Su Xiaoran had been eating absent-mindedly at this meal, Gu Bei and Qiqi chatted a few words, and seeing Su Xiaoran's preoccupied appearance, he didn't say anything more.

She was really choked today, she was beaten and scolded by the flower mother, where did Su Xiaoran suffer such grievances? Su's father and Su's mother have loved her in every way since she was a child, and she is reluctant to let her suffer a little grievance.

Not to say weak, Qiqi knows Su Xiaoran, maybe she really misses a little bit of possible family affection, so when she hears that Xiaomeng is seriously ill, she will naturally react to worry about her, although they don't welcome her to visit at all.

When I came out of the hotel, I happened to encounter the first snow of the year, and the snowflakes fell down, and there was an inexplicable beauty. Su Xiaoran spread out her palm and took the snowflakes, which withered and then disappeared, like what?

"It's cold outside, I'll drive you back." Gu Bei hurriedly wanted to drive the car over, Su Xiaoran took Qiqi's hand, and as soon as it was cold, they habitually held hands. Over the years, both of them seem to have spent the winter like this.

"Qiqi, you say...... Isn't this year's winter a little early? Su Xiaoran looked up at the falling snowflakes and asked coldly. Qiqi pouted, she has never been so sensitive to the changes of the four seasons, besides, she likes winter, especially likes to sleep in the warm quilt when it is very cold, so for her, the earlier the winter, the better.

However, Su Xiaoran is not like this, she is so afraid of the cold, and so afraid of depression and silence and indifference, and this is all accompanied by winter.

Isn't it going to take a long time to look forward to next spring?

Gu Bei drove the car, Qiqi was happy to get in the car, but Su Xiaoran hesitated and stood in place. Gu Bei rolled down the window, "What's wrong?" ”

"You send Qiqi back, I want to walk alone."

"What are you doing, it's a big night, it's snowing, where do you want to run alone?" Qiqi is very worried, Su Xiaoran doesn't seem to be ordinary sad this time, it would be fine if she scolded or cried as usual, but now she looks very calm, and there is no wave in her eyes, but it is this calmness that makes Qiqi scared.

The current Su Xiaoran, is she still the Su Xiaoran she knew before?

"I just want to walk alone, don't worry, I'll be back in a while." Su Xiaoran insisted, Qiqi also knew her character, so she didn't force it anymore, although Gu Bei was very worried that Su Xiaoran was alone, but there was no reason to stay with her.

Perhaps now, giving her a quiet space is the best comfort for her.

……

Qiqi got into Gu Bei's car and left. Su Xiaoran watched them go away, and then walked forward. She needs time, space to think about the relationship. In the end, it's to stick with it or give up.

At first, she thought that the idea of giving up this relationship suddenly came to her because of Xiaomeng's repeated entanglement, but then she slowly realized that maybe there was a rift between her and Chenxi not because of Xiaomeng, maybe from the beginning, this was a mistake, a mistake made by impulse.

That time happened to be her hardest time, witnessing Ji Ren holding other brides, she fell into a bottomless dark world, and Chenxi happened to appear at that time, he gave her new hope, new warmth, so that she was on the edge of the cliff and rekindled her hope for love.

That's why she blindly asks for it, thinking that she wants to grab these things, because she is afraid that maybe some inadvertently, all the hard-earned things will disappear.

A person who is insecure is destined to be an emotional failure, and for her, having it is more important than being loved.

And now, when she gradually understands herself, after understanding herself, looking back at the footprints along the way, she realizes how naïve she used to be, Chenxi is like a distant planet, she regards faith as love, and worship as the driving force for chasing.

She loved him, but that kind of love was too unfair. In the same way, he may also love her, but in his heart, he is destined to always have a place for someone else.

The body gradually became slightly cooler, and the exposed ears and nose were frozen, Su Xiaoran couldn't help but walk into a coffee shop, found a place to sit down, and planned to wait for the snow to stop before leaving.

The waiter greeted her warmly, and Su Xiaoran took out her frozen fingers from her pocket, slid them over the list, and finally stopped in one place.

"especial, thank you."

"Wait a minute."

The sweet-looking waiter left with a smile, and Su Xiaoran half-held her chin, looking at the snow that was still fluttering outside the window.

"Long time no see."

A gentle voice came, and Su Xiaoran turned his head, only to find that there was a person standing in front of him. Flat head, smart suit, warm smile.

It's Kihito.

Surprise is more than everything, Su Xiaoran didn't expect that in this corner of the city, he could meet Ji Ren again.

I can't say what's wrong, but now Ji Ren seems to be different from the last time we met.

"Don't mind if I sit down."

Ji Ren is a lot more polite than before, but he still has a good-looking smile on his face. Su Xiaoran didn't speak, so he took her as a default.

"I'm waiting for the snow to stop, are you?"

Kiren had a cup of coffee in his hand, apparently from another table. Su Xiaoran nodded and raised her eyes to look at Ji Ren. Life is really magical, people who used to like it so much suddenly don't like it one day, people who used to get along day and night may never see each other again one day, and people who once thought they were the most familiar with will one day become strangers.

And she and Ji Ren, going around and around, from strangers, to acquaintances, to love, to hurting each other, until now, they can sit in front of each other calmly, as if nothing has changed, and it seems that they can never go back.

"It's been months, you...... Are you okay? ”

When Ji Ren said this, he habitually looked at Su Xiaoran's abdomen, Su Xiaoran subconsciously touched his abdomen, if it wasn't for that accident, maybe he would be about to give birth?

Child, she never thought that she would be a mother one day, she was still a child herself.

"It's alright, what about you?" Su Xiaoran finally showed a fairly natural smile to Ji Ren. Ji Ren looked at her silently, a faint smile rippled out of the corner of his eyes.

"Why are you alone, boyfriend?"

"I went out to buy something, and it happened to be snowing." Su Xiaoran said, picked up the coffee and took a sip of it, it was very bitter.

"You never drank coffee before, why do you still drink such bitter coffee?" Ji Ren's eyes fell on the Italian condensement in Su Xiaoran's hand, and his eyes could not hide the look of surprise.

"I drink too much sweet, and I always want to try the bitter ones, and I don't drink them often." Su Xiaoran put down the cup and turned her head to look at the snow outside the window again.

"Su Xiaoran."

Su Xiaoran turned her head, it was Ji Ren calling her.

"Nothing...... Since we met today, I feel compelled to say sorry to you. After all...... I was such a jerk before. ”

An unnatural smile appeared on Ji Ren's face, Su Xiaoran pursed her lips, she still liked the previous Ji Ren.

"I said a long time ago that no love and no hate is the best relationship we have now. Ji Ren, you really don't need to apologize all the time, it's already good that we met once and can say hello to each other when we meet in the future. ”

As he spoke, the two looked at each other and suddenly laughed.

Ji Ren went back first, he was going to send one to Su Xiaoran, but she refused.

The relationship between the two can only go so far. Su Xiaoran sat by the window, watching Ji Ren disappear into the flying snowflakes, then turned his head and continued to taste his coffee.

It wasn't until eleven o'clock in the evening that Su Xiaoran got up to go home. As usual, I flagged down a taxi, and then, sitting in the car, listening to the radio, or listening to the happy or sad songs that the driver played, I was taken back to my house in front of many forks in the city through the night.

When she got home, Su Xiaoran suddenly wanted to say goodnight to Qiqi, she sent a message to Qiqi, saying that she had arrived home safely, telling her not to worry, and then she lay in the bathtub beautifully, surrounded by warmth and isolated from the cold.

……

Following.

As soon as dawn Su Xiaoran received a call from Chenxi, she sat up, looked at the familiar number displayed on the mobile phone screen, was stunned for a while, and then pressed the answer button.

"I just got off the plane right now." Chenxi's voice sounded a little tired. Su Xiaoran got off the ground, opened the curtains, and a bright light pierced into his eyes. The outside world was white, and overnight, the land was covered with snow.

It must be cold outside, right?

"Are you listening to me?" Chenxi's voice came again, this time, with some worry in his tired voice.

Su Xiaoran opened the window, took a sharp breath of cold breath, and then closed his eyes, "Chenxi, let's break up." ”

……

It has been said that the greatest pain of a breakup is not that you have lost someone you once loved so much, but that you can't get used to living without him from now on. Whether it is desolate or beautiful, there is no other in this life.

Qiqi said that her most painful breakup experience was the one she broke up with Wan Lei. It's not because she can't die without him, but because she can't accept that the feelings she really gives are just a scam.

You love him very much, but he's just enjoying the game of love.

Qiqi said that deception is the most terrible, and she is not afraid of the others.

Time passed very slowly, Su Xiaoran was lying on the sofa, her eyes were blank, and her body was unconscious. She didn't know where she got the courage to say the word breakup, she only knew that after saying that, she hung up the phone and lay down until now.