I lay limply on the bed, my whole body seemed to be exhausted, and I heard the sound of water in the bathroom in a daze. After a while, Xiao Se walked to the bedside. "It's a call, it's really timely, save you from boiling hot water again." He carried me into the bathroom and put me in the tub, and he stepped in himself and soaked in the warm water with me. He applied me a bath gel and gently rubbed my body, and I let him stroke me until I was back in bed, and I was fully conscious. "You're late for work, aren't you?" He set the alarm for 7 o'clock, and now it's 8 o'clock.

"I don't have to go to work today, the alarm clock is set for you. What happened in the hour was originally included in the plan. He smiled at me, "You will succeed, I have been conquered by your captivity, night and day, I think it is to be intimate with two completely different women, it is amazing." You have given me such a great benefit, even if it is just to hone me as a character in the play, I will admit it. When you need a sparring partner in the future, you can summon me at any time, and I'll be happy to help you. ”

"If you get cheap, you can sell well." I'm a little angry.

He stared at me intently, his smile gone, and an invisible layer of worry pressed against his contemplative face. "But you have to be careful, don't go mad."

I squinted at him. "What do you mean by going mad? Are you afraid that I will treat my dance partner Zhuo Yichen like that? ”

"I definitely didn't mean that." He said in a low and sincere voice, "I will never doubt you again, I am worried that you will get too deep into the play and cause a split personality." I'll show you my mother's diary at night, and you'll see why I'm worried. ”

His eyebrows and eyes were filled with distress that could not be concealed. "To be honest, when you became a black swan, it gave me unprecedented passion, but I appreciate you as a white swan even more. Would you like to start living with me today? It's okay for you to vent at me and release your suppressed emotions, but don't let the dark side of your heart swallow you, I'll find a way to help you. ”

I was so impressed by his poise and composure that I hesitated a little and agreed.

He walked with me to the dance troupe, and when he passed a pharmacy at the entrance of the community, he paused and looked at me helplessly and apologetically. "I didn't expect us to be ...... so quickly So I didn't prepare anything, so I had to let you take medicine. ”

"It's okay." I smiled, "If you've been preparing, I'll wonder if it's still used on other women." ”

"I swear, I've never had another woman, and if I lied to you, I'd be ......" I reached out to cover his mouth, "don't swear like that, I'm joking with you." ”

He took my hand and looked me in the eye as if he had a stomach full of words to say, but he didn't know where to start, and finally he just sighed. "You wait for me here, I'll go in and buy medicine."

I stood at the door of the pharmacy, looking at the vast rain and fog with some distraction, it had been more than two years since my miscarriage, but the thought of the lost child still had a dull pain in my heart. Many women have already become mothers at my age, and although I am eager to have a child with Xiao Se and get that lost child back, my dance career does not allow me to think about it too early, and I want to keep dancing until I am 30 years old, or even longer and farther away. Since you have strengthened your determination to dedicate yourself to the cause of dance, you can only sacrifice yourself. Senator Ye is right, a 30-year-old man should get married and have children. Even if Xiao Se and I were able to start over, would he understand my choice? Will you support and encourage me to keep jumping?

I shook my head, trying to shake off all these worries. Let's think about happy things, it's good to be a godmother if you don't become a mother. Yu Meng is pregnant, and just reported the good news to me last week. She and Luo Wenhao have been looking forward to this child since the beginning of their marriage, and they have been looking forward to it for more than a year. Yu Meng was worried about whether she would be infertile because of her previous miscarriage experience, but now she can finally breathe a sigh of relief. I am also looking forward to the arrival of this little life as much as they are, and I will be the godmother of my children.

During the morning rehearsal, I stunned everyone in the room with my performance.

Zhuo Yichen's face was full of shock. "Your eyes look like they're going to devour me, I never thought you'd have such a bewitching side."

Ye Zihan's eyes lit up in surprise. "Tong Xin, it's incredible! After just one weekend, there was an amazing leap forward, how did you do that? ”

"I ......" I was embarrassed to say in front of everyone, and only whispered to Ye Zihan that it was because I was with Xiao Se on a stormy night, and my inspiration was suddenly stimulated.

Ye Zihan smiled. "You really should be close to Xiao Se, that will help you to mobilize your passion."

When I returned to the apartment in the evening, the window panes had been installed, the interior had been cleaned up, the computer had been sent for repair, the LCD screen had been replaced with a new one, and everything was in order.

I packed some clothes and necessities, packed my big suitcase for the outing, walked out of the apartment, and closed the door. I don't know if this decision to live together is the right one, but I can clearly feel the yearning and desire in my heart, and in addition to helping me play the black swan, I am also willing to try to minimize the distance between me and Xiao Se to see if I can give each other enough security. As for the rest, I'll plan for later.

When I arrived at Xiao Se's residence, I found that the living room was equipped with movable lifting dance training rods near the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the floor glue was also paved, and the window glass could be used as a mirror to facilitate my practice at home. The bedding in the upstairs bedroom was replaced with new ones, and the old ones were washed and hung on the balcony, so since I was going to live here, I naturally didn't need to use those old items anymore.

In the evening, Xiao Se solemnly handed Ye Ying's diary into my hands. "Just in the content of "Swan Lake", there are some private things that are related to my mother's reputation, and they should not be shown to others. But I don't think there's anything to hide from you, I treat you as my own family. ”

"Thank you for trusting me." The warm current of emotion rippled in the bottom of my heart.

"Don't say thank you in the future, it's too much to see." He kissed me lightly on the forehead.

Later, he opened his laptop and got busy working, and I took my diary in my hand and read through the content related to Swan Lake, hoping to get more inspiration from it. Makarova is coming soon, and I hope to be recognized by this world-class ballet superstar, and the few words of recognition will be very encouraging and motivating for me.

As I flipped the yellowed pages of the diary, the image of the ballet queen Ye Ying also stood between the papers, becoming vivid.

Ye Ying wrote in detail about her mental journey of starring in "Swan Lake", including overcoming all kinds of hardships in 32 laps.

“…… The white swan is a goose turned from a human! During the rehearsal process of "Swan Lake", I gradually reduced the swan to Ogita - a pure, beautiful, kind, love-crazy girl, her journey from fantasizing about love, looking forward to love, and suffering deeply for it, to finally dying for love with hope, made me ponder over and over again, a dance step, a look, and even a subtle change in the range of movements......"

“…… I hovered between the white swan and the black swan, emotionally, turning around, one love, one hate, one heaven, and the other hell from which there will be no return...... The white swan is more like my true colors, and the black swan ......" is a blank behind, only a long line was dragged out with a ballpoint pen, and the paper was scratched, which shows the strength of the pen. ”

Turn the page back.

“…… I seem to have gone mad, trapped in the world of black swans and unable to extricate myself. I urgently need to talk and vent, but Jianjun is very busy and can't see his people all day. I'm so depressed, I feel like I'm about to collapse......"

“…… Huzi's eyes seem to be getting more and more wrong when he looks at me, and he blames me, I am too deep into the play to extricate myself, and I can't be relieved. When he is not dancing, he often looks at him uncontrollably with the eyes of a black swan, and even his action language becomes flamboyant and charming. Maybe I have restless, rebellious, and crazy factors in my bones, but I have always been bound by tradition and suppressed by strict family education......

Turning a new page, you can see the traces of many pages of paper being torn off, torn up, written and torn, and the painful entanglement of the person who wrote can be seen.

“…… After all, I still took that unforgivable step, although I was forced by the tiger, my resistance was not strong, and even half-pushed. I myself have an inescapable responsibility, and if it weren't for my strong temptation, how could he have fallen into the same madness as I did? I've fallen into hell, what should I do? What to do? What to do? ”

Without an answer, Ye Ying herself didn't know how to escape from hell at all!

After that, there was nothing about "Swan Lake", only four words that made me creep: the tiger is dead!

I held the journal in my hand and shook all over. With a "pop", the diary fell to the ground, and I quickly bent down to pick it up.

Xiao Se heard the noise, looked back at me, and got up and walked towards me.

He sat down beside me, and I leaned on him as if I sought solace. "Who is Huzi?"

After a few seconds of silence, he spoke: "My mother's dance partner, Jiang Hu, who played Prince Siegfried in "Swan Lake", everyone in the dance troupe affectionately called him Huzi. ”