Zhou Lanxiang took the last train from the provincial capital back to Shiyuan County It was already ten o'clock in the middle of the night, and she was the last to get off the long-distance bus, and her cold sweat was already soaking her body.

After a whole day of mental and physical torture, she didn't eat a bite, and she was able to get off the coach consciously.

After getting out of the car and looking at the empty bus station and the dark road ahead, her last trace of strength was gone, and her body was cold without a little temperature, and her feet walking on the road didn't know whether it was cold or numb, and it hurt like pins and needles.

In the sixties, there was only one street lamp on the main street, and only two dim light bulbs lit at the entrance of the bus station parking lot, and she sat on the only bench in the parking lot, and her whole body was drowned in darkness.

People who are usually so afraid of the black are not afraid at all now, what kind of black can have a little hope for the future is more terrifying?

In her previous life, she also had this mood, that was the day she learned that Xiao Jin was sentenced, she chased to the county, found the court from the Public Security Bureau, and chased from the court to the detention center, and finally it was dark, and she completely lost Xiao Jin's whereabouts, that night, it was as dark as now, and she was also hiding at the door of the bus station waiting for dawn.

But at that time, she still had hope, knowing that it was dawn, no matter how difficult it was, she would find Xiaojin, no matter how difficult it was, no matter how long it was, she would find him.

But today, she knew it wouldn't dawn.

Zhou Lanxiang looked at the dark sky, her mind was blank, she understood that the old doctor in the provincial hospital was right, life can still go on without children, you can still get married, and you can still live in harmony with husband and wife. She will also try to live a childless life well, as the old doctor encouraged.

But the old doctor didn't know that without children, her life would not have progressed.

She won't adopt a child anymore, in her previous life, she really raised two with her own blood, but in the end she ended up like that. She knew that not all children would be so vicious and unconscionable, but she would never adopt another child.

And Xiao Jin can't live such a crippled life with her, not because he doesn't want to, but because she doesn't allow it.

She can accept that she is not worthy of him, and she can accept her drag on him, these are all things that she can try to improve as much as she can, but the child can't, she can't accept that Xiaojin is going to live such an incomplete life with him.

Even if he wanted to, she couldn't let him make such a big sacrifice for himself.

It's dark tonight! There are no stars and no moons, and there is no light to see. She looked at the night sky, her eyes were dry without a trace of moisture, and her heart was so empty that she couldn't even raise the strength of unwillingness and resentment.

If people suddenly lose hope, they will not even have the strength to hate.

Zhou Lanxiang didn't know how long she had been sitting, she thought she would sit here tonight, give herself a night to be sad, she would cheer up at dawn tomorrow, and then work hard to live and work hard for a person's life in the future.

It wasn't until a coat with body temperature was draped over her and the white light of a flashlight came over that she slowly turned her head to look at the person who came, tall and steady, silent and simple, Zhao Jianguo, who was dressed in military uniform, didn't know when he was already standing by her side.

Zhou Lanxiang touched the clothes on her body, it was so warm, her body, which had been cold all day, finally had a trace of warmth, although that warmth was quickly blown away by the night wind.

Zhao Jianguo did not sit beside her rashly like he did when they met yesterday, but sat on the other end of the bench, separated by two people from her, "Xiaoxiang, Doctor Zhang told me about your situation, and I have been waiting for you here for an afternoon." ”

Afraid that she would be worried, Zhao Jianguo immediately added, "I told her, ask her not to publicize your illness, don't worry, no one knows except me." ”

Zhou Lanxiang smiled at him hard, "Thank you." She was very worried, most afraid that Xiao Jin would know, she was really grateful to Zhao Jianguo, if it wasn't for him to come forward, it would definitely be useless for her to tell Dr. Zhang herself, Zhao Jianguo's identity should still make that Dr. Zhang jealous.

She didn't ask Dr. Zhang why she went to Zhao Jianguo to tell her about her condition, she didn't have to think about it, the doctor must have felt that she was seducing this promising young man, so in order not to let Zhao Jianguo be fooled, she hurriedly went over and told him, let him know that she was a woman who couldn't even give birth to a child, and let him escape from the fire pit quickly.

Zhao Jianguo may have really waited for her for an afternoon and half a night, and his voice was a little hoarse when he spoke, and it seemed a little difficult to say word by word, but it was also very clear word by word, which made people inexplicably feel that he was very sincere.

"Xiaoxiang, I know that my family treats you like that, I am not qualified to say these things to you, and I don't plan to take advantage of others, I just want to give you a choice. I don't care if I have children or not, I want to marry you. ”

Zhou Lanxiang looked at him and couldn't say a word, her heart was mixed, so she could only listen to him continue, "I really don't care about children, I have two younger brothers in my family, I don't have children and I won't delay the inheritance, if I can live with you in this life, I am willing to have no children." ”

"Xiaoxiang, I've been thinking about it while I'm waiting for you here today, what if something happens to you? Thinking about it, I feel cold, I can't sit still at all, even if there is no car into the station, I can't sit still, I can only keep walking around the bus station, circle after circle can not stop at all, I am really afraid that I can't wait for you today, I ......"

Zhao Jianguo's voice was choked, and he breathed hard several times before he could speak again, "Xiaoxiang, I have never been so scared when I saw my comrade-in-arms being blown off a leg next to me." Compared to you, it doesn't matter if you don't have children. You believe me, I really don't care about children, I really want to marry you, I really want to be good to you,"

Zhou Lanxiang took off the coat on her shoulder, stroked it gently before handing it to him, and when she took it off, her body was blown cold by the night wind, but she still handed it over resolutely, "Thank you." ”

Zhao Jianguo didn't answer, the dark night covered his reddened eyes, but he couldn't hide his serious persistence, "Xiaoxiang, can you give me a chance?" I know my mother is very excessive, if you want, I will take you with the army when we get married, I promise you will not see them for a few years! If you think about it again, don't say no so quickly! ”

Zhou Lanxiang still maintained the posture of handing over the clothes, and her heart had calmed down, "Brother Zhao, thank you, I am really very grateful to you." ”

But no matter how grateful she was, she still didn't agree. Zhao Jianguo stood up suddenly, hiding his coat like a poisonous snake and beast, "Think about it again!" Don't talk about it yet! I have half a month's leave, and you will give me an answer when I leave, no, I have been waiting for you, and you can tell me anytime when you want! ”