"Don't you like Chinese New Year?" Zhao Xin'er looked at Li Yifan next to her, originally thought that no matter who she was, he would be very happy when he mentioned going home for the New Year, but he didn't expect that when he mentioned this matter, Li Yifan and his whole person were not the slightest happy, but still looked worried.

"En......" Li Yifan looked out of the car window on the other side and replied, he knew that he couldn't hide anything from Zhao Xin'er, so he didn't deliberately hide anything, but he still couldn't control his mind, and he would still recall the bits and pieces of the past New Year.

"I wanted to say that there are still people who don't like the New Year! Hehe, but think about it, I'm also a person who doesn't like Chinese New Year. Zhao Xin'er no longer looked at Li Yifan, but said to herself.

"For a long time, I only had my mother in my life, and she also had only me in her life, and we both lived together for our lives, even if she remarried later, she never abandoned me."

"But, ha...... I sometimes really hate my 'ears' that can hear other people's inner thoughts, otherwise I would always think that my mother and me, neither of us can leave each other...... I...... I've never been a burden to her. ”

Zhao Xin'er looked out the window, and her appearance was reflected in the car window, so sad and helpless.

What she said was like Li Yifan's heart, when she was young, I don't know how many people used the words 'cumbersome, dragging oil bottles, and broom stars' to describe him.

At that time, he felt that his mother, who had always been by his side, was his only support. But later, the two old and one young in the family completely tied up their mother, and their mother's best years were also dedicated to this family.

Although his mother has never complained about anything, but occasionally from his mother's tired and irritable state with nowhere to vent, Li Yifan can feel that his mother is also unwilling and tired of all this.

After all, her mother is facing the parents of her husband, who once loved deeply, but later cheated on her husband because of family pressure and her son's illness, and finally died tragically in a car accident, as well as their common son.

What is left behind will only remind the mother of the hurt she once had, as well as the perseverance, the effort to cure her son's illness, and the lost financial resources and experiences, and even love and family affection.

When he was a child, Li Yifan knew from others that all kinds of difficulties and misfortunes in the family were all because of him. Even the grandparents under the same roof, in the first period of their father's death, they would also complain hoarsely.

"If it weren't for your ghostly illness back then, how could your father quarrel with your mother every day, in order to treat you, he spent all the money, and he went out to find another woman because you couldn't bear the pressure!

If it weren't for you, how could your parents have divorced! You're a disaster, you should have asked your dad to throw you to the orphanage and have another one. This is what Li Yifan has heard of his own words that hurt him the most.

Compared with the words of his classmates who scolded him for being a psychopath, an idiot, and a madman every day before and after his many transfers, beating him with pebbles and paper balls, and spitting on him, the words of his grandmother and grandfather made him even more heartbroken.

In his childhood, Li Yifan's family faced him who would suddenly be chattered, and he would be talked about behind his back when he went out, and he would just be regarded as an imaginative child by his mother alone, or directly regarded as a neurotic by everyone else.

In small cities, they didn't see a psychiatrist at all, until Su Keer's death and the complete outbreak and deterioration of Li Yifan's condition, so that his parents completely broke the relationship between the two in order to see him, and they would not lose so much financial and material resources.

Thinking of the New Year, everyone in the family will gather together, and Li Yifan will be inexplicably flustered. At home, everyone will unconsciously think that he is mentally ill, like they all think that he will suddenly go crazy, or that paranoia will be contagious, and stay away from him.

University is the best choice for Li Yifan to escape and stay away from that place, but every year during the Chinese New Year, at the strong request of his mother, he still has to go back to stay for a while, but even if he goes back, except for his mother, no one will give him a good look.

"Alas~" Li Yifan let out a long sigh, leaning back in his seat, he touched the wound under the watch on his left hand, if it wasn't for Bai Ran that time, he might be able to get rid of all this completely.

That was when he was just admitted to high school, in the best high school in the city, no matter how he avoided it, he would still meet people who knew him in elementary school, and their gossip made the emotions that had been suppressed by him completely explode, and finally wanted to choose suicide, but in the end, it was Bai Ran's sudden return that changed him.

When the knife wound had just bled out, Bai Ran's persistent belief completely saved Li Yifan.

"Since I saved you, then you give me a good life." In the end, Bai Ran accompanied Li Yifan out of the hospital, looked at his hand wrapped in gauze, and said. "Not only to live, but also to live happily and happily."

"After persevering for three years, when the exam is out, no one will leave behind everything you used to be here, put aside all the haze, and go to live a new and strong life." Bai Ran's words echoed in Li Yifan's mind at this moment.

Now it is different, he will never choose death again, he finds the meaning of being strong to live, and he has to do things that must be done, save those who are dying, and at the same time have to avenge the wrongs of those who have died.

He wants to avenge Su Ke'er and make up for his guilt for not standing up because of cowardice. No matter how much effort and cost he takes, he must find the person behind all this evil and bring him to justice.

"And relatives over there?" Li Yifan stabilized his inner emotions and stopped thinking crankily in his heart, after all, Zhao Xin'er knew everything he was thinking without missing anything.

"Well, I want to go back and worship my sister." Zhao Xin'er looked at Li Yifan and replied.

No matter when Su Keer was mentioned, Li Yifan always had endless self-blame in his heart, he frowned slightly, bit his lower lip, and finally held all the words in his heart, and did not say a word again.

"Back then...... Even if you stand up and explain what you saw that day, it won't change anything. Zhao Xin'er looked back at Li Yifan and said with a smile.

"No one will believe a child, or a 'sick' child! It's like when you shouted the truth in the police bureau, no one would pay attention. ”

"Just as I told my mother at the time that my sister's death had something to do with that teacher, they wouldn't immediately criticize a good teacher for a child they thought was ignorant and inexplicable."

"Fate will always be like this, he will not be satisfied because he has brought you a great misfortune." Zhao Xin'er looked at the passing scenery outside the car window and said.

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