bravely and simply said that he liked her at the right age.
Sure enough, it's not false at all that things are people, this is the most desolate thing.
One thing, will the relationship between himself and Chenxi also come to that point? Could it be that when you meet on the road, you don't even have the courage and mood to smile and say hello?
The ghost sent the gods, Su Xiaoran clicked on Chenxi's circle of friends, this was the only time she persuaded herself to touch something about him since she was separated.