Recently, the influenza has been raging, my mother has always been in poor health, the cold has not improved for more than half a month, fever and cough, dizzy and unable to get out of bed.

Looking at my mother's gray hair, I suddenly felt very guilty. When my mother gave birth to me, I was considered an advanced maternal age, compared with my peers, my mother was always different, every time I went out with my mother, some people would sigh: Sister, my granddaughter is so old!

Like many children who lack father's love, children like us who are single parents always have low self-esteem, but they are unwilling to express it, and often pretend to be indestructible.

I only have my mother in my life, and I have to support my brother and me, and the woman who runs the field is always more strong and less tender. When I had a parent-teacher conference in the second year of junior high school, other people's children would always snuggle up in their mother's arms with a happy face, telling gossip stories in the class, and my mother would point to my nose in front of many teachers and classmates: "You see you know how to eat in a day, look at who ······ you"

At that time, I secretly made up my mind that I was going to school outside, and I wanted to stay away from our queen mother! Study hard, live up to the trust, high school, college are finally liberated, long live freedom.

has been drifting outside for seven years, and I still know how to go home during the high school holidays, and during the four-year college vacation, I would rather watch the Spring Festival Gala alone at school with the doorman than go home.

I didn't plan to come back from work, but when I graduated, I was going to tell my mother that I was going to work outside, but my mother just said: "If you go outside, you won't even see the last time when I leave, will you regret it?" ”

Say nothing and go home.

I always thought that my mother was an invincible strong woman, and over the years of doing business outside, carrying goods, fighting, doing everything, being pungent and famous, men who did business together would give my mother a thumbs up, but I never thought that the years were the most unforgiving. The mother who used to walk with wind on the soles of her feet has become a trembling old lady, and the spicy woman who used to have an unforgiving mouth is now full of tenderness in her eyes.

I ordered a small coffee table for my mother, and when I took a hammer to change the cone when I was assembling the coffee table, my mother was happy: "You said how good it would be if you were a boy, it's a big deal to marry you a daughter-in-law······

My mother has been unwell and is ready to have surgery, but because I have been very busy with work, I am afraid that I will not have time to take care of it, so I have been dragging it. It was rare not to work overtime after work that day, so I bought the fruit she liked to eat to see her, and my mother curled up on the bed, like a porcelain doll, afraid that it would break if I touched it. I woke my mother up to eat, but my mother took my hand and gave me the jewelry she had worn for many years: "I'm afraid that if I fall one day, I will be unconscious, and if you take these, it will be a thought······" Listening to this, I feel sad and guilty, yes, I have always wanted to be far away from home all these years, and finally I realized that home is just an empty shell, where my mother is, where is home.

In the past two days, my mother has gotten better, returned to her original state, and can argue every day. The toilet seat at my mother's house was broken, and I went to install it when I ordered it online. My mother saw me tinkering in the bathroom with the instructions and the cone, and laughed, "Why don't you look like a girl at all!" If you have a son-in-law, you don't need to do these things! I was also merciless: "I can do these things myself, so why bother others?" Two days ago, I saw a paragraph on the Internet, saying that before the divorce, the water pipe in the house was broken, and my husband was asked to repair it, but the repair was repaired, but the bathroom was a mess, and the tools were also placed on the ground, and the husband sat on the sofa with Erlang's legs crossed, waiting for his wife to praise him attentively; But after the divorce, the water pipe at home was broken, and it cost 200 yuan to hire a skilled worker to repair it, and when he left, he not only restored the bathroom to its original state, but also carried the garbage at the door with his hands. You see, you can solve things that can be solved by spending money, and you are still comfortable, but you are also tired of bothering others. The mother was speechless, so she could only say fiercely: "I don't care, anyway, everyone is married one by one, I am just such a daughter, if no one wants to put my old face anywhere!" I said, "It's okay, don't go out in the future, it's over, I definitely won't laugh at you, no matter how big it is, we'll move to a place that no one knows, anyway, now I'm relying on you, and I'm not going anywhere." ”

The day before yesterday, I had a video with Yue Yue'er, chatted about this, and said that the woman was not staying, and she was also knocked on the side by her parents, and we sighed together, I wanted to find a man who could shelter us from the wind and rain, but in the end, I didn't expect that the wind and rain were brought by him, haha.

Anyway, when life reaches the bottom, no matter which direction you go from, it's all up, just like that, no one wants it, no one wants it, I still have a mother, I don't want anything, I watched Da Bing's "I Don't" in the past two days, and there is a sentence in it that deeply touched me: "If you are in your early thirties and running up to forty, don't tell me anything about wandering the world, when you have the ability to wander the world, take your mother with you." ”

In the new year, I hope that my mother can age a little slower, and I want to take my mother with me when I wander the world, and don't leave myself with regrets, so I decided.

Attached: Lin Youjia's "Elephant Stage" lyrics:

My mom

It's been decades since I left

Well recently

You okay

From the front door

There's a rock elephant stage

Time is gone

Mommy my mom

You are the bravest man in the world

You don't understand at first

At first you tremble

In the end, they decided to raise me

Mommy my mom

It's that I miss you so much now

When you can't sleep

When dreaming

I still fantasize that you are holding me

to the Elephant Stage

Mom asked me to hold your hand

Go around the world

So it was decided

Mommy my mom

You are the bravest man in the world

You don't understand at first

At first you tremble

In the end, they decided to raise me

Mommy my mom

It's that I miss you so much now

When you can't sleep

When dreaming

I still fantasize that you are holding me

to the Elephant Stage

Elephant Stage, Elephant Stage, Elephant Stage

My sweet dream

Don't wake up