At this time, I can deeply understand Lan Jingyu's irritability and annoyance, of course, what she said about "sleeping in the pigsty" is an exaggeration.

I finally stayed up until dawn, I simply got up, at 5 o'clock in the morning, I went out and saw Ye Zihan wearing a practice uniform to go upstairs, and she was leaving in the morning, she also seized the time to practice, her success is not just by talent and luck, every sweat and a harvest, it is extremely hard training.

I read a newspaper interview about Ye Zihan very seriously, which said that she was always praised for her good hind legs and won a lot of envy, but in fact, her hind legs were trained by herself in school. She never practiced in front of people, and waited for the other girls in the dormitory to fall asleep one by one before she began to practice secretly, training 200 back muscles. Fortunately, she slept on the lower bunk, and if it was the upper bunk, her plan would have been ruined long ago.

I called out to Ye Zihan and asked her to help me with the medicine. She didn't ask anything, only told me to be careful next time, if I fell and injured myself, it was not a joke, it would affect my future. I was ashamed to say yes again and again, both grateful and glad, if I asked Yin Jingshu to help, she would definitely get to the bottom of it, but fortunately I met Ye Zihan and relieved me of my embarrassment.

At 8 o'clock in the morning, the group left Yejia Village and embarked on the return journey. Ye Zheng and Hong Xiulian sent us to the entrance of the village. The sadness and reluctance of the second elder were written on his face, Ye Zihan looked faint and couldn't see the emotion, but after getting in the car, I clearly saw tears slipping down from the corners of her eyes.

The car drove some distance, and through the car window, I saw Ye Zihan's parents standing there waving at us, until the mountain road turned a corner and their figures disappeared. I also felt inexplicably sad and had a sour nose.

The day after I went back, the back injury was almost healed, and my life was back on track, practicing and rehearsing, monotonous and unchanged. There is no elevator in the dance company building and the actors' dormitories, and the actors and actresses wear practice clothes and slippers every day, and walk up and down the stairs with figure-eight feet. From 9:30 a.m. to 11 a.m. is the basic training, after a simple lunch, the rehearsal begins to 5 p.m., the rehearsal content is different every day, the only constant is that the amount of exercise is very large, at the end of the day, I don't want to move. During this time, the performance is very heavy, and I often have to continue rehearsing in the evening.

Half a month later, the Chinese version of Romeo and Juliet was about to start, but I was facing serious problems and my weight plummeted. Before I arrived in Yejia Village, I noticed that I had a tendency to gain weight, and I had already paid more attention to my diet, but I didn't expect that I still couldn't stop my weight from 46 kg when I graduated from dance school to 54 kg. I was probably a late grower, and I gained weight during puberty. I'm 1.68 meters tall, which is a serious excess for a ballerina.

The change in my body shape naturally couldn't escape everyone's eyes, and first Zhuo Yichen gently reminded me that during the recent rehearsal, he picked me up and felt more difficult to spin than before. Then one morning, when I was resting, Li Sumiao suddenly stared at me and said with a serious expression: "Tong Xin, aren't you still far from middle age, why did you start to get lucky." "There were several other actors in the room, and they all laughed, and I was so ashamed. An even bigger blow was yet to come, and after rehearsals that night, I was called by Qin Feng to his artistic director's office.

"What's the matter with you lately, being fat like this" Qin Feng opened his mouth and questioned me, his stern eyes reminded me of the teacher's reproachful gaze when I weighed myself too heavily in dance school. At that time, we had to weigh ourselves more than twice a week, and before weighing, everyone ran to the toilet in unison, and even if we lost even a little weight, we would feel less indebted to the ballet teacher. In the process of getting on the scale, we stood on tiptoe one by one, one foot and one foot cautiously on the scale, even looking down at the scale and holding our breath, not daring to make too much movement, for fear that the act of taking a breath would cause the scale to deviate to the right. Those of us who study ballet know the characteristics of various scales and conclude that weighing on electronic scales is too heavy.

In the face of Qin Feng, I was like a student who had made a mistake and couldn't hold my head up.

Seeing that I didn't say anything, Qin Feng spoke again: "I'll give you a month, if you don't lose weight, your qualification as the second heroine of the new drama will be cancelled, in addition to losing weight, if the rehearsal process does not reach the level of the heroine, it is also possible to change roles at any time." ”

I looked up in horror, my mouth open, speechless, I was sure that my lips must be bloodless.

Qin Feng looked at me expressionlessly, he was like a cold judge, controlling my fate.

I straightened my back and took a deep breath, trying to calm myself. "I will definitely do it," I said clearly, almost word by word. This is also the oath I made to myself, I can't let Qin Feng look down on me, and I can't lose the opportunity I won so hard. Qin Feng may wish I was eliminated, so he could push Lan Jingyu to the position of the second heroine.

"That's good." Qin Feng nodded coldly, "You can go, we'll see you in a month." ”

I walked out of the office with sluggish steps, slowly descending the stairs and out of the company's building. Raindrops were falling from the sky, the kind of rain that is common in summer, drifting for a while, stopping for a while, being big and small. I didn't bring an umbrella, and I didn't care if it was raining, but I had a cool feeling that cleared my chaotic mind.

Suddenly, an umbrella was placed over my head, and a familiar and brisk voice shouted, "Where we don't meet in life, we meet again." ”

I was startled and came into contact with Xiao Se's grinning eyes. His young face was full of vitality and joy, but my heart was full of confusion and loneliness.

"You," I was stunned.

"I saw you in the rain in the upstairs hallway, and I rushed down." Xiao Se smiled frankly, "Paul came over to discuss with Qin Feng and Ye Zihan about the revision of the script of the new play, it's so late, they are really desperate." Where are you going, I'll send you. ”

At the mention of the new drama and Qin Feng, my emotions doubled down. I looked at him for a few seconds, and then, almost indifferently, said, "The dormitory is very close, I just need to run over there, no need to send it." ”

I turned to leave, but Xiao Se pulled me back under the umbrella. "What have I offended you again" He looked at me a little confused, "I remember that our relationship has improved before, why do you look like you are rejecting people thousands of miles away"

I sighed. "It's none of your business, I'm in a bad mood."

"Why are you in a bad mood?" asked Xiao Se. It was dark and rainy outside, and he certainly couldn't tell that I had gained weight recently, and besides, compared to normal people, my figure looked completely different from the word "fat".

"Tong Xin" Someone called me, and I turned around and saw Zhuo Yichen walking towards us with an umbrella. He stood still, looking at us quizzically.

"Are you going back to the dorm?" I asked.

Zhuo Yichen said yes.

"Then I'll be with you." I left Xiao Se and got under Zhuo Yichen's umbrella by myself, "You go and get busy, we all live in the dormitory of the dance troupe, and I will go with him." ”

Xiao Se looked at us silently, Zhuo Yichen nodded to him as a goodbye, and I bowed slightly, and we left side by side.

After walking some distance, I looked back and saw Xiao Se still standing in place, with his back to us, and in the drizzly night, the street lamp cast his back on the ground for a long time, setting off a desolate, lonely, desolate atmosphere. I'm infected by that atmosphere,

I also feel unspeakably lonely, bitter and confused.

I walked forward slowly, and Zhuo Yichen also slowed down, keeping pace with me. We were silent all the way, and when we arrived downstairs in the dormitory where I lived, Zhuo Yichen tentatively asked, "Is Paul's translator chasing you?"

"What" I looked at him confused, not knowing what he was talking about.

"I mean Xiao Se" Zhuo Yichen hesitated, "I think he seems to be very interested in you, does he want to pursue you?"

"How is that possible?" I reacted, "It just happened to be." ”

Zhuo Yichen let out an "oh" and didn't continue the topic, just looked at me directly. "I know you're in a bad mood, are you being criticized by Qin Feng?"

"Yes," I admit bitterly. In front of Zhuo Yichen, a brother who has cared for me for a long time, there is nothing to hide, "He said that if I don't lose weight within a month, the qualification for the B role of the new drama will be cancelled." ”

"This is too much" Zhuo Yichen was surprised and indignant, and he quickly comforted me, "Don't worry, it's just to lose weight, it's not a difficult thing, I believe you can do it." ”

I nodded, and my tone was firm. "I'll try."

Zhuo Yichen's eyes flashed, and a smile floated on the corners of his mouth.

I barely smiled at him, too. "I'm up."

"Tong Xin" Zhuo Yichen's voice was hoarse and gentle, and he seemed to have something to say to me.

"Hmm," I looked up at him.

He opened his mouth and smiled a little shyly. "It's nothing, come on, I'll support you" he made a fist clenching motion.

"Thank you" a warm flow flowed into my heart.

After separating from Zhuo Yichen, my mood improved. The building I live in is a single dormitory, just like when I was in dance school, with shared bathrooms and toilets on each floor. Only the dancers of the company who lead the dance are allowed to live in the decorated single apartments in another building. Yu Meng lives next door to me, and when I got closer, I saw her knocking on my dormitory door. "Tong Xin, I just want to see if you're back." She asked with concern, "What is Qin Feng looking for you" When Qin Feng called me to the office, many actors present heard it.

I opened the door and let Yu Meng come in, and told her truthfully.

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