I'm depressed, indescribable, I don't feel embarrassed (the point is that I've experienced too many embarrassing things, I've long been numb). Since it's not, then wait. However, I'm also a little annoyed, it's really unreasonable, Yun wears a red windbreaker, and you also wear a red windbreaker, taking advantage of what's the fun, isn't this deliberately embarrassing me and making me ugly? Wait and wait, I feel a scream, I look around strangely, only to find that it is my stomach that screams, I smiled bitterly, brother, let you suffer, if you can wait for the clouds tonight, I will let you eat the delicacies of the mountains and seas; If you can't wait, I'm sorry, it's still instant noodles (in fact, I've been eating instant noodles for the past two days). The night is getting darker and brighter, and the lights in the square are getting brighter and brighter. I looked at my watch, it was already 8 o'clock in the evening, I was like a prick in the butt, I grabbed the flowers and ran, the cloud could not appear at the train station, but she could appear on the computer.

A disheveled man sits in a chair. A closer look reveals that he has shaggy hair, long stubble, and a sluggish image. But his eyes glowed like the eyes of a beast, staring at the computer screen. This person is me. I've been searching for Yun online for a week, and she still hasn't been heard from for a week, as if she had disappeared from the world. I rubbed my eyes and looked at the time on the screen, it was ten o'clock again. Although I was strong and had great self-confidence, the truth was cruel, and Yun really left as she said, with resentment and indignation against me. My eyes stared blankly at the screen, but it seemed as if I was looking farther through the screen, I should be awake, she was getting farther and farther away from me, out of reach. I can't be like a fool who only knows fantasy anymore, I told myself that there is no grass at the end of the world, and as I spoke, my tears dripped onto the keyboard. This story, which started on the keyboard, ends on the keyboard again. At this time, I suddenly remembered that when I used to chat with her online, I repeatedly said that she was not Meilan, but she thought it was Ashley's business. Oh my God, I was so stupid, knowing that Ashley could only combine with Melan, and there was no possibility with Scarlett. Could it be that this is also a kind of providence?

The consequence of not doing work for a week is to be scolded by the manager. Now, Manager Zhu slapped the table and scolded me: "What do you want to do?" We're not a shelter here, and we don't care about your joys and sorrows, so you hurry up and do the work for me. I looked at him numbly, and when he was done, I said to him, "Manager, can I go?" Manager Zhu heard it, and roared like thunder: "Okay, you didn't react at all to what I just said, and if you don't want to work, please leave!" I was stunned, still saying in that half-dead tone, "Let me go, I'll go." Manager Zhu suddenly opened his mouth and stammered, he probably didn't expect me to say this, he seemed to be unable to step down for a while (I am really the pillar of the company, in the words of the manager, the manager can be missing, I can't be missing), and it is not good to say anything more. At this moment, Manager Gao came in.

Manager Gao first ordered Manager Zhu to leave first, and then turned his head to me and said to me in a gentle tone: "Don't be angry with him, he is like this, he has a bad temper, and he is a good person." My tone did not change, I was still half-dead: "What he said is not wrong, I am not angry with him." He pulled me to sit down with him and said regretfully, "Look at you, how did you lose weight like this during this time, is there something on your mind?" We are all worried about you, can you tell us that we will share the burden for you. My nose was sore, I almost burst into tears, I bit my lip and said, "I'm sorry, I've been doing very badly lately, which has caused a lot of inconvenience to the company, but there are some things I can't say, but now I'm really sad, and I can't adjust my mentality for a while." He patted me on the shoulder and said understandingly, "Oh, I know, we respect your ideas. In this way, you are in a very bad state now, and you may get seriously ill, so I suggest that you go home and recuperate for a month, and then go to work. I nodded gratefully, and couldn't help but ask, "So, what about that program transplant?" Isn't this a missed deadline? He smiled and told me that it didn't matter, that he was ready to hand it over to Wang Long and Zhao Hu (not his real name) to do it, and that if there was anything they could call me.

In fact, I already know that things are irreparable, and no amount of sweat, more tears, and more expectations are useless. A feeling of despair took over my body and mind. I suddenly understood Jia Baoyu in Huangmei Opera "Dream of Red Mansions", that desperate experience.

Background: Everyone arrives at Daiyu's coffin...... Ancestor: Daiyu, my granddaughter, we sent you to ......, and you have never enjoyed the glory of the world. Wang Xifeng: I know that sooner or later I will hurt you, today I shed true tears, and I am willing to shed it bit by bit to your side in Huangquan

Baoyu didn't say a word, he kept standing aside, what did he say? It's these people! caused Lin Daiyu to die in tears, and caused them to part with life and death. But what can he? can only walk to the coffin, bow deeply to his loved ones, and beg them to give them a chance, so that he can be alone with his beloved for a while (everyone can imagine that Ma Yun sang it vividly and vividly in the soul-leaving cavity of Huangmei Opera, and the lyrics were so sad that every time he listened to it, he would cry).

Ancestors, parents,

Sisters, Mrs. Xian,

Thank you for your magnanimity,

Thank you very much,

Thank you for giving birth to me,

Having given birth to me, this spirit and body,

Now I know it all,

I will never bother you again

Today I do not kneel to the coffin,

I just ask you for a favor,

Please, step back,

Leave me Baoyu alone,

Let me keep a vigil for her,

Let me be quiet with her......

After saying this, he bowed his head deeply, and then all the people withdrew, and he walked to the coffin:

The snow is severe and the coffin is cold,

Brother has no plan to put body temperature with you,

This wedding gown is thin and thin,

I lightly draped over you,

My bride is you,

I will hold the coffin in my hand and marry you......

You resent you and hated you, and you spoke carefully to me,

Why do you want to keep yourself alone?

You and I have an agreement in advance,

If you don't open the door, you knock on the door,

Today I pushed the door and shouted at the door to no avail,

Remake this door panel no one should do......

(Baoyu patted the coffin and cried bitterly...... ）

Sister, remember,

You and I have made a pact of life and death here,

How many oaths are there in the world, and this oath is the purest.

Oath a thousand times, life and death are divided,

The vast land is too unfair,

All sins can be ignored,

Partial to you and me, merciless,

Xiaoxiang's soul is broken, how to find the love?

I call the sky and the earth, who is asking?

It's good if you're gone, so red......

My sister is going, be careful all the way,

Don't be sad anymore, don't shed tears anymore......