Chapter 41: I'm Not Afraid
I think about getting rich overnight all day long, and occasionally I think about it and talk to Mu Cheng, I don't understand why her face is always very surprised, as if I have insisted on buying lottery tickets for so many years and want to win millions of dreams is fantasy, which makes me very uncomfortable, so, these days, I am stingy and deliberately reduce her lunch to the same as me, I didn't expect this girl not only to look fat but also a little sluggish, and I didn't even notice it.
Recently, the company has been very peaceful, maybe because of the off-season, or maybe because the femme fatale is not around, with the department manager on a business trip, right?
I'm gradually able to complete the work of the two of us alone, and the people in the marketing department know each other, and the personality is almost the same, and I can find the right degree to do things. I know it's very utilitarian, but what can I do? I live in such a utilitarian society, I can't help but eat the fireworks of the world!
I heard that a big customer is coming to discuss business this afternoon, this big customer is not big, but the list in his hand is very heavy, basically whoever wins this order can be the next promotion candidate.
Oh, I forgot to say, our department has a very perverted unwritten rule, anyway, I didn't see the official version, it's really the same as Mu Cheng said, the manager in order not to let the boss think he is favoritism, but also in order to establish a concept in the hearts of employees that it is difficult to get promoted all by desperate efforts, over the years, the number of promotions every year is pitifully five, and there are no more. The old employees of our department have also come to the company for more than 20 years, and they are not at the level of deputy managers, only they are the hard-working people at the bottom, and even the supervisors are rarely promoted!
I've always been unprofitable, so I got up early today.
I worked for half an hour at the dresser at home and put on a very subtle but delicate light makeup, and I thought that with a little embellishment of my mature electric eyes, I might be the candidate!
However, I have never been a lucky person, except for the fact that Brother Xiao Ran 'supported' me, I have hardly ever been lucky.
Originally, I had already begged my colleague who had a strong relationship with me and ate my sweet and sour pork ribs and salt and pepper chicken at noon for this opportunity, but when I pushed open the door of the conference room, I admit that I was timid.
I've met Zhuo Ou.
I still remember the last time I saw him, my panic broke half of my face, and today's panic is more than a hundred times more than the last time.
I didn't bother to think about whether he had seen me, so I turned around and staggered back to the office, shoved my materials into the colleague's hand, and stammered a little to tell him to hurry to the client.
He looked at the material I had stuffed in his arms and asked, "Is this the plan?" β
I nodded, pushed him a few steps and opened the door for him, urging: "Go quickly, the customers have arrived!" β
After seeing off the colleague, I let out a long sigh of relief, slowly walked to my seat, and looked at myself in the mirror hanging on the partition, a little embarrassed.
For a moment, I felt like I was in a special position! When I was fifteen years old, I was determined that I would have to accede to his request to see Zoor again, and the courage to win him down was no longer there. As soon as I saw him, I panicked, as if I was being stared at by the teacher when I took the test Marx cheat sheet, and it was also like seeing the person I liked, that kind of panic.
I thought I had escaped Zhuo Ou, because the colleague came back with a smile on his face after going to see Zhuo Ou with my plan of preparing for two or three days and staying up all night. No need to ask, he succeeded.
I still think too simply, I habitually get off work half an hour late, wait for me to take the elevator downstairs alone, there is Zhuo Ou standing in front of the door, he is smiling at me, very kind of spring breeze.
Zhuo Ou stood beside a girl dressed gently, which was the same as the temperament of Barbie, the temperament of an aristocratic daughter. If it weren't for the fact that this girl stepped forward and grabbed Zhuo'ou's arm the moment she saw me, I might have thought that Zhuo'ou was here for me.
These few seconds were not enough time for me to think too much, I just wanted to walk over, whether I should pretend that I didn't recognize it at all, or smile and say something nonsense like a long time no see.
Before I could speak, though, Zoo had already blocked my way, and I didn't have time to say my first sentence, and then he stopped me from saying the latter.
He said, "Shall we get together?" β
We? It's us again!
Now that he's talking, how else can I disguise it? Besides, I also wanted to stay with him, and I couldn't tell what it was, so I thought, watching and listening to him, even if his eyes weren't on me.
Perhaps, liking someone is like that, right? Wholeheartedly and willingly, even if you know that you shouldn't even have thoughts, you can only suppress the matter of liking him in the bottom of your heart so that no one will notice it, hide in the corner and observe silently, it doesn't matter if you are humble.
I smiled faintly, I thought, I should be quite elegant now, after all, I used to practice a flower-like smile in the morning when I was applying makeup.
I asked, "Where to go?" β
Zhuo Ou laughed too, and I think he liked to laugh a lot.
"Take my car."
After Zhuo Ou finished speaking, he walked towards the car on the side of the road, and to my surprise, the girl who was holding him just now turned around and walked towards the Mushi Hall, slowly turning, and her figure disappeared into the corner of the elevator room.
What's going on?
I muttered in my heart while walking slowly, Zhuo Ou didn't urge me, I walked for five minutes at a distance of fifty meters, and then I got into Zhuo Ou's car.
There were only two of us in the car, and he didn't move, and I kind of regretted that I got up so early, and I was in the passenger seat because of the damn etiquette lessons. In case of... He is the one who is waiting for him, his one is coming, what should I do?
I nervously grabbed my bag strap and stared at the door of Mu Shi, but fortunately I saw his one jump out of the car and roll into the back seat as soon as I saw him, but I stared and found that my gaze was shifting, not by myself, but by the car starting.
I turned my head to look at Zhuo Ou who was driving, and hesitated slightly, because I really shouldn't be nosy.
The windows were closed tightly, and he didn't even turn on the music, only the low sound of the air conditioner in the car, which made the car quieter. I inhaled unconsciously, afraid that the breathing would be too loud to break the silence in the car.
Suddenly, Zhuo Ou pulled over to the side of the road.
I was already nervous, and despite the air conditioning, I was sweating uselessly... The place where the palm of my hand held the bag strap was cold sweat, wet, he stopped like this, and I almost hit the glass in front of me because of inertia while sitting carelessly, he reached out and stopped it, and my forehead hit his palm, and his palm was also sweaty.
I turned my head to look around, there were no hotels, restaurants or meeting places, so I turned my head to look at him in confusion, and he was staring at me, his brow slightly furrowed.
I cautiously asked him, because I was afraid that he would get me out of the car in anger, and I had never been here, and I didn't know how to get back, and I didn't see any cars on the way!
I asked, "How did it stop?" β
Zhuo Ou was still staring at me, his brow furrowed even deeper, and the deep, dark underneath of his eyes was an emotion I couldn't understand.
The air in the car seemed to freeze, and I couldn't even hear the sound of breathing, for fear that I wouldn't hear his answer if I exhaled hard.
After a long time, he sighed, turned his head to look out the window, and said lightly: "Your seat belt is not fastened, and the prompt sound has been heard all the way, aren't you annoyed?" β
I swear, I really didn't hear it, and now that he says it, I realize that the beep that has been ticking just now is not my hallucination at all, but the prompt from his car.
I don't know if I was stared at by him just now, I usually sit in Xiao Ran's car, I have never been familiar with the road and wear a seat belt, I am not afraid of death today I didn't wear a seat belt, and now because of nervous sweat, I didn't pull off the seat belt twice.
Zoor may have been a little impatient, for I heard him sigh heavily, though I don't know if he was frustrated or angry. But he leaned over and fastened my seatbelt in the next second, and if it weren't for the bad vibe, I might have applauded him for his clean and skillful movements!
The car restarted again, and without the noisy prompt sound just now, Zhuo Ou seemed to be in a much better mood, and after his eyebrows were loosened, he still looked so handsome, or rather, even more handsome.
We haven't seen each other for three or four years, the last time he came to see me at school, I ran away awkwardly and didn't dare to look at him at all, the heroine temperament when I was a child has disappeared!
Zhuo Ou suddenly asked me, "You haven't thought about a question for so long, haven't you thought about it yet?" β
He didn't look at me when he asked me, but focused on the road ahead, which I appreciated very much, because no matter when, life is always the most precious, and if you are dead, what love do you have?
I tried to think about which question he was referring to, in fact, my memory is not bad, since we graduated from junior high school, he has not been around me much, and he asks very few questions, and among them, the most important ones are the two 'Is it good to be my girlfriend' (asked when I was drunk), 'Scared?' (Holding me and asking).
I thought about it for a while, but chose the latter question.
I said, "Think about it." My answer is: I'm not afraid. β
I caught a glimpse of his hands gripping the steering wheel tightly, and he smiled.
I always felt that he was laughing at me for the way he looked, because I deeply thought that I was not worthy of him.
I was a little angry, I turned my head and didn't look at him anymore, staring at the scenery flashing outside the window on the right, and suddenly I felt a chill on my neck, and his right hand was attached to my neck, slowly moving up, forcing me to look at him.
He hadn't spoken, I stared at him, attracted by his Adam's apple sliding up and down, feeling the air full of hormones, filling my nose, and just when I felt like I was about to suffocate, his right hand left my neck and stopped the car.
I subconsciously went to open the door, but it wouldn't open.
His voice sounded behind me, "Beli, do you remember the words before 'scared'?" β
I nodded, suddenly remembered something, and shook my head again, and this shake of the head, he naturally did not let me go.
He pulled me back and forced me to look him in the eye, and I had the illusion that his eyes were the glowing demon eyes of the kind of contact lenses on TV, because he was staring at me, staring at me like no hair, more than ever.
I think he went abroad, and he didn't learn anything else, but this kind of seductive look is very thorough! This also made me, a person who hates other people's admiration for foreign flattery, completely turn his face against him.
I glared at him, "What if you remember, what if you don't?" β
It's at this time that he can still laugh, and it's a very flamboyant and hearty laugh, hey~ It seems to be praising him, no, it should be a very unobstructive laugh, a very annoying laugh!
His hand was already on the back of my head, and now with a hard effort, the face between me and him, which was not far away, was almost together, although I was a lover of novels rich in theory, this kind of thing that was really close together had never been experienced, plus his hot breath hit my nose, my whole body was surrounded by his unfamiliar breath, I unconsciously wanted to retreat, but he stopped me again.
The tip of his nose touched mine, which gave me the illusion that he was going to kiss me, and I was not only instinctively resistant, but all the cells in my body were shouting 'no' and 'no'......
I pushed him away with all my might, gasping for air, as if he had just choked me, but I was just so nervous that I forgot to breathe.
I glared at him fiercely and asked, "What the hell do you want to do?" β
I was very alarmed about the state of the two of us now, I was afraid that he would say that he was going to fall in love with me, and I was afraid that I would be a little mentally tired by his ambivalence about not telling me.
Whenever this happens, the diversion of the topic that I learned from Brother Xiao Ran is very useful.
I waited for his next sentence, but he didn't say anything, so I had to open my mouth again and ask, "Who was that girl just now?" Looks pretty pretty too, hehe, whose daughter is it? β
Zhuo Ou's hand casually rested on the steering wheel and made an out of tune beat, and replied to me casually: "My fiancΓ©e, Lin's daughter." β
"Which Lin clan?"
I have unprecedented admiration for myself, and I'm afraid there aren't many people who can hold back their emotions and ask such questions at this time, right?
"Didn't you prepare today's plan? Which Lin, you don't know? Zhuo Ou squinted at me and asked, but I couldn't see any emotion in that gaze. I've never been too keen on things I'm not sure about, so I just interrupted, "Eh, didn't you say get together?" Don't get out of the car? Don't be afraid of them waiting! I was about to open the door, but I couldn't unscrew it after two twists, so I turned my head to ask Zhuo Ou for help, and when I turned my head, I saw the melancholy in his eyes that had not yet had time to hide.
I pretended not to see it, pointed to the door, and he reached out and pressed the switch on his side. However, when I got out of the car and closed the door, he kicked the accelerator, drove on, and go!