Tears

"Would you be sad if I disappeared one day?"

"I don't know"

"So, if one day I die, will you cry?"

"I... I do not know! ”

Bitter smile, I know, your so-called tears, so-called persistence, forever... None of them will appear on me.

* * *

"Xue, can I recognize you as my sister?" You smiled and asked the cute elementary school girl in front of you.

"Ahh

"Okay..."

After nearly 1 minute, the answer was naturally spoken. Maybe it's because I'm too happy that others have agreed to my request, Yu didn't notice Yuki's expression, there was a trace of loss, a trace of sadness.

"Ah, I'll have a sister in the future?" You're smiling.

smiled faintly, a very natural look, but his calm heart told Xue that he was not strong at all.

* * *

I thought that I would never have anything to touch my heart easily except for something that attracted me. However, the boy bathed in the sun, his smile like a warm sun, easily opened the door of his heart. His eyes and smile tugged at his heart.

I've always been eager to call him by name. Then, he turned around, smiled and nodded at me, and then said to me gently, "Snow, what's the matter?" ”

But I knew that it was impossible, there were too many things, like a wall, separating me from him, so that I could not step into his world, but suddenly one day, he said to me, "Snow, I've always liked Sakura, you know?" ”

He spoke a little seriously, and his usual smiling face disappeared. I know, he's serious this time.

"Really...?" His heart throbbed, and he said with some bitterness. Just a two-word answer used up all my strength, I desperately suppressed the tears in my eyes, didn't let myself cry, didn't let him hear the tremor in my voice, I couldn't help it, I was about to cry.

"I really like her, but she is very good, and there are many boys who like her, and I am just her classmate, and I am not qualified to like her at all!" He said it with some sadness.

"Coward!" He lowered his head and said in a somewhat sarcastic tone. Actually, what I really want to say is not like that.

It's yourself who is really timid.

I really want to say, you, if another person doesn't love you, it doesn't mean that no one in the world loves you! But some people don't say: love is not just about wanting to be together, the most important thing is the happiness of the other party. As long as the other person is happy, that's good! ... Right... As long as there is happiness, that's good... It's true...

I thought silently in my heart.

In the days that followed, I continued to read books about love, from romance novels to love treasures, and I almost felt that I had really become a different person, and I felt strange to myself.

Whenever I'm tired of lying in bed, I always like to stare straight at the ceiling, and every time I think of Yu and another girl together, my heart will ache faintly, sometimes it hurts so much that people can't breathe, but every time I think of Yuu's happy smiling face, the pain in my heart will slowly ease.

It turns out that love can really save people!

* * *

"Snow, let's socialize!" Yu looked at the person in front of him again, and said with a calm smile.

"You, don't you like it..."Xue asked in some surprise, but she was a little happy in her heart, probably a dream. Snow thought.

"Really, I found out that it was you who have been silently helping me by my side! Socialize with me! ”

The little head rested on You's broad shoulders, there was a warm feeling, Xue quietly closed her eyes, silently feeling, I hope this is not a dream!

In the days that followed, Yuu often spent time with Snow, dating, shopping, taking pictures, eating, and then coming home from school together, playing and making trouble, looking very happy.

But someone once said that happiness comes quickly, goes faster, and sometimes, he still flies far away.

* * *

"Hey, did you hear that, Sakura has a boyfriend!"

"yes, it seems to be the one in the same class as her!"

When he walked side by side with Yuu, he heard the girl next to him whispering.

Looking up at the expressionless Yuu, I knew that I had lost, and I had lost so badly, and I had lost decently.

"Let's go, Yu, the lunch break is coming to an end," pretending that nothing had happened, and said softly to the lover beside him.

"......" was silent, he still didn't react, his cold blue eyes were full of the word "hurt".

Then, completely ignoring the me beside me, he ran away.

Looking at her distant back, I knew that he was gone again, completely out of my world. It turned out that when I woke up from the dream, the feeling was really desolate.

My heart hurt again, I couldn't breathe, I squatted on the ground in pain, my hands tightly covered my chest, excellent, excellent, excellent......

Then, I lowered my head, and I didn't know what I was doing, it turned out ... I cried.

* * *

"Snow, let's break up!"

Again in that place, under that cherry blossom tree, I remember, you used to say the same thing to me, from my sister, to my lover, to everything now, it seems, always in that place!

"Good!" Once again, I deceived myself.

Don't be good, good, what don't you like about me, I'll change, I'll change it? Don't leave me, Yu!

"I'm sorry, really!"

You've never liked me, have you, you?

"Again, I've always wanted to ask you a question"

"Say it!"

"When you were with me... Do you feel anything? ”

Even if it's a lie, you'll be fine.

"It feels... No, it's just a normal feeling! ”

You's words were like a sharp knife, stabbing into my heart fiercely, and I couldn't breathe.

"Thank you and goodbye!"

Running fast until exhausted, the rain was falling, mixed with burning tears, slowly staying, it was his eternal pain.

Last night, I remember very clearly, every moment we were together, I could even see you smiling at me on the glass window, and I could even see you smiling towards me in my dreams and then saying to me

"Snow, let's go home!"

But today, I can't remember anything... It turns out that the first one is so fragile!

* * *

"Would you be sad if I disappeared one day?"

"I don't know"

"So, if one day I die, will you cry?"

"I... I do not know! ”

If one day, you can go to my heart, please be sure to leave a tear and let me know that you are not so indifferent to me.

If one day, I can go to your heart, I will definitely leave a tear and let you know that love someone... Really, so difficult...

When I closed my eyes heavily, I seemed to see you smiling at me, and I wanted to say to you, "You, this time, I don't want to cry again..." Really...

You pick me up, and a tear falls from the corner of your eye...... Didn't you say yes and don't cry! Really... You really don't talk much!

"Snow, I'm sorry, I love you!"

You said eagerly...... But these things don't matter to me anymore, because, you're crying...

by Xuan Ye