Chapter 264: Deceit
Regarding the word ordinary, a hundred people may have a hundred kinds of sayings, and Fu Gong himself thinks so, and as one of the countless people who have seriously thought about the ordinary, the answer he came to is that the ordinary made him forget hatred and revenge, and little by little he regained the direction of life.
On the path of cultivation, the undertaker will feel lost for many reasons, and as a funeral master, the undertaker has also encountered such problems.
In other words, before he met his wife Yuhe, he had always been in a state of confusion about this issue. And he didn't expect that he would one day get the answer to this question through the ordinary.
In the future, the focus of his life is no longer his future as a mortician, nor is it revenge, which is terrible for a person like him.
It's unimaginable, but for Fu Gong, the change has unconsciously changed his personality.
The funeral duke found that he began to stop thinking about what he should do if his wife was still a person who hated him, and he began to think more about how to let them continue to live such an ordinary and unfluctuating life.
In the ordinary life of him and his wife, there is less weighing of pros and cons, and more attention is paid to some trivial life.
This is undoubtedly something that the funeral master would not think about at all.
But because of his wife, the funeral man became more concerned about these things.
For example, the little things his wife will do every day, the funeral father doesn't care about those things at all, but he gradually changed and became concerned about these wife's subtle actions, and his wife also seemed very happy about his little care.
She doesn't often react in any particular way, because that's what she seems to be the way she is.
She has also been accustomed to this for a long time, and for her every small reaction, every reaction she has become a very important element of his life.
Sometimes, when the two of them lay on the flat bed and slept with their wives in their arms, the funeral guild occasionally lost sleep.
Originally, as a three-day burial master, even sleepless for many days had no effect on him, but at that time, he felt that insomnia made him feel very painful.
The passage of time seems to have slowed down by an unknown number of times, and the question that seems to have faded into my mind has quietly surfaced.
Is it really right to just continue to live like this?
For him, living with his wife like this, as a matter of him, is it really enough to be satisfied?
Fu Gong thought about it a lot, and then one day found that the answer was not as complicated as he thought.
On the contrary, the answer is very close to me, close at hand.
The funeral father woke up early one morning, and when he was eating breakfast, he suddenly found that his wife was smiling this morning, she didn't often show her smile so obviously on her face, but today she seemed to be a little unable to hide her smile.
Especially when I look up at the funeral father, there is an emotion that makes the funeral father faintly uneasy, but the heart beats faster. So the funeral duke couldn't help but ask, saying that she didn't look like she looked the same today as she did yesterday.
Yuhe looked at him, then smiled softly and said, "I seem to have it." ”
The funeral duke was stunned for a moment, and then looked at Yuhe with a very innocent and curious gaze. However, his heartbeat began to speed up uncontrollably.
Seems
It was the funeral father's expression that was very funny, Yuhe smiled even brighter, and then said: "I have it, I have your child, maybe after a while, my belly will start to grow." ”
Looking at Yuhe's cherished silent looking down at his flat lower abdomen, and the gentle caressing of one hand, Fu Gong felt that something seemed to bloom in his mind.
This feeling made his whole person full, but everything in front of him seemed so unreal.
"Master...... You're married. ”
Hearing this, Zhang Liangsheng muttered in some surprise, his eyes full of incredulity.
Fu Gong just smiled lightly, there were many things he didn't know, or rather, more shocking things were still to come.
Later, when reason took over his brain again, he came to his own answer: yes, he should go on like this.
And you should work hard to continue to maintain this ordinary life with your wife, and you should continue to make efforts.
The uneasiness he felt came from the fact that he had stopped making progress as a funeral master and had lost the goal of his efforts.
But when his wife says she's pregnant, a new direction and goal seems to emerge in his life.
Take good care of your wife and children, and form a family that is neither big nor small, but only belongs to yourself. At the very least, you shouldn't let your children suffer the same thing as you.
His past was occupied by cruel bullying, and for him, it was almost an important event that distorted his personality as a person. As soon as he thought that his children might encounter this kind of thing in the future, Fu Gong felt an incomparable anger welling up in his heart, and this anger made it difficult for him to stay sane.
This was the first violent mood swing since the beginning of a peaceful life, and every time he thought that a new life was being conceived in his wife's flat abdomen, he felt warm all over his body.
It's like basking in the sun, you can forget all the troubles in the world, only what you can see and hear in your eyes is real, and everything in the past is just a dream.
At this time, the funeral duke had to admit that marrying Yuhe and having children, living an ordinary life like this was already irreplaceable for him.
His wife occupies a very important proportion of his current life, and when she began to get pregnant, the funeral father also knew that he could no longer live only for himself, and he was confused only for himself.
As a funeral master, the funeral began to reflect on his past life, miserable bullying, and cruel revenge, which seemed to constitute his personality.
But after the revenge, the funeral prince found that nothing had been resolved, he only became more hollow, if he hadn't met his wife, I am afraid he would still be wandering like a ghost who has not gone to the place.
The ordinary arrival is always so quiet, it will not make any big noise, nor will it set off any huge waves in the hearts of the people who are about to approach, but it slowly brings its own weight, and gradually inhabits there, giving people a new strength to live.
In his life after knowing that his wife was pregnant, the funeral father no longer had the slightest suspicion about Yuhe and his wife.
Whether it's revenge or conspiracy, whenever Yuhe finishes his work, he also returns home after his work, and the two of them finish dinner in the evening.
Sitting on the lawn of the courtyard, there was no dialogue, just quietly looking at the sunset
waited, and the funeral prince felt that everything was no longer important.
The memories of the past were too vague for him to remember, and a stronger strength, or rather a defensive shield, had begun to rise in his heart.
It does not let the funeral man hesitate again, makes the funeral prince more determined, and pays more attention to the ordinariness brought by the people around him.
As the saying goes, people will have at least three chances in life, and the funeral man feels that maybe this is the last chance in his life, and he must seize it.
If you are confused again, you may never have any chance again, and until the day you die, you will never want to return to ordinary and settle down.
Further down the path of the undertaker? Escape from this mortal world?
The funeral man thought, maybe if he didn't do this, there would be thousands of funeral masters who would do it, so as a little-known funeral master, he should not have any problems guarding his small ordinary life like this, right?
However, there has always been a small seed in the heart of the funeral duke, and he knows that if he really wants to live a peaceful life, he must remove this small seed.
And if you want to do this, you can't always choose to forget and escape when facing the problems of the past, but you need to face them head-on.
What is his past made of?
The funeral man himself knows the answer to this question best.
It was he who killed Yuhe's whole family with his own hands, and her life changed because of himself.
Now, whether it is himself or Yuhe, he seems to be living like a person without a past, but as a funeral father, even if he wants to escape this problem, it is impossible not to face this matter for the rest of his life.
In the past, he didn't care about eternity, in his heart, his life had no future, and he was completely paralyzed by the identity of a wanderer.
He didn't want to change at all, but now, his life has begun to take a turn for the better. Fu Gong has a new idea, he wants to live an ordinary life with Yuhe.
So, after hesitating for I don't know how many times, Fu Gong still gritted his teeth and raised this question with Yuhe. And what made him feel relieved and sad was that Yuhe did not run away.
When he asked the question, he was only slightly stunned, and then said that he would talk about it after he came back from work, and Yuhe had a very frank and natural attitude.
On the one hand, Fu Gong thought, ah, great, at least Yuhe didn't completely avoid discussing this issue in the face of himself, so it means that this may be completely solved through communication with Yuhe.
But on the other hand, the funeral prince can't ignore a possibility, that is, Yuhe's heart has never forgotten the past.
It was she who killed her whole family, her husband and children. And Yuhe's curse at that time, he didn't forget it, and Yuhe probably didn't forget it either.
He was not angry because of that sentence, on the contrary, he was even more apologetic, he knew better than anyone else that no one could bless the other in that situation.
What she did at that time was completely wrong, and Yuhe just made her own choice at that time.
In the afternoon of that day, the funeral duke was not able to work well at all, and his mind was full of things about talking to Yuhe. But after returning home, Yuhe seemed to be the same as usual, and talked to him about some trivial things in life that had no special meaning.