182 Low self-esteem and vulnerability
Ruotang played with his clothes, and wanted to look down at his smug and narrow appearance, but he really couldn't resist the longing in his heart, looked at his eyes, and pouted: "You are disguised like this, who can recognize you?" But look at the way I look. I knew it was you. β
After speaking, he pretended to be angry and glared at him, and said as if complaining: "Why are you here now, I've been waiting for so long!" β
"This king sees that you are very happy in this Liuguo, and I wonder if I came too early and disturbed your interest." Chu Qianlan hugged her and sat down on the trunk, and couldn't help but kiss her again and again, "Let this king take a good look - tsk, get fatter." β
His hot hand was against Ruotang's waist through his clothes, and he jokingly pinched it.
Ruotang was itched by him and writhed in his arms. Giggled: "What, disappointed? I thought I would see a bitter woman who was haggard for Yi? β
Chu Qianlan laughed, "Then forget it, it's good for you to do this." β
"Actually, you're wrong." Ruotang straightened his face and said with a straight face: "I'm not good at all." β
The smile on Chu Qianlan's face disappeared suddenly, and her eyebrows tightened: "Baili Wenhan bullied you?" β
"Nope. He treats me very well," Ruotang originally wanted to joke "Okay, I'm about to fall in love with him", seeing Chu Qianlan's nervous appearance, the joke swallowed, stroked Chu Qianlan's bearded face, stared at it for a while, and then said under his nervous gaze: "He told me a lot of things you didn't want to tell me." β
Chu Qianlan's eyes suddenly became unfathomable, but on closer examination, there was dodging and uncomfortable in it, and she said dryly: "Oh? What did he tell you? β
"What do you think of the little girl who flew a kite with me just now?" Ruotang asked instead of answering.
Chu Qianlan's expression was slightly suffocated, playing with her untied green silk. He said nonchalantly, "I'm not impressed." β
Ruotang didn't believe that he really didn't have an impression, he was not a person who did things without a plan, and before he was about to set foot on this land, he might have already felt the situation in the country of Liu. How could he hide his awkward appearance from her?
"She is the ninth princess of the Ryuk Kingdom, she is not yet the age of the title, and she is from the Shugui Concubine of the Ryuk Kingdom's favored harem. Since Concubine Shu returned to Liuguo, she has been favored and favored, but it is a pity that her children are not strong, except for ...... There is only one of the nine princesses. Ruotang looked at his eyes that clearly wanted to dodge, "Don't you have anything to tell me?" β
Chu Qianlan's brows furrowed. seemed to forcibly suppress the anger and annoyance in his heart, and said firmly: "Don't you know everything, and you still want to listen to what this king says?" Say that this king has a shameless, unkind, and ruthless mother? If he could, the king wouldn't want that kind of mother, but was that what the king could choose? β
Ruotang looked at his forbearant excitement and knew why he had refused to tell her.
He was ashamed to have such a mother.
He felt that she would look down on him because of it.
He seems to be high above and fearless, but in fact, in the deepest part of his heart, he also has an untouchable inferiority complex and vulnerability.
Ruotang raised his arm and hugged him hard: "I just don't like to know anything about you from other people, because that will make me feel that in your heart, I am still someone who is not worthy of your trust." β
Chu Qianlan's stiff body slowly relaxed under Ruotang's comfort, and she was about to explain immediately when she heard the words.
Ruotang hurriedly said again: "You can't blame me for thinking like this, think about it, start with Duan Qingyi." How much have you hidden from me? You even chose Duan Qingyi and abandoned me in front of everyone's eyes, as long as you think of this, I can't be angry! β
Chu Qianlan's mouth that she originally wanted to explain was tight, like a shell that couldn't be pried open.
Ruotang waited for a long time, but he still didn't wait for him to speak, and couldn't help but get angry, "Why, it's time for this critical moment when you are being attacked from all sides, are you still going to say nothing and be ready to carry everything by yourself?" β
"I ......" Chu Qianlan opened her mouth hesitantly, looking down at her and looking up at him with a displeased face, there was annoyance and uneasiness in her big dark eyes, but more than that, it was the expectation and a little nervousness that he could honestly tell her.
Finally, he sighed, "I never thought of putting you in danger, it's all my fault. Originally, I thought that I could take care of everything, so that you can be happy and happy every day, and you don't have to worry about other things - I originally thought so, but if I don't think about it completely, it will make you scared......"
He blamed himself even more.
Ruotang didn't wait for him to finish, and hurriedly interrupted him, "Okay, I accept your intentions." But how can anyone do anything in this world? Look at the Emperor of Great Chu, every time I see him, I think he is terrible, but in the end, it is not that he was harmed by his own son. It's good that you want me to be happy and carefree, but I know that the fire has burned on me, and I pretend to know nothing and enjoy your protectionβdo you want me to do that? β
"You can't do it." Chu Qianlan looked at her sparkling eyes with determination, even if he tried his best to hide one thing after another from her, in the end, he still had to tell her what he had painstakingly concealed at her insistence, "Okay, which thing do you want to start with?" β
"I know you're hiding a lot from me." Ruotang pretended to be dissatisfied and glared at him, then proudly gestured at him in a triumphant posture, and said in a deep voice: "Then let's start with your choice of Duan Qingyi." β
The faint smile on the corner of Chu Qianlan's mouth stiffened because of this, and her fingers subconsciously fell on the smooth and delicate skin behind her ear.
Ruotang endured the itch and looked at him, "You always touch me here while I'm asleep, I notice it." Cai Qing helped me see it, and said that there was only a small small red spot like a birthmark - this thing, is it not normal? β
Chu Qianlan didn't expect that she had already noticed it, she was slightly stunned, and took a deep breath before telling Duan Qingyi about her trick.
I thought Ruotang would be unbearable when she heard it, but she didn't want to be very calm all the time, and even the smile on her lips became deeper and deeper.
Chu Qianlan's heart was raised high, and she couldn't help but want to ask her, "Are you okay?" Ordinary people can't cry when they hear such bad news, can she still laugh?
"I knew that there was a reason why you were restrained by her, Thrush knew that you were looking for miracle doctors all over the world, and thought that Duan Qingyi had poisoned you, but I didn't expect it to be me." Ruotang leaned on his arms with a smile, swaying his feet without any psychological pressure, "It's strange that I reacted like this?" Isn't there still more than a year, more than a year, can't you and your uncle still find the emperor's doctor? β
"You're not afraid...... What if you can't find him, or if you find him but won't do it? Chu Qianlan never expected that the matter he was worried about would become such an insignificant matter when he came to her, and he had to wonder if he was too nervous before.
But thinking that this was a major matter related to her life, he couldn't help but be nervous, "I hope you will stay with me for a long time, not just ......"
"I know." Thinking of the pain and collapse in his heart when this proud and unruly man had to endure and succumb to Duan Qingyi because of him, Ruotang couldn't wait to drag the already dead Duan Qingyi out again and whip the corpse fiercely! "I want to be with you for a long time, but is it too early to worry about the pain? As long as he is alive, he can always find the Huangfu Divine Doctor, even if he finds him, but he refuses to make a move, then he will think of another way - if the Wu Clan can escape the Huangfu Divine Doctor and Duan Qingyi, is there really no one else who survives? You don't have to start despairing now, right? β
Ruotang is not afraid of death? Of course she was afraid, but Chu Qianlan in front of her was more afraid of her death than her, how could she make him more afraid and blame herself? Only by pretending not to care will he feel better. "By the way, when did Duan Qingyi attack me, why didn't I feel it at all? If you count carefully, I can't count the number of times I've met her on five fingers. β
Although Chu Qianlan was not well comforted, seeing Ruotang's still such a sunny and optimistic appearance, the gloom in her heart was swept away by her bright smiling eyes.
"When you first met her." This question, Chu Qianlan naturally asked Duan Qingyi as well.
He only felt extremely cold at that time, the first time Ruotang saw Duan Qingyi, he ordered her to go. He never dreamed that she would attack Ruotang so early.
Ruotang tried hard to recall, and finally remembered what it was like to see Duan Qingyi for the first time, "The first time she saw me, she knew that you loved me so much that I couldn't help myself?" I didn't say a word to her at the time, but I remembered......"
"What?"
"When I left, I felt like I had been bitten by something, and it hurt a little bit." Ruotang touched the back of his ear, "I thought it was mosquitoes or something, and I also asked someone to make a lot of anti-mosquito medicine bags and hang them in the room." But why on earth did she kill me as soon as she saw me? β
"I'd rather kill by mistake than let it goβI know her character too well, and even if she didn't know I liked you at the time, but you have the title of my wife, and it's not something she can bear." Chu Qianlan said slowly.
"It's not paranoia anymore, it's a perversion!" For a long time, Ruotang could only use this sentence to describe his sad mood of innocent suffering. "What did my uncle say? How did she die, causing me so miserable, my uncle shouldn't let her die easily, right? β
When Chu Qianlan heard her mention Zhou Houyuan, she was angry, "A good person handed it over to him for torture, and before he could ask for a way to solve the Gu, the person died, and he only informed me lightly, and he was angry with me!" β
"Even if my uncle doesn't kill her, I'll kill her." Ruotang held Chu Qianlan's hand, looked at his angry red eyes, and said softly: "I want to live for a long time, but I am never willing to exchange your dignity and pain for my chance to live!" β
"Silly." Chu Qianlan only felt that her eyes seemed to be getting hotter and hotter, and even her lips seemed to tremble a little, "It's not as serious as you said, if I can exchange your chance to live because of this, I ...... If you are willing to eat it, you don't feel any grievances and pain, don't think about it. β
"Of course I don't think about it." Ruotang smiled and exhaled, "Since Duan Qingyi is dead, we won't mention her - my brother-in-law has already arrived?" Have you ever seen him? β
"He arrived in Ryu before me, and I haven't gone to him yet." As soon as he arrived in Ryuki, after making some arrangements, he knew that she was going out, so he put down what he was doing and rushed over. What's more, because Zhou Houyuan killed Duan Qingyi, he was still very annoyed with him, and he didn't want to see him now.
"Can you arrange for me to meet with him? I still want to ask him something. Ruotang thought about it, but there was still only the joy of reunion on his face, and there was no haze at all.
She was so sensible, but it made Chu Qianlan cherish her even more, "Okay, I'll arrange it as soon as possible." Bear with me a little longer, and I'll be able to take you away soon. "The saint is handsome.
Ruotang is not as optimistic as him, "Baili Wenhan once told me that not only did he want to take me to Liuguo, but Concubine Shugui also sent someone to rob me, and I also knew that she was going to force you to obey me, and she would not let us go easily." If you want to get past her, you'll have to face her head-on β are you ready? β
Chu Qianlan's eyes were gloomy, and the corners of her mouth hooked up a smile that seemed to be a smile but not a smile, "Face it directly, can I still be afraid of her?" β