"What did you say?" Lu's mother didn't react for a while, her eyes widened, and she looked at her daughter with some confusion.

Lu Xiaoqing's eyes flashed, and she pursed her lips, "Mom, I'm serious." ”

Mother Lu came back to her senses, her face changed and she said angrily: "Seriously? I think you're just messing around! No, I don't agree! Absolutely not! ”

Lu's mother was angry and excited: "After your father is gone, how many people look down on our family, and some people say that we are out of the house behind our backs!" I don't know what to do, I hold my breath in my heart, saying that I want to provide you two sisters with a study and confession, and let everyone see when the time comes, what's wrong with the extinction? What's wrong with not having a man in the family? I, Qin Cuifang, still raised a pair of daughters to become talents, which is stronger than the first two and three sons in the family! You guys are also angry, and you never let me worry too much, especially you, I was really happy when you were admitted to college, and I was so happy that I cried hard behind your back. Where's my go, isn't everyone envious, saying that I will teach my daughter? Who else would dare to look down on our family? Who dares to gossip? Whose daughter or son is as good as my daughter? ”

"If you have a decent job in a big city, and if you find a decent in-law in the future, you will be a real city person! When you go back to the village in the future, who doesn't look down on you? Who is not polite to hold you? Even with our family, there is light on their faces! My heart is also comfortable and happy! But now you tell me that you are going to quit your job in the city, and you are going to come back to raise chickens and farm, aren't you, you, you deliberately trying to make the people in the village see the jokes! After reading the book for so many years, it turned out to be a mud leg, you make people laugh! ”

Mother Lu's tone trembled, and her nose was sour and almost crying.

Lu Xiaojing was a little stupid in fright, and she didn't seem to have seen her mother so angry in her memory. She didn't want her mother to be angry, and she wanted to help her sister speak, so she stammered in a hurry: "Mom, sister, sister is not raising chickens and farming, she, she is not farming, she is planting, planting chrysanthemum tea, planting chrysanthemum ......"

"Shut up, what's the matter with you!" Lu's mother glared at her angrily.

Lu Xiaojing shrunk her neck and obediently shut up.

Open her dark eyes wide, look at her mother, and then look at her sister, she doesn't know who to help talk.

Of course, she wants her sister to stay at home, but what her mother said is also very reasonable......

Lu Xiaoqing had already thought that her mother would definitely oppose her when she said this, but she didn't expect her reaction to be so fierce.

She tried to communicate with her patiently and try to convince her.

But it didn't work at all, Lu's mother's eyes were red, emotional, and stubborn, no matter what Lu Xiaoqing said, she resolutely refused to agree.

Lu Xiaoqing's eyes were sour, and she held back her tears and said, "Mom, do you remember Mrs. Zhang, who passed away two years ago?" ”

Lu's mother was stunned.

Lu Xiaoqing said: "At the end of the year when Po Zhang passed away, she specially called her children outside, saying that they must come back during the New Year. The whole family has not had a reunion year together for many years, she specially raised a pig, you can kill the pig during the New Year, and the family is reunited and lively together. She is already old, it was the last year to raise New Year's pigs, and she will never be able to raise them again, and she will not have any more pigs if she wants to eat them. However, after all, she still didn't wait for her children to come back for reunion! When she received a call from her eldest son saying that she would be able to return home the day after tomorrow, she happily went up the mountain to dig winter bamboo shoots for her son and grandson, but fell down and never got up again. Mom, I don't want our family to be like this in the future, I don't want to be able to come back to see you for only a few days throughout the year for the Chinese New Year - sometimes I'm afraid I won't be able to come back for the New Year! I don't want that, Mom. ”

Lu's mother covered her face and cried.

Lu Xiaoqing also burst into tears, hugging Lu's mother and saying in a thick nasal voice: "Mom, Mom, you believe me, even if I don't work in a big city, I can still live a good life and fight for you!" ”

Lu's mother pushed her away, her eyes were red, and she didn't turn her head back into the room.

Lu Xiaoqing sighed softly and wiped her tears.

The soft and clean towel was handed over, Lu Xiaoqing raised her eyes and glanced at her sister, and took it to wipe her tears.

Neither sister spoke.

After a long time, Lu Xiaojing asked with some anxiety and hesitation: "Sister, that, you, do you really want to stay at home and not go out?" ”

Lu Xiaoqing glanced at her and smiled: "What?" Are you unhappy? ”

"No, no, no!" Lu Xiaojing's head shook like a rattle, thought about it, sighed "alas", put her hands on her cheeks, and said sullenly: "Of course I wish my sister would stay at home, but ...... Mom seems to have a point. If my sister really wants to stay at home, it's not for nothing to read so many books! ”

There was a bit of confusion in her eyes.

"Stop," Lu Xiaoqing glanced at her and suddenly couldn't laugh, and her finger poked lightly on her head: "Put away the vague thoughts in your head, I can tell you very responsibly, second sister, reading will never be in vain." Even if you are raising chickens and farming in the countryside, the results of those who have read books are absolutely different from those who have not! ”

"Really?"

"Of course. If you don't believe me, wait and see. ”

Lu Xiaojing raised her eyebrows and smiled, her dark and bright eyes under her delicate eyebrows were full of smile and trust, and the previous confusion was swept away: "Well, I believe in my sister!" My sister is of course different from others! ”

Lu Xiaoqing smiled and sighed silently.

Of course it's different, she went home to farm not to be discouraged and desperate to accept her fate, but to break out a path of her own.

The process will be arduous and full of thorns, but she is fearless.

Since she has decided, then, she will move forward bravely. When encountering mountains and rivers and bridges, nothing can stop them.

Two years ago, she forgot where she visited, and she once heard Uncle Liu's wife, Uncle Arong, talk about young people who went out to work very disapprovingly. Her exact words went something like this:

“...... Why go out and suffer that hardship and burden? The family has a field and land, and a good farming is better than any security, at least there is food to eat, and there will be no hunger. Money, if you have it, use it more, if you don't have it, use it less, and if you have money or not, it's not the same? Raise two pigs, raise some chickens and ducks, you can kill and eat meat during the New Year's holiday, and you can sell it for money, and the money from the sale is enough to buy oil, salt, sauce and vinegar! Even if you don't have any money for a while, you can take credit from the commissary. Why be so greedy, go out and work hard for others......"

When she heard this, Lu Xiaoqing felt an indescribable coolness in her heart, as well as a faint pity and sorrow.

If people live just to live, then what's the point? It's scary to think about.

However, she can't say that Uncle Arong's statement is wrong, everyone has the right to choose what kind of life everyone wants.

Some people accept the way of life that has been passed down from generation to generation, and take it for granted, and never want to change it; Some people yearn for a better life and a wider world, so they choose to go out, but they are limited by their own abilities and knowledge, and most of them are destined to struggle only at the hardest bottom.

Lu Xiaoqing is neither, she laughs at herself, passively accepts and actively challenges, there is always a difference, although there may be no difference in the eyes of others.

For the sake of her mother, for the sake of this family, she is willing to give it a try.