I am alive and alive, and I am finally looking forward to growing up, thinking that I can finally get rid of the shackles of my parents and live the life I want freely. But I found that I was still tooyoung and too simple, and as I grew older, there would only be more and more troubles, and there would be more and more worries.

At the beginning of the new year, I also ushered in the embarrassing age of 24 years old, in the tradition of the Hui people, girls generally have their own families at the age of 18, and at the age of me, they have already become "older leftover girls". Is there any progress? When are you going to start······ And my colleagues in the unit are also heartbroken for me, and every time I chat with my colleagues, I will say: Have you found a partner recently? I'll introduce you to one! Huh·····

My classmates are also anxious, as long as they see a boy of the Hui nationality and about the same age as me, they will actively recommend me to him, no, I recently had a very unpleasant experience.

Let's call this man a certain gentleman for the time being. It was introduced by someone during the training in Yinchuan, and it was a coincidence that I happened to graduate from the same high school, so I can be regarded as my senior. At first, it wasn't very awkward to get along, but after a few meals, I found that a certain gentleman was not good at words, so it became that I had nothing to say. I have always felt that whether two people can go together for a long time, whether their personalities and values match is the most important thing. Because most people are impatient, after the freshness has passed, there will be only two people left staring at each other, and if there is any more accident, then the relationship will also come to an end.

And I'm playful by nature, and I'm a person who is keen to toss and unwilling to settle for the status quo, so my other half, if not a person who tosses like me, must at least be someone who will tolerate me, not someone who wants to completely transform me into the girl next door. I also know that I am a person with many flaws, and my partner will not be a perfect person either. But being together is a process of constantly discovering each other's shining points, and it is also a process of appreciating each other, not comparing who is more powerful or who is more unbearable, which is the least respect for each other.

So I decided not to waste each other's time and energy, so I sent a WeChat message to a certain gentleman: I think we may not be very suitable, maybe there is no fate, I don't want to disturb your life in the future, I wish you to find happiness as soon as possible. Not long after, I received a reply from a certain gentleman: I don't like girls like you!

The moment I saw it, I was stunned, it turned out that boys would turn their faces faster than flipping books, and the day before they would post affectionate words like "I will always wait for you to like me" and the next day they would say "I don't like girls like you" such decisive words. At that moment, I felt that my self-esteem was so badly damaged that I even wanted to ask him if he had been in vain for the past month. But soon, I was relieved, even if I encountered a big setback, I couldn't lose my principles, dignity is not given by others, it is fought for by myself, and when I leave, I must turn around gracefully, maintain my only remaining dignity, and don't let myself show my unbearable side to the fullest, otherwise it will only make the other party happy and ridiculed.

During the holidays, I accompanied my mother to watch the TV series "Apocalypse of Life", in which Kevin said to Dudu, "Life can be lived well, or it can be exquisite." "We are all born in such a peaceful and stable era, if we no longer pursue something, then life is not too boring, if I have a choice, I would rather die alone than find someone casually will make up for a lifetime. I still have a lot of responsibilities in this world that I haven't done, I haven't seen a lot of scenery, I haven't tasted a lot of food, and I can't just smooth out my edges and corners in trivial quarrels.

No matter how bad life is, you must maintain your own elegance, I will not doubt this, nor will I give up the pursuit because of such a gentleman, if there is no right person, I will live such a life: a pot of tea and two books, accompanied by music and self-sufficiency.